Avan, Aval, Adhu 65
“And they lived happily ever after” is one of the most tragic sentences in literature. It is tragic because it tells a falsehood about life and has led countless generations of people to expect something from human existence which is not possible on this fragile, imperfect earth. The “happy ending” obsession is both a romantic illusion and a psychological handicap. It can never be literally true that love and marriage are unblemished perfections, for any worthwhile life has its trials, its disappointments, and its burning heartaches. Yet who can compare the numbers of people who have unconsciously absorbed this “and they lived happily ever after” illusion in their childhood and have thereafter been disappointed when life has not come up to their expectations and who secretly suffer from the jealous conviction that other married people know a kind of bliss that is denied them. Life is not paradise. It is pain, hardship, and temptation shot through with radiant gleams of light, friendship and love.” ― Joshua Loth Liebman
The above thought makes a lot of sense, yes, but then does it always make sense in all given situations. No. Happily ever after does not mean that after marriage or after falling in love, a couple will live a perfect life. There will be trials and tribulations and you and your partner and the love that you have for each other will be tested again and again.
But even in those troubled times if you can clasp hands, clasp your sight, join your souls and say, ' In life and in death, in pain and suffering, in good and bad times, we will survive as one, not two' then that is happily ever after indeed.
Gayatri opened her eyes slowly and then her heartbeat accelerated along with the rapid fluttering of her eyelids as she blinked and then blinked herself wide awake and into total awareness. Sensing a presence, she turned to her left and was pleasantly surprised to see the Chief nurse Saroja sitting a few feet away in the only available chair in the room with her headphones still stuck to her head.
Removing them, she smiled and asked, ' Did you sleep well?' and Gayatri nodded and looked at her curiously and asked, ' Did you, no you didn't, no way you slept in that chair all through the night?'
' No, I didn't. I just got here an hour ago after my shift was done' Saro said and slowly getting up from the chair, she looked at it with distaste and quipped, ' If I spent a whole night seating my fat B.tt in this thing which passes itself for a chair, I am certain, I will be bed-ridden with either Bedsores or worse, Hemorrhoids.'
She checked Gayatri's pulse and smiled kindly and Gayatri thought, ' you remind me of a large sunflower out in the field, all radiant in full bloom.'
Head nurse Saro Anandhan looked down at Gayatri, ' I am a proud mother of two grown-up daughters and a grandmother to three. But, what you did out there in that lake fills me with pride and I wish you had been my daughter. Then, I would have gone around the whole hospital and town tom-tomming your heroic act and in the process garner a bit of limelight.'
Gayatri slowly sat up and piled up both the pillows behind her for support and resting on them very comfortably, looked at Saro, ' I don't know about being your daughter but I can be your friend. Forever.'
Saro nodded with a smile, ' Done deal. But, I cannot compete with your other friend.'
Pointing to the chair that she had sat on for an hour, ' Just 60 odd minutes in that bloody chair has made my whole body stiff and sore, but your friend sat on a far worse chair outside your room the whole night. Sorry, that is not a chair but a steel bench. Poor man, god knows in what condition his back and body are in.'
Gayatri's eyes opened wide in shock and in pain, ' You mean, Ravi right. Ravi was here in the hospital and that too the whole night.'
Saroja nodded, ' yes. He had brought dinner for you but sadly you were already asleep.'
She winked her right eye and said, ' Not to worry for the food was put to good use' and patted her ample belly and said, ' The man's mother must be some sort of magician or worse, a witch for I tell you I have not eaten such tasty food in all my life.'
Gayatri's eyes filled with happy tears and Saro smiled and said, ' Forgive me for being frank but if I were you then I wouldn't let him get away. For he is a real catch, the real deal and an awesome human being.'
Gayatri wiped her eyes using the bedsheet and said in a soft and sad voice, ' he is all that you say and more and yet he is just a friend, Saro. Just a friend.'
' Oh, oh' Saro went safely with an exclamation for she was lost for words and then she slowly enquired, ' is he married, Gayatri?'
' No, but far worse than that.'
' Oh, oh' Saro exclaimed again and pointing to Gayatri, ' So, you are married?'
' Once, not anymore. Happily divorced for many a year now.'
Saroja shook her head, ' I don't get it. I don't get both of you. But, what is this bond between both of you and why do I sense so much love and care in him for you and in you for him.'
Gayatri looked at her and went,' uh, uh, what?'
Chief Nurse Saroja Anandan shrugged her huge shoulders, ' what is it then between you both? Obviously, you are not spring chickens anymore and are getting on in years.'
Gayatri looked at her and slowly turned towards the light that was streaming through the windows and through the curtains and said, ' It is not about years and it is not about marriage and such stuff. It is only about what one feels for another and that is the purest form of love and state to exist in.'
' I love him regardless of what his manner of love for me is. Friend, casual acquaintance or maybe even less. Because I love him and that is it. Period.'
Both women looked at each other and Saro gently brushing away the few strands of hair that had fallen on Gayatri' forehead, ' It will be painful. It will hurt. So, why put yourself in that situation?'
' Because one cannot and should not expect another to love you just because you love them. I have fallen for him and that does not mean that he should fall in love with me. But, I will pray, hope and wish that he does and I am willing to wait all my life for that love that he will give when he is ready and with a full heart.'
' Why not now? You said he is not married so what is stopping him?
Gayatri patted her chest, ' his heart, Saro. His heart is not with him. It is with another and I don't know that part of the story.'
Unable to control the pain that ripped through her whole body, she sobbed loudly, ' That woman who has his heart and his love must be special. Really special, for a man like Ravi does not offer his love and faith lightly. She must be a goddess and God only knows what her life is like being away from him and that too for more than 25 years.'
Saroja Anandan was not a person that could be easily shocked considering the line of work she was in but she was shocked and moved.
' You mean, are you saying that your friend Ravi has been doing that for nearly 25 years. Holy Christ, you are right. That love of his, that woman must be special.'
Gayatri smiled, ' and not ordinary like me.'
' and like me too' Saro added and then slowly sank into the chair that she had been cursing and went ' wow, fuc..ng wow! Now, this is a love story.'
Gayatri smiled sadly, ' it really is, Saro.'
Saroja looked at her, ' sweetie, I meant the love that you have for Ravi. That is the story. That is the present and that is simply beautiful.'
The door opened and both women looked in its direction and saw the hero of two love stories enter the room.
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