Dear sister-in-law,
Honestly sometimes, I wish I had never met you and we had never turned accomplices. If we hadn't, it probably wouldn't have unleashed the Lucifer in you. Of course you know as well as I do that I would never seriously wish for that. I would have never found the bundle of happiness, the love of my life, my Swara if I hadn't interfered and I am glad that I did. I will never be sorry for the fact that we met and that she choose me. I'm glad that I am the only one that can bring her so much happiness. At the risk of sounding like a pompous prick, I say this and you will agree, if given a chance either of us would gladly go through all of it again if it meant to be together. Which brings me back to the topic at hand. You!
Who are you?! Didn't expect that question from your guru, did you Ragini? I thought I understood you but I have realized I probably have never been so wrong about someone my entire life. When we met, you were the sweet and innocent girl who truly believed she had been wronged by her own sister and sought revenge. I befriended you for my own selfish means of course, yet I related to you, to your pain and your drive. After all who could understand the pain of being betrayed by your own sibling better than I? And so my accomplice turned into my "duppattewali dost". It was I who introduced you to the game and thought you all the moves and counters you ought to know but when I resigned, I was too naive to think you would follow. I was gravely mistaken to have believed you to be a knight while you saw yourself as a mere pawn. Honestly, the fact that I did not show you the way back will always be one of my biggest regrets in life. I did of course try to right the wrongs, to bring you back, all in vain. I know that you hold me responsible for what you have turned into and I agree. But that was then Ragini!
Now however, is a whole new game so hear me while I say this Ragini, I will always live to regret loosing my duppatte wali dost but I cannot and will not be held responsible or blamed for what you are anymore. I refuse to feel guilty for a person that I cannot understand or recognize anymore! This girl that stands before me, calling herself Ragini - I refuse to acknowledge her as my cheli. The girl I knew as Ragini was a true player, my arch nemesis. We were equals for I don't know anyone else that gets you the way I did and you - me! Swara is my soulmate, a pure soul who refuses to see anything other than the innate goodness in others. I love that about her, she keeps me grounded. She is not naive of course, she knows who I am but you and I we are made of the same cloth. Or so I thought before tonight. You see as complex as it is, I get you trying to kill your own sister in the name of love, you trying to fake memory loss to once again wreak havoc in your sisters life, the sister you believed and I agree to a certain extent that betrayed you and your love. I also understood, as hard as it was as to why you did what you did with Swara during the whole maalkin mess! I could have put an end to it if I really wanted to and you know I would have if it weren't for bade papa and also the fact that I wanted nothing to do with you or your sister at that time. I did however like I said, understood why you did it. It was exacting my punishment for all the wrongs I did by you, wasn't it? Swara was just collateral damage. You almost succeeded too you know if it wasn't for that divorce mishap! You can't honestly have believed that I fell for that ridiculous lie about Swara signing the divorce papers for 10 crores. If you really thought that then you were a bigger idiot than the rest of my family weren't you?That was the beginning of the end of the cheli that I knew. Swara, my wonderful Swara not only convinced me of her love but also saved my family from the destruction that you had planned for them. But in the end of course you got what you wished for all along, your right as Laksh's wife and the love you believed you were entitled to. That is what you longed for hadn't you? Laksh to love you, not Swara and for Swara to stop being a threat to your relationship? You got exactly that! Swara has moved on and you know as well as I do that she has never been so in love and happy as she is with me. It was you, wasn't it ,who went to great lengths to make sure we did marry the last time? We knew why you did it and it made complete sense too. Swara marrying me would ensure Lucky moved on, squashing that small threat of their probable re-union completely. After all a girl divorcing a brother for another is never heard of in our society isn't it and "the Maheshwari khandan" would never allow a blasphemy such as that to happen! So pray tell me, why is it that you now insist on Swara not marrying me? Because honestly if you believe that your Mom has actually returned from the other world to give you a sign by crying through a freakin' photograph then either you are a crazy person that needs immediate medical attention along with that Mausi of yours or you have become so completely blind in your hate for the sister who had and will always have the best interests and wishes for you, that the very thought of her in the Maheshwari house causes you nightmares. Are you really that insecure about your relationship Ragini, that you really believe that her mere presence would affect it? Because let's face it you know as well as I do that what Swara feels for me right now is much more powerful than what she did for Laksh. She is mine and she will always be mine. Always! Which leaves only you and Laksh. Do you not believe in Laksh's love for you or do you believe your love for him is so weak that it would not suffice? Which is it Ragini?! I fail to understand you anymore. Nothing you say or do makes sense anymore. The makeover, playing the maalkin, throwing parties, instigating Kavita against Swara, blaming Swara for stealing Kavita's first love - pot calling kettle? None of it makes any sense! None of it shows the girl who outwitted her guru quite a number of times. This girl is petty, unintelligent and more importantly weak! You have decided to cast away every aspect of you that commanded respect. The girl who fought the whole world for her love is gone, leaving only a shell in her place. The wickedest witch of 'em all to a babbling bumbling bimbo!? I pity her. I pity you.
P.S. No matter what you or anyone else has to say or do Ragini, the marriage will happen and that's a promise!
Always,
Swara's Sanskaar
Ye Hai Mohabbatein
Mangal Lakshmi
