But me, I was really is a thankless job, being a projector in this house that is. To throw over your precious random set pixels that you have no control over (my beloved pristine white screen)...to bow down to one man's mess is just tiring. I can't take this anymore, I have nothing to lose, today is the final day.
At first when we both met we thought this would be a happy place to be in. A rockstar no less, surely this was the most exciting project to be part of. A journey through music, through colours through trippiness. If done right we could even have children, BOSE sound systems if we planned it at the correct time.Such were my plans all for it to come down crashing so cruely.
We started out with some happy couple pixels but slowly that morphed into only torso pictures. I mean there are only so many you can deal with those, but every job has it's trying times and we took this as one of those experiences that will help us evolve. Maybe it would work with different settings. We could go through the range of every button.
Then for a few months there was no work, I didn't know whether to sigh in relief that my beloved wouldn't have to undergo the torso torture anymore or be worried that we won't be communicating any more. We settled for some months of silence, occassionally speaking when someone switched us on for cleaning purposes. Still in that silence we reached a new level in our relationships, wonderful depths were explored. Alas it was all to end too soon.
Resurggence of random pixels started a week ago, this time it was a pretty face (I actually felt happy that I could live up to my true potential.) But soon my colleague the camera informed me that these were not the oh so cute captured a picture of her best moments when she didn't know category, instead they were STALKER territory. You can imagine the terror that went through us, what were we contributing to.
The pretty face was soon joined by another face, which didn't belong to the torso we were afore used to. These seemed like pictures swiped from some happy home. Back and forth, back and forth shuttering noisily I went through the life and times of this happy couple.
Yesterday was the worst day of my life, in front of my eyes I saw my beloved being engulfed in flames, I could do nothing except voice my pain through the shuttering as I still went back and forth. Trying to make sense of this pointless violence. What harm did she do to you, did we not listen to everything you made us do ?? How could you, you vile man. As the flames leapt up and the acrid smell filled the air, my beloved gave one last hurrah before succumbing to her injuries. Maybe it was a good thing we didn't have children, for them to see her go in this manner would have just been so traumatic.
That was yesterday, today I hear him wanting to replace my beloved...he wants to bring in someone new...to inflict the same torture on them...but enough is enough...I will not be party to this anymore...any shutter that happens will now only be blank, load all the images you want, connect all the ancilliary devices you want but I will not translate them. It will be all white...empty...just like my life. And I'd liek to see you replace me, ever heard of short cicuiting ? You just set her on fire, I'll set your house on fire. But until then I will not give you the joy of seeing anything you want. Today is the day. Bring it on...I have all the time in the world.
Anupamaa
