Preeto ff-woh saat din- Last Day
"We Are Not Doing This Anymore Rajbeer...It's Over...It's All Over." At first Simran was in a state of consternation, but then she got angry, and her rage increased with every breath she exhaled. "What do you think?? I can't see???" Simran shouted through clenched teeth. "I don't feel it??"and trembling with anger, she continued, "What...what's going on between you & preeto." Her whole body oozed anger. "I didn't care what had happened in d past Rajbeer", beneath her pale, set brows, her eyes moved not from Rajbeer's downcast eyes. "But I trusted u." Her bitter tongue turned stiff in her hard jaws. "I knew that whatever decision you have taken is right. But now I'm in doubt." the veins on her face and neck congealed and glowed through her skin. "In doubt of your intentions...in doubt of what is really going on in your heart." her stiff neck and rigid hands could neither move towards him to confront or towards herself to console. "Why did you do this to me Rajbeer?????"She hardly could restrain her threatening hand, and, trembling in her anger, she clung to Rajbeer's collar. "simran please...please...listen to me." Rajbeer implored but her limbs and body, all were changed to stone. "You broke my trust rajbeer"
Preeto didn't want to hear a word more. She wanted to run away from all this. Simran's sobs followed her till afar and she was at loss, not knowing where to run...from whom to run...to whom to run... The seven years of emptiness was better than all the guilt and pain that had now taken its place in her heart...The stars and d moon shone in all there brilliance...looked down upon d girl...who once fought d world...for her family...for people in love...for her beliefs...who had finally lost d battle...against her love...against herself...there will never be forgiveness for her...ever...Seven years back...in this same bench...she had discovered love...life...passion...it had ignited her heart...& in all these years...had burnt to brightness...every hopelessness...every dark corner of her heart...but today it was breathing its last...& d way every flame burns its brightest before dying out...d fire of her love...had destroyed everything before it swore to kill her...
"simran it's not like that what you think" Rajbeer pleaded on his case. "It's not that??? Then what is it rajbeer??" She had succeeded on the first ten minutes as she fought against the tears, but then, one of them managed to fall, making its way down her cheek and to her chin. "You can fool everyone, but not me." And with that one, came others. She soon gave in, and let them fall freely. "I have seen her...I have seen her in pain." It was precisely what had started to build up all that sadness in her, because it had made her come to a realization that, even though she didn't want it to be true, deep down inside, she knew it was true, that she was responsible. "If this is your idea of a joke or revenge...whatever you feel justified calling it...Then it's very regrettable that I ever loved someone like u." Hurt flashed in Rajbeer's eyes as he looked up in disbelief. But she didn't care anymore. Nothing mattered anymore, or at least, nothing was more important enough for her to care.
Preeto's mind was no longer able to think. The argument she had accidentally overheard haunted her. She was slipping away, and the deafening voices in her head were to blame. She closed her eyes tight, and tried to get it out of her mind, however, she could not escape. They caused an unbearable pain to resonate through her. She just wanted to remain where no one could see her, and cry. Because that was the only thing she could do. And the only thing she felt like doing anyway.
"Simran, how can u say that??? You know how I have spent all these years." Rajbeer's usual contained, restrained self now tight and fuming. "Yes, I know...I have seen your pain...I have felt your loneliness." Simran's soft voice sensed his fragility. "So, what changed your opinion?? You forgot those days??" Rajbeer's quiet anger now seething. "I haven't rajbeer...& that's why I know." Simran pressed his hand in an effort to calm him. "All these seven years away from preeto...haven't tortured you that much...as much you have tortured yourself...in these seven days...being near to her...but still deliberately keeping her away from yourself." Rajbeer clung to his silence, unyielding and pained. "Please stop this game rajbeer...we both agreed to be a part of this to get you & preeto together...bcoz your love was unrequited... But now we feel...that the love...might be...lost...Somewhere under all d hatred & vengeance that u have accumulated in all these years." rajbeer looked up in alarm. "Actually I think half d work is already done...your anger had gone d first day u met preeto." The calm fragility that rajbeer had been feigning started to show cracks."& all this is just your ego...stopping u from accepting that u always belonged to her...& nothing...not even you yourself can stop it from being that way." The safe confines of his silence now straining to hold against the bitter waves of truth. "Wake up rajbeer...before it's too late...I say this...bcoz I know what it feels to be in love...and also what it takes to fall in love again...giving away your heart to someone is much easier than mending a broken heart...& then finding someone to whom you can hand it over safely...Raj found me...I was lucky...don't make yourself unlucky...u might be left with your broken heart and an even more broken preeto."
"Time doesn't always heal all wounds." Preeto's eyes opened with a start at Raj's voice. Her body was wet, her heart thumped loudly in her chest and confusion reigned her mind. The deafening sound from the conversation still raw and still resonating."I am Ok." Closing her eyes, she began to bottle up the feeling and push it back into her heart, sealing it away, until it would break free again. "It is better to wake up in my dreams rather than reality." she spoke barely cognizant of Raj now sitting near her. "Seems like you were walking in the wrong direction." Preeto was stunned hear those words and a million thoughts - none good - went through her brain and wouldn't stop. Raj continued, "You aren't scared of love but scared of life alone." Confusion, nervousness and fear just seemed to overtake her. "Did he know??" Raj eased her through her incredibly emotional and frightening thoughts. "It seems you've been playing on the safe side. Building walls around your heart to save yourself, but it's time to let it go" Preeto was speechless and stared at Raj for a while completely dumbfounded. "Just when we think that love will never find us...We've run away...we will find it right behind us...it's just something that you can't control. So go and find him. He who always was yours just like Simran is mine."
PS: the last part will come tonight...
Edited by sen_madhuban - 13 years ago
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