Sushpective: WOW!! You have done it!! Updates pg33-34

Hi Guys...just watched the episode ...WOW!!! Did the RR team deliver or what...







This beautiful collage by Shweta urf UltimateRudra!

OK...lets start from yesterday...when the truth is staring him in the truth upon challenge by Laila...

Why is he so upset with her?

What has she done wrong if he believe that she didn't lie about Tejawat?

Why is he staying in the house bothering him? Is it because she reminds him of something he would rather forget and haven't had the guts to tell his wife...Not yet?

And he has the knee jerk reaction to Paros question about it...I haven't given anyone the right to ask me any questions...Only to realize...but Paro is different ...isn't she?

He does not know why...but it just feels right...

He doesn't want to risk losing her and the beautiful thing he has with her...

He just wants to...

So he doesn't waste a single moment and takes her out to a place where he used to go to...to face his inner turmoil...

Everything was dark...inside him and out side him...

He was ANGRY very ANGRY,...and his behavior turned into something of an outlaw...

He disrespected his father...(That gave him a sense of being superior...his father was the one ...who wasn't man enough to keep the mother...but he wasn't going to be weak like his dad...he will be the man his father never was)

He found Laila ...for his physical needs...for an outlet (Here he was able to take out his ange against women...by treating her...like a piece of meat)

Glad you loved the episode, the CVs are clearly doing something right again...I too enjoyed most of the episode and welcomed the darkness, intensity, angst, and inner turmoil that is so Rangrasiya and that had been missing for some time now. Good to see it back!

You have described Paro's emotions and internal conflict so well, I felt pretty emotional myself reading through it. I've already said this on your thread, but I will say it again...I normally identify more with Rudra, I can relate to him more and his complex emotions and internal conflicts usually earn my sincerest sympathies...but today the woman in me identified more with Paro's pain than Rudra's pain.

Rudra was innocent and worthy of my deepest sympathies right up until the last scene of the episode. After that last scene, my heart just broke even further for Paro.

I understand that Paro forced marriage down Rudra's throat...so I understand when people say that in some way Paro has brought this upon herself...she knew Rudra was a jallad...he warned her that he was no good...but still she chose to stick by him...and now that she knows something so deep and personal about him...she should not give him the cold shoulder and push him away...he had warned her, after all...so it's no fault of his...

BUT

Despite all of this, Paro is a woman. She is not void of typical female qualities and emotions...and that is why I identify with her so much today. The pain she is feeling...it is so relatable. Rudra may not be at any fault, but that doesn't make the pain any less...it does not make it better...how must it feel for a woman to discover that the husband she practically worships has sought solace in the arms of another woman for eight years...and yet he claims that he never even loved her...not once...what does that say? If Rudra can use Laila like that without giving her any haq over him, without loving her...then where does Paro stand? How is Paro any different (she is very different, but she does not understand this...yet)? The heartbreak Paro feels in the episode touched my heart. It helps that Sanaya is an amazing actress and enacted Paro's pain so well.

I feel that Paro's pain was deeper because Rudra's past was in the present, staying in the haveli...the fact that she knew Laila, that she had befriended Laila, made everything so much more real...if she didn't know Laila...Rudra's past would have been nameless...but she knows Laila...and so Rudra's past has a name...and Paro wonders...who is the other woman? Is it Laila...or is it her?

Parvati is a young, naive woman from a conservative village in India. Yes she knew that Rudra was a jallad but I am sure she had never in her wildest dreams considered that when Rudra said he was a jallad...he had sought an outlet for his animalistic nature...who would have thought that he had done the unthinkable (in her culture) and slept with a woman before marriage, engaged in a nameless relationship? I think Paro would have been completely fine with the knowledge that her husband was not a virgin...but like I said...she knows the name of his past...and Rudra had let her befriend his past under the pretence that his past was innocent, nothing more than a distant friend...

Man Paro killed me today.

Coming to Rudra...I like how you described his relationship with his father and with Laila...he called his father by his name because he wanted to be cold and distant and nothing like his father...he found Laila and he was able to take his anger out on women by treating her like a piece of meat. Very well said 👏

I sympathize with Rudra, though not as much as I probably should because of the last scene of the episode😆. Rudra feels confused and lost and hurt - not for himself but for Paro. He knows that he cannot see Paro in pain...but why not? What is she to him? He cares about her yes...but could it be something more? Forget it...all he knows is that he cannot stand her silence...

Rudra has always felt that he is not worthy of love and he has told Paro this many times. He has told her that he is too dark, too haunted to be loved. But Paro didn't listen to him. She stuck by him and slowly, very slowly, he began to trust her...began to trust that maybe...maybe...there was a possibility that someone could love him...he had never imagined that anyone could love him so much...and he tried to fight this love...tried to run away...but eventually he began to succumb to it...he began to depend on it...and now it terrifies him that this love seems to be slipping away from him...it kills him...he had always known it though hadn't he...he was not worthy of love.

I felt for Rudra's feelings of loss and hurt. I feel for the insecure child inside. He feels that Paro is only reconfirming his beliefs now...he really cannot be loved...maybe he is better off being who he was before...a monster...a heartless man who found solace in a woman who asked for nothing in return...it was so much easier than...he can't take this pain...this pain that comes with caring...he misses how easy it used to be...with Laila he did not care...he did not care about her...not like he does for Paro...if anything with Laila he only cared for the release of his needs...and Laila was the perfect outlet...how has he ended up here now...with Paro...caring about her...hurting if she is hurt...he can't bear it...he needs her to talk to him...to tell him that it's okay...that she can look past his past...that she still loves him...he needs that reassurance...and he falls asleep waiting for it...

I am not even going to talk about what happens next.

It was a wonderful episode and concentrated on what we love best about Rangrasiya...emotions. Rudra has always been a very emotional character and today we got to see complexity and depth in Paro's emotions as well...it was a real treat.

My apologies for the long post...oopsie...😳

P.S. One thing I would like to say but forgot to do so earlier...Rudra's wait for his wife would not have been in vain...Paro did come to him...it's a completely different matter that Laila reached out to him before she could.

You captured Paro's thinking perfectly. Loved the episode. Finally we are back to the Rangrasiya we all signed up for. Now just keeping my fingers crossed that the team carries the story and the momentum rationally through next week.

LOVED the song

Zindagi mein koi kabhi aaye NA!!

Special shout out to the RR BG score person...

That is one of my really favorite Hindi songs...👏

Could I also make a request...if any one from the creative team is reading...to please use...

Mora Piya Mose bolat nahi from the soundtrack of Rajneeti? Another favorite of mine...Pretty please!!

Of course it would be to show Rudy's emotions because Paro is not talking to him anymore,,,,,

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z4neTTld9CA[/YOUTUBE]

I felt horrible for both Rudra and Paro. Rudra because his past could cost him his present. He so desperately wants to be happy with Paro. He's seen the life he can have with her and it's so close he feels yet it's also so far away.

What I can say about Paro that you haven't already said. My heart breaks for her. How does someone like Paro - pure, innocent with such a big and loving heart process what her husband told her? In the immediate aftermath she doesn't. She retreats because what else can she possibly do?So many thoughts and questions must be running through her mind but she can't make herself voice them so there's nothing but silence.

Amazing job done by Sanaya and Ashish.

Hi Indra...so true!

How can ANYONE ...just let it go without having complex feelings about it...

Won't pictures of them being together flash in front of your eyes?

Won't you wonder WHAT IF you had never come into his life...

WHAT IF you had not forced him to marry you?

WHAT IF?