Beyourself
WE Were Meant To Be...
~Zoya's POV~
I paced around the room in smaller steps and my steps took a larger dimension with my mother's decreasing tone of voice. My anticipation was growing and I was almost starting to bite my nails.. Mind you, I never bite my nails, because I love them way too much! I looked at my hands for a moment and stared at my painted nails- a blood red nail color with a perfect gel look. My lips curved upwards for a smile and the Adrenaline rush had somewhat reduced while I stared dreamily at my fingers, preparing a mental note on the different colors that I still had to buy. I chuckled at my own fantasy.
It wasn't long when my smile had to disappear and the same anxiety took over me when I heard my mother exchange final good byes with the lady on the other end of the call. I started pacing the length of my room again and almost knocked out my head when it struck hard with that of my sister, Humeira.
"Ouch Aapi...!!", she winced while I flinched in pain at the blow that I just received along with her.
"Can't you see and walk Humeira? What's wrong with you? I was almost going to get knocked out had I not been careful..", I shouted and mentally patted my back for successfully placing the blame on her. However old one may turn, there's a divine happiness that lies in teasing your sibling.
"What?? It was you who was marching around without sparing a glance towards the door. I just walked into the room just to give you this news..."
"What news??"
Suddenly my pain and my teases flew out of the window when my brain concentrated on the news that my dearest sister brought along with her. Another truth about siblings- They might fight and tease, but they would never ditch you, and often bring you the 'News' which you might have been dying to hear all this while.
"Aapiii...", she screamed and her smile was way too broad and I knew that the 'news' was nowhere near to ' good' for me.
"Speak up!!!!", I ordered her.
"You know..."
"Humi..." Came my mother's voice. Zeenat Farooqui, a lovely lady who still looked young enough to compete with her daughters.
Ammi's gleeful face gave me the hint that I could freely curse my fate now.
"I am so happy for you Zoya... I was waiting for this day..so much that I can't even express my happiness."
"Ammi please...", I whined as I knew what she was talking about.
"What Ammi? Do you know how important this conversation was? Why were you trying to eavesdrop on us when I had clearly asked you to stay in your room?" She glared as she scolded me.
Great!!
"But Ammi.. you were talking about me. I guess I have the right to listen to all that.", I tried reasoning.
"You had, only if you didn't interrupt our conversation every time! What must she be thinking? I was so embarrassed."
"She won't be thinking anything. She is probably never going to call you again", I prayed as I said this. But some prayers came with the fate of never getting answered, and this was definitely one of them.
"You are not supposed to talk about her like this. She might just be your would be mother-in-law!!!" She scolded me again. This was not something that I was used to.
"Oh please Ammi... I haven't even met him!! How can I agree to marry him just like that??? And do you realize that I am just a small Baby.. I suppose you and Abbu don't want to do a crime like Child Marriage!!" This time she laughed at what I said. Humeira too giggled at my words and I knew that I was not taken seriously by any of them.
My words were not true either. It was true that I was a baby to my family, but my Birth Certificate told a different story. I was in my final year of MBA and was all set to take up the job that I was offered. I glared at Humeira as I couldn't do that to my mother and she understood that the fact was actually bothering me a lot. The word Lot wasn't going to suffice the 'lot' that I meant.
"We are not asking you to get married to him just like that. We are just asking you to meet him. That's it! There is no harm in doing that, is there?", she asked in her polite tone that I was usually used to hearing.
"What if he isn't good enough? What if he is not the one' for me? What if he turns out to be a pervert? Or a serial killer? Or a murderer or even a rapist? My life will be ruined then!!" All this made no sense, and even I was well aware of that. But I had to say something and this was all I could manage.
"Seriously Zoya?? You really think your parents would choose a murderer or a serial killer for you?", she said in between her giggles. "Now stop bothering yourself so much and have a little faith in us. We are just asking you to meet him. No more expectations!!"
I sighed heavily as I had no more justified or even baseless reasons to not meet him.
"I shouldn't have allowed you and Abbu to go for Nikhat's wedding last month. It all started from there!", I said, almost teary eyed, as I was not liking the sudden changes that my life brought in.
"And we are thankful that we had gone to Nikhat's wedding. Otherwise we would have clearly missed out the jewel that we had seen in Asad."
This time I rolled my eyes at her and immediately had an indescribable dislike towards Asad, whoever he was!
"Here you go..." My mother handed over a piece of paper to me. It had the name Asad written on it along with a ten digit number. It did not need an Einstein's brain to guess what my mother exactly wanted from me.
