-Swara & Laksh Hidden Love-OS diary entry. (UPDATED)

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S u z a n n a

@Starry_Love

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Posted: 10 years ago

Firstly, writing it for the very first time 😆. So comments and feedbacks are very much appreciated. May do another follow up...after this..let's see how this goes...😆. Oh yeah no chappals please 😆. Constructive criticism allowed che!😳😆

Swara

Dear diary,

I hate the fact that I have to behave in such manner with Laksh. I cannot tell him that I love him ever. I know with a behaviour like this and keeping numb I am only hurting his feelings, breaking his heart, but what choice do I have? I know I cannot open up or else he will leave everything for me. For the sake of me, he will leave everything...and I cannot let that happen. I must do something.

Current situation, he is trying to make the atmosphere light, his smile, his talks, I can just sit here and listen for hours on end.

But reality shows a different path-way. I cannot do this...Why does things always have to be this way? Why cannot It be different? He says I may not be happy with the wedding..I just sit there without saying a word. My heart says speak up but my mind, it drifts in a different direction. I wish to tell him that I love him...I wish to tell him that I care, and I would be the luckiest person ever if I get married to him. But why cannot I just open up? I know I have a fear of him leaving everything behind but things may turn out different...after all his family, I mean his dad has brought this opportunity forward. So why I'm I scared? Why I'm I frightened? Why? Why I'm I getting these mixed emotions...Why this feeling as if something will go wrong? Just why?

His words when he uttered that I can back out of marriage and I do not love him, pierce my heart, His innocent expression...wish I could confess.😭 Wish I could tell him how I feel and what my heart wants. I wish! and I wish I do...Wish there was a magic wand to do so.

Wish I could change our destiny..Wish I could decide upon what we want. My heart yearns for him...He comforts me😳

Edited by sophiewonzer14 - 10 years ago

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Posted: 10 years ago

beautiful os! 👏

brilliant expression of feelings and sadness...and lovely caps!

do keep writing!

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S u z a n n a

@Starry_Love

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Posted: 10 years ago

Originally posted by: princessaaliya
beautiful os! 👏
brilliant expression of feelings and sadness...and lovely caps!
do keep writing!

Thank You so much dear! 😳

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Posted: 10 years ago

How sweet 😳 Pls continue Sophie loved the first part <3

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Posted: 10 years ago

wow awesome...sophu👏

plzz write more..

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Posted: 10 years ago

Res will comment after reading😃

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@Starry_Love

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Posted: 10 years ago

Dear Diary, (The perfect dream)

As I close my eyes, I see him; I see what it seems like a perfect dream coming true. I see us at our wedding. Everyone seems so happy, so content. His face is glowing; his happiness seems no bounds and it just warms my heart seeing him in such bliss of happiness.

What more could I have wanted other than this perfect wedding and now a start of a beautiful journey ahead. I look around; there are elaborate decorations, music being played and everyone just having a blast. I stand in the porch with my hand painted in the beautiful Mehndi and look down upon what will now be my destiny. I cannot believe we have come this far. Everything just looks and seems so perfect. As I wonder in my thoughts, someone hugs me from behind, it feels like a warm embrace...I turn around and see him. His mischievous smile, he holds my hand and we walk off the crowd and the hustle and bustle from the outer world.

He holds wrist and holds me close to him, Swara, he whispers, sending a thousand tingles...and as our lips are about to meet...I hear my name. "Shonu" Arrey Shonu! Wake up baba! With a whiny voice, I open my eyes. I am back in my own room. And mum is standing beside my bed, with her arms on her hips...Kaha khoi thi shonu? Itna der hochuki hain...ab utho aur tayar hojayo, hame hospital bhi jana hain.

A reality kicks in as I get ready to start my day. Oh what a dream that was. A bliss-ful dream. But right now, I got to leave. Need to see my beloved grandmother.

As we get to the hospital, I can see my grand-mother. She is still resting but no worries, she deserves this rest. She has worked so much and now she deserves this rest. As I sit there, just babbling with her. You see I can babble on with my grandmother for hours and I would not realise time surpass by. But today, I just am lost...Lost in my own little world. As I watch my grand-mother for hours, I just cannot get the dream off my head. How I wish it was a real one. Everyone was so happy; Every-thing was just so perfect. It was just amazing.

It was just the perfect dream which I know may not come true ever...which I know will perish away like a gust of wind.

Or will the reality of my dream come true?Why am I not content about it? why do I have this worried feeling within me? Why is it that I feel lost at ease? Just why?...There are so many questions and answers to them hidden within. The more I try and find out about it, the more I find myself getting tangled into the web of mysteries. The web surrounded by god knows what...It is too much now!

I just now want everything to go perfect...but will it?

-TBC!

-Next part is on Laksh😆

*Please note: A first time writer here, so do feel free to to be criticize/leave feedbacks. This will help me a lot in terms of writing*

Edited by sophiewonzer14 - 10 years ago