fight b/w my mind and my brain ..

At morning whn i open the forum n saw the news tht sid is about to quit the show ... my heart broke into million of pieces ... at frst i thnk might its my horrible dream ...or may be its a joke ... but whn everyone is making posts ... thn i got into into my senses thn reality hits me very badly m not able to digest this yr ...

At presnt my mind n my heart both r fighting with each other ... they both r harming each other n me ... jst crying ...
I dont know whom i listn my mind who jst try to tell me tht ... he is a actor n he have a right to choose anythng which is his decision... my mind told me today he is star of teleivision world ... but in future he will be super star ...u have to move on... with him ...if u love him.. thn rspect his decision

But my heart ... mera dil kuch sun ne ko taiyar hi ni ...my heart jst want to hold him... jst want to stay in tei as long as the show exist ...kaash main kuch kr pati ... kash sid ko rok pati... n bol deti... plzzz stay dont broke my heart ...
My heart remind me all those dreams which i saw ... of kunj ... after the leap... his re entry ... his new look... his tashan with twinkle ... new kind of feeling ... thoda pyar thoda takrar ... their chemistry ...but ... but... but ... my dream will never come true ...


I jst wanna say onethng to cvs ... n its my request ...i m not able to see any other man as kunj sarna ... cvs how an u do tht how can u choose any other guy as kunj sarna ... if sid is leaving thn end his character but i cnt tolerate any other guy as kunj sarna ...

N mera dil abhi b khta h ... shayad sid yeh show na chode .. hope ...
I will be positive untill sid himself clarify tht he is leaving ...
If he is leaving ... thn i have a short message for u ... l love u from bottom of my heart ... n will always love u no matter in which character u r ... u will always stay in my heart ... all the bst for ur future ... if u have decided thn ... jst do wht u want ... all ur fans will alwys wth u ...

But yr ... abhi bhi i want to say ... plzzz dont leave the show ... plzzz thngs will be sort out ...

same thing is happening with me