"This is not happening! Never!", I said as my fingers held the piece of paper. "You had just mentioned a meeting'. Phone calls were never there on the list!" This time my reasons were not irrelevant.
"Zoya...How can we just let our daughter meet an unknown guy just like that? What if he is a serial killer or a murderer? It's better to know him beforehand. Isn't it?", she winked as she said this and then went out of my room. She winked! My mother WINKED! It clearly meant that I was trapped. Revenge was now that my blood was calling for. I turned to Humeira and shot daggers at her.
"You knew this??" You knew about all of this!! I am going to kill you..."
Then she ran, and I ran behind her. We both threw pillows and whatever came our way to each other. In less than a couple of minutes, our room was in a huge mess and we both settled on the bed side by side, with our backs hitting the mattress.
"I am so afraid Humi.. What if he isn't the right person for me?", I voiced my fear to her, because I knew that out of all the people in the world, she was the one who always understood me more than I did myself.
"He will never be a part of your life if he isn't meant to be for you..", she said as she threw her leg and arm around me and crawled up to me like a baby, and I hugged her back. She knew that her hugs always soothed my inner turmoil.
Later that night, as I tried to doze off, I realized that my parents wouldn't go for anyone who wasn't the right one for me. He might not be the one', but he was definitely not going to be the wrong one. I saved his number in my phone and my thoughts diverted to the days, just a month back, when my parents had gone to Nikhat's wedding in Delhi.
Nikhat was Gafoor Ahmed Siddiqui and Razia Siddiqui's only daughter and her parents had been friends of my parents even before my birth. Asad was Nikhat's cousin and the son of Rashid Ahmed Khan and Dilshad Khan. I had never met him, but have always heard about him from Nikhat. It was in one of my visits to Delhi when I had met Dilshad Aunty once. I wasn't going to recall that meeting if my parents hadn't suddenly asked me, "Zoya, do you remember Dilshad?" I had ransacked almost all the memories of last 5 years only to be told by my mother that I was just 7 when I had met her. Like I was even supposed to remember that!!
I knew that something was coming up that was supposedly not going to be anything pleasant for me.
Ammi and Abbu filled me in with all the details of the wedding that I had missed because my exams were on. They told me about the Khan family that had come to India after 10 years, and how they still stayed so much connected to their roots even after spending more than three decades in New York. Ammi's attention slowly moved towards Asad and all his achievements at this very young age of 29. She told me about how nice he was to his parents, his baby sister Najma and to them and to all other guests at the wedding. How beautifully he had taken over the responsibilities of being an elder brother to Nikhat... and bla bla bla... They were on and on and I started paying no heed to what they said. I took it as an after effect of attending a lavish wedding of their best friend's daughter and having met them after ages.
But I was proved so badly wrong when my father all of a sudden mentioned, "Asad is such a nice guy. He is going to be a perfect match for our Zoya..." I spluttered out all the water that my mouth was filled with and choked on my breath at the mere mention of Asad being my perfect match.
And all this continued for a month, they pestering me to meet him once and me coming up with all sorts of excuses to somehow ignore the matter. But it was too late now, as Dilshad Aunty had already made up her mind to visit Bhopal along with her family to meet me, and probably hook me up with her son. Okay. Sorry, bad word. Make me her daughter in law.
I was cringing even at the thought of it. Was I ready for a marriage? Not that I have never dreamt of it, but I had never expected things to be the way it was now. I have always been an ardent fan of romance novels, and had never in my life expected anything other than falling in love with my Mr. Right. Here things were just going the reverse way.
Next morning...
I had added his number to my contacts, but I was never ever going to call him or message him by myself. This was the last thing that I would ever do. I didn't like men who lacked in the courage to make an approach themselves, instead waited for the girl to take the first step. But again, I didn't like men who were over friendly and unnecessarily too good to me either. Or may be, they had their reasons. In both ways, I was one choosy person and definitely not an easy nut to crack for Asad Ahmed Khan.
Just when I was hovering over the fact to call him or not to, my phone started ringing and my eyes almost came out of its sockets at the flash of his name on the screen. I was a confident lady in anything that I did, and this time too things shouldn't be any different. I took in a deep breath before I took the call.
"Hello...", I answered the call, trying hard to not let my voice tremble.
"Hi... Am I speaking to Ms. Zoya Farooqui?" I heard an extremely manly yet gentleman's voice coming from the other end. His voice sounded good, may be not as good as how he looked. I bit my lips as my mind flooded with the memory of the day when my parents had shown his photograph to me.
"Yes.. and is that Asad Ahmed Khan?", I asked the obvious.
