She's looking for is hara from bhole nath.. Rudra still keeping that doll means he's still waiting for her..
If she had thrown the doll to Sumer .. That does not mean she would have married Sumer..
She knows she wants rudra...her heart wants rudra.. Because she's an innocent virginal girl.. Living in a village..
Sometimes people just smile at each other..say 2 words and start dreaming about each other.. In the rural areas girls are not so liberated..
Over here she has spent 10 weeks with rudra .. They were not sexually intimate.. But in many ways he showed comfortable intimacy.. He touches her hand shoulders face.. A aram se..
She has already spent some nights sharing a room with him... Her last encounter at the BSD quarter .. Was one such instances.. Ask her to share the same intimacy with Sumer or even aman she will balk..
Her mind and body knows they already belong to rudra.. Her heart is looking for justification from god..to sanctify it.. So that she can pressurize rudra to marry her,
Rudra is more experienced he knows he's sexually attracted to her.. And now he knows she will not say no.. But he's not ready for such an intense relationship.. Knows if he gives in she will ask for a lot more than Laila..she will demand social acceptance.. Rights over him.. And on top of it she's not to be trusted..once he gives her everything she will betray him.. And leave hi shattered.
He can get physical release from some other woman..he wants her to go away..doesn't realise it's just not physical..
Edited by msin - 11 years ago