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You can describe today's episode in one line:
"Today, Rudra has seen the woman in Paro."
Intoxication , for the ones who are not used to it, usually releases the uninhibited , the vulnerable , the hidden sides of an individual. You go for a stroll on a stage where you are not 'thinking' exactly. You are only feeling and if intoxication is more than what you can handle, your self control and restrain take a break and you unleash all that you are holding inside - sometimes those secrets that you have never visited yourself. I am a complete non-alcoholic but my friends circle is different and I have seen a lot of them in an intoxicated state. Very few of them have misbehaved in an inebriated state - most of them have gone emotional and have talked non-stop until its 6am in the morning. When they recover , a few of them remember everything , a few of them have fuzzy memories and the rest are a tad apologetic.
Today, when I saw Paro unleash the woman and the wife inside her on Rudra , I thought of all those friends of mine who were at their cutest and maybe at their vulnerable state while we the sober ones handled them. You can say Rudra was in a sober state comparatively because we know intoxication only makes his limbs wobbly - his brain stays in its right place. So, how about seeing today's episode or rather today's Paro from Rudra's side?
The woman Rudra saw today was not his naive, pretty little wife. Rudra saw a Paro who could dominate him, tantalize him, ensnare him, romance him, assert herself physically and emotionally on him. A woman who could tell him that while he is battling with wounds of the psyche , she is struggling with the wounds of her heart. A woman who could tell him that if he has to understand her, he has to love her and he cannot love her if he doesn't enter her heart leaving the shoes of grime ( his not-so-very-pretty side ) outside. A woman who will do as she pleases - play with him, charm him, lure him - and yet hope that he will love her. A woman who doesn't have the shy naivete of Paro as a girl- instead she understands the undercurrents of man and wife between him and her and she responds to them as well. A woman who desires him as a man ( she wanted to kiss Rudra but the CNS postponed it by putting her to sleep ) and seeks his physical comfort rather aggressively - her clinging to Rudra in her semi-conscious state , her tighter clinging and cheek-to-cheek with Rudra as he tries to put her back on her feet are 'cute' on surface - but its desire underneath waiting to sprout.
Usually, when a child or someone vulnerable seeks comfort physically , they tend to hold your hand or sleep on your arm , mostly in a crouched position which gives you an impression that the person is snuggling into you. However, when someone is possessive and territorial about you, they tend to put their arm around you in a locking position and they render your hand immovable. That is what Paro did to Rudra when he tries to distance himself from her on the bed - she locked his hand at the position of her waist. That is a 'woman' thing to do, not a 'girly' one TBH.
Next morning, when she gets up, the CNS has all the fog removed, the conscious mind and 'sensibilities' return to Paro. The same physical proximity that she was demanding a few hours ago terrifies her and she hops out of the bed. Rudra doesn't need to return to reality because he knows what he saw, felt and experienced last night was a REALITY. Paro is nuts about him, her love for him is deep and surreal , her need for him as desperate as his is for her and yes, she desires him. That is the only reason Rudra is smirking, teasing and playing around with her brain.
The point here is that Paro's desire for Rudra and the blossoming woman in her is growing in her hindbrain . Her conscious mind does not understand attraction , but the heart does ,so when her innocence is given a tease of intoxication where she only 'feels', her man-woman thread with Rudra comes gushing to the surface. Paro may not remember much because of first time intoxication , but Rudra saw it all and he felt it all. For those few hours together, Paro was a 'woman' to Rudra and she , in her own twisted way, showed him that she desired him the same as he did. Maybe not with his brand of passion, but definitely with a womanly vigour that a deep love has. That is the reason he keeps her chandelier earring with himself.
That is why i said the above... Rudra saw the woman in Paro today. The sun has risen and Paro has returned to her childlike state and Rudra to his guardian state. But Rudra will remember the woman he met last night with a tamarind taste , until Paro actually becomes that woman. Till then, she will throw tantrums and he will bear them, and he will throw bigger tantrums and she will embrace them.
BTW, don't miss Paro's epic dialogue to Rudra when he pulls her back and she lands into his lap - " Ittni paas kyun ke aaye? Hawaa bhi nahin aa rahee. Abb main saans kaise loon?"... Quite a reflection of how Paro's life would be if Rudra unleashed his love on her. Even the wind between her and Rudra would be in two minds.
On a lighter note after this, I liked how Rudra described Paro to that staffer - " Lambee si, dublee-patlee, gori si, pyaari si, badee -badee aankhon waali."
Oh, well. đ...My favourite moment has to be that smile on Rudra's face when Paro clung to him like a Koala bear and crouched her body in his arms and refused to get down.đđđ
P.S- I will be grateful if someone can give me the link of the dance episode. I need it for something. TIA.đ
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