New os- updated 19.08

Sleep is always a better way to escape from the cruel life. They say that while we are sleeping we will forget all the worries and bitterness we are facing in our life, alas that is not the same in my case. For the world I'm in peace, away from all emotional turmoil . For them im luckily not going through what they are going through,,,they are partly correct too. Im not going through what they are going through but a lot more than that, who could not even share inner feelings to others or cant even express it. Even in my sleep I could feel so close to them - a shadow and a reflection .

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Guys thanks for the valuable comments...here is the next part...

A shadow of my Man! My very man who left his shadow to fulfill his duty as brother, as his brother's shadow. A reflection of a sister who also left me to fulfill her duty as a wife. I'm not at all complaining about them it's just that the void they created is hurting. The moment jijashree accepted his vanvas I have prepared myself to set free Sumitranandhan from the burden of our love for next 14 years. By that time I knew what will be coming in near future and I never want Sumitranandhan to be guilty for me. He is bound by his brotherly duty where as I'm by the duty of his wife. I have to be strong atleast in front of him coz he always said he loves his Mila, fiercy and brave Mila. I bid his farewell,much to the surprise of all including him as I have already relieved him by expressing what he actually wanted to convey me. But the most shocking news for me was awaiting when we Reached the royal court where Ram jijashree was in his vanvas attire but the earth beneath me shocked when my Sita didi was also dressed for her vanvas. She was my only hope when I prepared for Sumthiranadhan's departure. I prepared to be her support and to gain support from her but she was all ready to leave me and that too with set of responsibilities in her absence. But all I could do that instant was to pull her into a hug. I absorbed the much needed comfort and support to have it in me for years to come. she equally expressed her desperation to take me with her and absorb all my pain in that embrace. As they marched towards forest I wiped my last tear promising them not to shed it again in their absence, as it hurts them the most when I cry. I accepted to sleep for fourteen years so that my husband can fulfill his duties without any hurdle but I haven't imagined I will experience this pain while sleeping. Sleeping only put my body at rest and not my soul, which was closer to them. The desperation I had when I could sense my didi in danger, while Ravan kidnapped her. I could do nothing but feel my heart bleed. I just felt so small that I couldn't even protect my sister as she always protects us. Which reflection would be safe and sound when it's soul is in claws of evil. I cursed myself for leaving her alone. Least I would have been with her and comfort her. The moment Megnath wounded Sumitranandhan it was heart piercing for me. He is great warrior and no one can defeat him but now he can't afford to get attached like this as this will take a tol on both jijashree and didi.. he is the support system of jijashree, already he is away from Sita didi which gives unbearable pain for him, even if Sumitranandhan got a scratch jijashree will get devastated.. I know nothing will happen to him or sita didi but couldn't help but wishes to take away all the pain from both of them ...

Without much delay here into the story..

Agnipariksha