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So i have this idea on mind since a very long time now. And i hope that you will like it.
Hello you all i hope that you are fine 😃I know i have to update my FF and my SS but Voila.😳
And i would like to know if you want to read more about that. And if you want to helps me too. i think that it will be a good idea if we some people help me. I need some replied to that letter. I need Asad replied he can be the one who found the letter. Or it can be someone else.😃
So where can i start. I think that if i start by name it will be a good beginning, so my name is Zoya but i don't know if it's a good idea to give you my full name but anyway my full name is Zoya Farooqui , i'm twenty three years old. And i'm a girl yes i want to clarify my gender because i know that some people do no know that Zoya is a girl name. So i was saying that i'm twenty years old and i live with my parents but i will leave soon.
You must think why the letter. So i'm writting this letter because i want to share my burden and my life with someone just once in my life.
I'm not use to share my life with my friends or my family for me it 's a weakness if people know your life because they can use it against you. So this is why i'm not taliking about my life with anyone. An other reason why i did not share my problem or my life with the others is that i don't want their pity i hate that.
So this is why i wrote this letter i want to talk with someone ( if we can call that talk). I know that even if you know my name you can do anything against me and if you pity me i will not see it in your eyes. You surely want to know why i'm not seeing an psychologist. This is a very good question, i just can tell you that i don't like psychologist and the second reason is that i don't have money for that ( F*L).
My mum want me to be married she think that a girl is anything if she is not married. I don't want to hurt her feeling so i said anything to her. But i definitely dosen't want to be married, i want to see the world , i want to travel, i want to live my life for me and not for the other. Thing that i do since i'm born no enough is enough i want to live my life for me and only for me and no i'm not selfish it's just that all the paths that i took in my life take me to that conclusion.
But there are many others reason to why i don't want to be marry. My father is cheating my mother since my childhood , my mother is suffering all this time. And i don't undersatnd why she doesn't want to leave him. This is the big question of my life and i will surely never had the answer to that question.
My Aapi is married too but i don't know if she is happy or not. She always scream on her husband and she always compared him to her ex boyfriend, i feel bad for him. Anyway i did not have any boyfriend i found that the fact to have an boyfriend is a waste of time.
Okay i will stop there finally i don't know if it is a good idea to do that.
I know this is very stupid to share my life with some stranger. But this is the only good idea that i found and that i really like.
Zoya Farooqui
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