Rome/JIBCON 7//Diary: Day 1 of JIBCON posted! Pg.15 - Page 5

Originally posted by: -De.De-

SCRAPBOOK answer in my upcoming post, do read.. all of you! It seems it was main cause of some of punchlines which I didn't know until later. I hope I overanalysed but the attention I ended up getting, I feel it's involved!

Ok first of all, thank you guys for helping me put together an amazing scrapbook! I love you all and yes, it has reached in hands of boys.

Before I continue, I tried to verbally convey love from India and Pak. In return, Misha, Rob, Rich and even Mark (still not believing me about all love from India and Pak) send their love back to all of you. I had said to Misha, I will convey to you all, so here it is. He sends love back to you guys.

But I have to say, scrapbook got a lot of more attention than I originally thought! Not only from cast but from FANS too. A lot of fans went through the book and loved it and Ekta's 'global warming' comment became famous! 😆 Some fans even took picture of selective pages of book (mostly cover and my broken wings - edit). They all loved it and praised so much.

Now, I had a heavy emotional night on Friday night, during and after cocktail party and when I got to my room after 1AM, I ended up filling the last pages for my messages/letters to cast. I started with Jared and you'll know when it comes to Jared, I am very emotional and why I feel so connected to him. My letter to him became 3 pages and I said a lot of things, on how he helped me and a lot of things and in the letter I somehow ended up writing two things (which I think came into a lot of attention and I didn't even realised it, I am still hoping it's not the case). First, I wrote my original question which I wanted to ask them, in the scrapbook in my letter to Jared. Saying, in case, I don't get chance to ask and also said, I don't need answer but just wanted you and even fans to think about it. (The same question - about Fame and Privacy and fans). Then, I guess, I didn't learn from my stupidity in earlier in the day when I had gave Tahmoh birthday card with declaring my crush on him, my love for him. I ended up confessing to Jared, I made stupid mistake by writing to Tahmoh about my crush and I hope he doesn't read the card.

I wrote briefly to Jensen and then went on writing to Misha, Mark, Richard & Rob and lastly, Tahmoh.. had to write his on cover as finished the pages of book. As it was big book and wouldn't fit in bag and I had my camera too, I ended up giving book in autograph when I went to get Jensen's autograph (I saved my autograph with Jared for last, I was last, literally last one to get his autograph in second last session on Sun). Daniela was sitting with Jensen and as soon I saw him, first my heart was beating so fast then I saw him, really saw him and bad feeling took over. First thing came to my mind - he's not here! He was sitting in front of my but not here at all.

Daniela saw me and was asking me how I am (by now, she knows me too well), she loved my ring and was praising it. She took the book which I tried to explain to her and Jensen briefly looked at book and I could see his expressions 'you want me to sign this?!' Before he could say it, I quickly said it's for you and Jared and messages for rest of cast from India and Pak. Daniela went all awe and Jensen smiled a bit and was in awe as he took another sneak peak of it. He then quickly signed my card (he didn't even bother looking at what it was, just signed the blank piece in front of him), I thanked him and said love him. He smiled at me and thanked me I said bye and went from there. I saw Daniela putting the book next to all other presents to Jensen.

As my friend told me later that Daniela keeps all presents cast recieve and later sends them to their home after con ends and I was like.. great, he's not gonna read it, maybe I should've handed to Jared personally.

For rest of day and even Sunday, when few things happened, I kept thinking maybe they have read it, what if they read it. There were moments when I was like, 'holy shit.. I hope they haven't read my question in scrapbook' but then I relaxed that there is no way it happened!

On Sunday during my autograph to Jared, I tried to tell him about scrapbook and he's like, yes, the scrapbook.. he said it in a way like he is seen it and I thought, no way because Daniela has it. But I told him that I gave it to Jensen, it's for you two. He said thanks and I said love you, he said you too and I started to leave and he was leaving behind me as I was last person to get his autograph. He called me sweetheart when he saw me in autographs. From sweetie to sweetheart, I died! ☺️ ❤️

Then, punchline one was dropped on me like a bomb during trio panel (Tahmoh, Gil & Travis). I was the first one to ask them question and Tahmoh recognised me again and yes, by know.. we were more familiar. He said it again 'friend from London' I ended up asking them mashed up version of my question - fame and privacy one as panel staff made me cut down and also change it. During that, Travis & Gil thanked the fans and making sure ALL the fans know that ALL the gifts and everything Tahmoh received so far in this con by fans, he has seen it and loves it and ALSO Travis & Gil has seen it and enjoyed it! I was trying to become invisible in that moment!

Then Cockles panel (my answer above post) and then after convention added, later that night when I was saying ast goodbye to Daniela and she asked me to come back. We addressed few things - Jensen was one of them and then taking convention break for a year (unless boys wants it again in 2017 - which they wanted as it's confirmed, next yr), my ring (I need to send one to her soon), and a lot of more things and she really wants me to come back. Lastly, I requested to her if you could please make sure Jensen and Jared get the book and she thinks for a second and asked 'you mean love from India', I nodded and she quickly went into her phone, I think to get a picture of book. Then she shows me picture and after that it took me a lot of power to be on my feet!

Jensen freaking Ackles was READING our scrapbook in Green Room and with such attention. Daniela had said she'll either send me picture later or post on Twitter. Then things started to fall in place - Jared knowing about book and also rest of cast also knows and gone through the book. Travis and I think it was Rob & Rich or one of them saying, we all going through each other's stuff gotten from fans. They all has seen it, if not already read it. I felt, like joke was on me at that time. I was like... damn.. I shouldn't have written messages when I was an emotional wreck! I told Mark, I want to see him and Martin Freeman on stage to see who would win the battle of sassiness! 🤣

But bottom line is - they all have seen the book, especially Jensen and they love it! Daniela confirmed it. ❤️

So thank you guys!! 🤗

Originally posted by: -De.De-

Husna responding to your PMs and will hopefully respond and send soon, just so much happening at same time. But I have read and respoding to you. So, yep... will send it soon. ❤️

And thank you, love you all so much. 🤗 I am glad I have been able to share it with all of you. Being here, sharing it with you all made Jib even more special to me. Because, just months ago, I was same as you'll wishing for an impossible dream and suddenly it's true yet I still think it's dream!

Originally posted by: -De.De-

HUSNA - PM sent! Warning - a huge letter! Also, will respond to other messages later. Take care. 🤗