My dear Cvs, let's make a deal. Please tell me if you plan to keep your word or not, so that next time my poor heart will be saved from a heartbreak. Honestly, what are they experimenting about? How to make the most boring episode? How to chase fans away? Or how best a headache can be induced?
Once again, an episode full of Sahil Mr. wood, Pari Poisoneeta and their strange acting. Delusional thought process and illogical revenges. This is it, I had enough. The saving grace was that tiny microscopic moment where SwaSan gave Ahuti.
So once more, I'm writing a post which is one scene centric instead of an episode. Forgive me, I can't bear to write the torture I went through.
Aaj jane ki zidd na karo
Yunhi pehlu mein baithe raho-yun hi pehlu mein baithe raho
Tum hi socho zara kyu na rokein tumhe
jaan jati hai jab uth ke jate ho tum
tumko apni kasam janejaa baat itni meri maan lo
aaj jane ki zidd na karo..yunhi pehlu mein baithe raho
Waqt ki kaid mein jindagi hai magar
chand ghaddiyan yahi hain jo azaad hain
inko kho kar meri jane-jaan umar bhar na tarasti raho
Aaj jane ki zidd na karo
Yunhi pehlu mein baithe raho-yun hi pehlu mein baithe raho
Those flames of the sacred fire, had witnessed their lives changing so many colors. Most moments of their incredible journey was witnessed by the god of flames.
Remember when, he filled her Maang? There was a lamp with a tiny flame burning in the name of the lotus eyed lord. There were so many eyes, with varying emotions witnessing that moment, but only the flames would have been as pure as what he felt for her. It was no longer guilt, at how her brilliantly lit life was darkened by his wars, it was no longer sympathy one could hardly feel anything of the sort for someone as strong willed as she was. It was not awe either, for Sanskar had felt his far share of astonishment at this delicate soul, which left him with a need to cherish a forever. It was love and he had known it then. She was yet to know.
It had been flames that rose in anger, when his family would not believe how she was the victim and he was the monster. It was the flames that witnessed him confessing all his crimes. It was those flames that heard his confession. When he finally decided he could no longer hold it back. When Sanskar finally confessed he loved Swara.
They had taken pharas not once but twice around these flames. Once it was not the way it was supposed to be, it was left incomplete. The next time, they both promised their life and soul to each other and the flames blessed them...with warmth of love and light of happiness.
It was the same flames that lit the lamps at Diwali. When he said those memorable dialogues, "Math jaao na, main jiunga kaise?" That's from where I picked up the song for this write up.
Sanskar had always wanted her to stay, closer to him, filling the void of his life, giving words to his silence, making memories in the time passing by. But he doesn't call out to her vocally, it's all in his eyes. Only if she looks into them.
And today again, those flames witnessed a moment. A unique moment that was, where one's call was not reaching the other. She was far too away, he was far too silent, still the flames of love are burning...and burning bright. Isn't it symbolic, how even mistakenly she wouldn't share those moments with another? It is always him and no one else. How powerful could such love be?
Again ending on a different verse. This might be Swara's thought when she looks at Sanskar.
Aisa lagta hai Zindagi tum ho
Ajnabi kaise ajnabi tum ho
Thanks for reading. Your views are welcome and cherished so please comment.
Love,
Sakura
For those who do not understand the verses...
Opening...
Don't insist on leaving today,
Sit here, by my side
Think for yourself why won't I stop you
When you leave you take my breath along with you
I swear on your life, listen to me this once
Don't insist on leaving today,
Sit here, by my side
Time has confined life but
There is freedom in these tiny moments
Don't lose them and regret for the entire life
Don't insist on leaving today,
Sit here, by my side
Ending...
It seems you're my life
Stranger what stranger are you?
PS: Guzals don't belong to me. Image credit goes to Sumi @coolgal270, she made it especially for this post, such a sweetheart she is🤗
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