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We've seen their clashes and bickering before because of ego and frustration and what not but today, it was something else. It was different than all their previous fights. They're going around in this ironical cycle where they're being hurt by each other and because of that, they're hurting each other. It's not a good thing of course, neither is it the correct way to deal with the situation at hand. But who ever said that they're not flawed human beings? We all are. Don't we all disapprove of someone who, even if unknowingly, hurts us and our close ones? Don't we all have a weak spot which we don't want disturbed even unintentionally?
Maybe Kumud is egoistic. But can we ignore that she is way more empathetic and compassionate than any other character on the show? They way she went to the extent on going down on her knees yesterday, how can your heart not go out to her? She might not have known the history behind the lake but she knows that she is the reason Saras is in such a pathetic condition and she's tried beyond her means to make it up to him. How many people would admit that 'galti se bhi nahi hona chahiye tha'? Had we been in her place, won't we have been more than happy to comfort ourselves saying we didn't know about it? Even if Kumud came across as harsh today, it's only because she desperately wants Saras to quit hurting himself. 'Kyun dete ho apne aap ko itni takleef?' Did anyone notice that that dialogue screamed of how much she hated seeing him like that?
And Saras. Maybe he is self-centered around his pain. So what? Can't we see that the memories of his mother is the only thing which keeps him going? I had said yesterday that Saras hasn't been able to fight his traumatic past, he's been suppressing it all this while. But that is what makes him who he is today. He remembers everything his mother taught him from respecting his elders to the religious sentiments and goes out of his way to follow it. Why? Because his mother told him it was the right thing to do. The sole aim in his life is to become the man his mother wanted him to be and for that, he's trying to follow all her teachings. Honestly, I can't believe people actually want him to move on. Something so excruciating does not just bury away in the sands of time. Letting go is something much easier said than done. We aren't in his place, we'll never understand. Saras has given up hope too. After what happened with Dukhbaa, I doubt he'll ever be able to open up again. After his pleadings were so rudely rejected (I'm happy he tried though). It KILLED me to hear him say he doesn't want to suffocate anymore! He doesn't like living like this, with this burden in his heart that he couldn't save his mother. But does he have a choice? Every frickkin' one seems to be turning their back on him!
At the farm today, more than an egoistic girl and a weak man, I saw two wounded souls who mirrored each other's emotions yet failed to recognise it. When I said that they bring out each other's vulnerable side, it's because they're these two lost people who found solace in each other. Indirectly, they showed shades of their personalities no one else ever knew of. Maybe even they themselves didn't.
Yesterday, I said Saras lives in delusion. But today, I extend that to Kumud as well. They're definitely delusional if that think there is no relationship between them. They are eventually going to realise how their souls have been intertwined by an invisible thread. Unfortunately, the price they'll have to pay is being separated from each other.
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