"So we both know each other by our names atleast..", he said and I realized that the situation was nothing different for him too. If he was going to be a part of my life, than the same was with him too. There was an uncertainty that was present in both of our voices, which clearly stated the fact that we were 'nervous'! Damn! Nervous was not going to explain the sensations that we were going through now.
"So...", I said, because I didn't knew what more to say.
"What do you do?", he asked me after a minute of silence. He probably knew what I was doing, but he had to come up with something to carry on with the conversation. I told him about my MBA, my internship and how I plan to work even after I get married. He chuckled at what I said and I became aware of that too. I had mentioned marriage to the person who was probably my prospective groom.
I had to come up with a counter explanation or anything to hide what I said, and I did so. "Why are you laughing? Are you against women working and being independent enough to take care of themselves? I asked him, not only because I had to conceal what I had said before, but also because I really wanted to know his point of view regarding this since I really wanted to work.
I wanted his honest answer to this, and I never realized why, but I wanted him to read my mind and say what I wanted to listen.
"Ms. Farooqui.. First of all, I really appreciate you for being so thoughtful and serious about your career. And second, I am not any of those men who are against the working of women. My mother had been a participant in my father's business for years and was involved in it till the day I took over it. I would also consider myself to be the luckiest person if I get that same amount of support from my wife too.", he said and I could sense sincerity in his words.
I had my first conversation with Asad and I have to admit, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. In fact it was quite good, but I could never say that to Ammi. I still needed time to think.
~Asad's POV~
After the day when my mother broke the news of her to have successfully found my bride, I was literally left tormented. Ammi had that exceptional quality of judging people and this time it was Gafoor Mamu's friend, Anwar Farooqui's daughter that she was talking about. Zoya... I remember Nikhat taking that name quite a few times, but I had never tried knowing who she exactly was or how she was. Only if I knew that she was going to be my prospective bride.
Ammi gave me her number last night and after an hour long hesitation the next morning, I finally made up my mind to call her up; after all I could not let my parents be disappointed in me.
She picked up the phone with a simple hello and my heart probably skipped a beat when I heard her voice. I imagined how she must have been looking then. Was she really having those dimples which I believed there was when I had seen her photograph.
There was a dead silence as none of us said anything. I asked her what she was doing. Not that I didn't know about it, but I had to come up with something to break the tranquility. I got to know that she was willing to work and I was thankful to God that she was. I always wanted an independent and confident lady as my wife, who would also match up with every step of mine in our business, just like my mother. Even if she didn't want to join my business, I was very much willing enough to let her choose her way. I tried to explain her that and was glad when I recognized that that silence to be her acceptance to my honesty. From there, our first conversation went quite smooth. Unexpected, but definitely worth.
I was still in Delhi at Mamu's place and was supposed to reach Bhopal and meet Zoya after exactly 7 days. It was a long time in terms of business but when it came to meeting a girl, 7 days were way too less to prepare myself. I had no idea about what I had to say. Damn! Business meetings were easier!!
~Day 1: Zoya's POV~
I was following my usual routine. With my morning coffee, newspaper and a romantic novel by my side, I sat in the balcony bathing in the bright sun rays of a winter morning. My holidays were still on and this was my usual way to spend my lazy mornings, until today.
Just when I folded down the newspaper and took up the novel to read, I heard my phone ringing.Asad...
Was it telepathy or just a lucky morning for me? I was wondering whether Asad would ever call me again before coming to Bhopal. Would it be inappropriate if I called him? These thoughts were raking my mind ever since last night.
"Good Morning Ms. Farooqui." His voice sounded heavier, but not nervous like before.
"Good Morning Mr. Khan..", I greeted him back.
"I thought to let you know, we have booked out tickets for Bhopal. It's in a week."
A Week! SEVEN Days!! OMG!! Was I dreaming or is it really true? Are things really moving that fast or was I simply hallucinating? I wished I was, but to my disappointment, I wasn't.
"Oh..Okay... Ummm... Thanks for letting me know.", I thanked him.
"Are you nervous?", he asked me.
I wasn't going to lie to him. "Yeah.. I am...", I said as I took a breath in.
"Same here Ms. Farooqui...", he admitted. I liked it when guys admitted their fears, not because it made them weak in front of girls, but simply because they were made of flesh and blood too and feeling the anxiety wasn't anything to be ashamed of. It was...natural...!!
The call ended with a decent talk of a few more minutes that included letting each other know about the weather and what we usually did in cold wintry days when work deprived. I got to know how difficult it was getting for him to manage work from here, though his advisors were efficiently working on their tip toes to keep the business going.
He was a hard working man, that's what I concluded that day.
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