Letter from Ragini to Sanskaar

Frenemy,

Its been so long since we talked Sanskaar. Like really talked. Remember those days? I hope you don't. I am barely recognisable now as your dupattewali dost anymore. I don't recognise myself.

I think I am the only one who ever knew or bothered about the why behind your initial plan of revenge. Your dead girlfriend. Kavita. I saw her in your eyes, when you were burning with vendetta. What do you see in Swara? I mean she professes to be your best friend..and yet, she does not know you at all. Or even shows any signs of wanting to as yet, isn't it? Sad. Poor you. Yes, I am mocking you.

Of course, everybody has always loved Swara. She is the first choice. Of Laksh, of you.There is something so true about her. I never knew who Swara loves.

She reciprocated Laksh's love for her at one point. Now she feels something for you...I simply do not get her point. As in...will this girl ever fall in love with someone at all, because he has stolen her heart? Or will she just decide she has to love someone just because they care for her?

Confused souls create more problems than they think they can solve. I had no confusion at all. I decided I want laksh...and I took him. What I did to attain him...may have been abominable. But it was effective. You must agree. You have to see the beauty behind my plans. The shrewdness. You are the only one sharp enough and maybe sympathetic enough to do so.

I am like Medusa. Turned into an ugly figure. My stare scares and kills. At one point, I was the pretty maiden...innocent and pure. Now...snakehead. Serpentile. The Villain of the story. Boo Hoo...yeah like I want pity.

No, I don't. I want Laksh. I have no idea exactly what made me fall for him. Maybe because he was the first one who came along. I should really have got to know other guys. Seen the world. Maybe then I would have known, that there should have been better people lined up for me...than a person who will never realise the depth of my love. Or value it. Maybe thats my punishment for my crimes. All that glitters is not gold. I staked my all for a bit of sparkle.

Yeah, now I am mocking myself. I deserved more than what I gambled for.If he had just tried to fall in love with me...then I would have loved him a hundredfold. It damages my self respect you know...feels like I am unlovable.

You know what I liked best about you? For one, you called a spade a spade.

And for another, you were the only real friend I had. Like ever. Maybe thats why you kept telling me to stop my madness. To turn back. You offered to let me scott free...take all the blame on yourself, when you suddenly decided to discontinue your vengeance spree.

You know what I find really annoying? The fact that we both are sad cases of unrequited love. And we both deserve to be loved back. You decided to redeem yourself and become goody two shoes...and I decided to wade deeper into the quicksand. I am sure someday, my dumb sister, who never knows what will keep her happy, will go running into your arms for shelter. You seem to be waiting for that.

But me? I scheme and I trick, I lie and I retaliate...only to watch my Husband, my love, panting after my sister, who is obviously not interested anymore. I made a poor choice. But I did make it..and I will not stop trying to make him choose me.

I saw you that day. The day I played mind-games with you...telling you Swara is laughing with Laksh. You were burning.

Thats how it feels Sanskaar. That's how it feels to be me.

You will never judge me. I know. Because you have been in my shoes.

Have you completely forgiven yourself for being the catalyst which made me into this monster? Don't. Its fun to watch you feel guilty. Laksh never feels any guilt for the way he broke my heart. Oh he pretended to. But he is too self centred to care.

Well, he broke it. Now he is stuck with me. And I will make him piece my heart together...whether he likes it or not. I can make him do anything I want. My pretty boy-toy.

I can exploit your weakness anytime. Swara. You dare not exploit mine. Laksh. Because your Mother India Wife will never let you.

I'll get my love-story. Best of luck with yours. But if I do not...I will not let you have your happily ever after. Malice is my strong point.

I wish we were not enemies,
Ragini.

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This letter was written in demand from Viji(CogitoErgoSum)..Viji, I hope this is what you expected. Did my best.

I wanted to write it, in reply to a letter written by Shrutu(tootiefrootie11)..sis I finally managed to finish it.

It also goes out to Shobs(ssroomani) and Raksha(moonstonespirit) who would like to see different shades of Ragini as much as I would. Preet(Smilelicious) you liked my last letter by Ragini..I hope you like this too.

and to anu(anu91) who wanted to read something on Sanskaar and Ragini.

Hope I did not disappoint any of u guys..or anybody else who reads it.

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