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Part 5

Pankhuri left the room after Adi let her go and she went to rest in her room. She went into her room and thought about everything that was happening. She loved Adi and he loved her. But that wasn't it. They were in trouble. They have caused so much tension that they can't be happy with their relationship. She planted her palms on her face and tried to zone herself out. She couldn't stop thinking about everything and she went into the bathroom to wash her face. All she could hear was all these voices.

*Voices*

"I love you Pankhuri!"

"Adi today make a decision... do you want to live with your mom or this girl?"

"Nana, what have I done wrong? Is falling in love such a sin? Why can't life ever be kind to me? All I have ever got is pain, anger and selfishness from mom she has never treated me with love, affection yet I respect her and love her so much...she has never understood my needs, my feelings now she wants me to chose between two important people in my life, Nana you know Mom gave me life but Pankhuri taught me to live! How Nanu how?"

All these situations crammed her mind. She kept throwing water on her face to stop it but it was not working. She looked into the mirror and burst out into tears. She sat down to the floor and cried her eyes out. "Kyun yeh sab ho raha hai Ram ji mene sirf pyaar kiya hai... sirf pyaar... pyaar me itne saaza kyun itna Dard!" she kept crying and she thought about her and Adi. "Why did I fall in love with him? We wouldn't, he wouldn't have to fight with his mother his own family for me!" she stood up after wiping her tears away. She went back into her bedroom and walked around it not being able to sit down. She couldn't take it anymore. She couldn't see this family segregating even more. She couldn't see Adi in pain. She had to be the one to leave. She looked around the room to find a pad and paper. She slammed all of the drawers and then finally found it. She took the pen and paper out and paused. She closed her eyes and pictured all her moments with Adi. She remembered when they first held hands, their confession it was all playing in front of her eyes. She grabbed the pen and was about to write when there was a knock on the door. She quickly wiped the little tears and hid the pen and paper. She opened the door and it was Shanky. She blew a sigh of relief because she thought it was Adi. "Ji Shanky Kaka aap ko kuch kaam tha kya? Hum sone hi jaa rahe the?" Shanky smiled at her reply. "Woh Adi babu ne mujhe beje ke tujhe pooch lu ke tu theek hai ke nahin?" Shanky replied. She stood blank for a few seconds, she thought about everything. She thought in her mind. Adi me kese theek ho sakta hu me tumse door jane ka fesla le raha hu...par hum Shanky Kaka ko sach nahin batayenge! She smiled at Shanky Kaka "Adi ko keh dena ke me theek hu meri fikar mat kare... sach me mujhe koi bhi problem nahin hai!" Shanky nodded and walked out. Pankhuri closed the door and laid her head on the back of the door. She looked at the pen and the paper and her eyes dropped. She composed herself and looked down the page

Dear Aditya,

I sit here in sorrow, wishing I could hold you. I've realized that I have made your life hell as soon as I stepped into your life. I have snatched your family away from you and now you are in constant fights with them. For no one other than me. But knowing that no one can make me laugh and smile like you do makes me cry. You are the only one that ever made me so happy. No one could ever take your place. I feel as if my soul has stolen my heart and left me to cry myself to sleep each and every night with guilt in my heart of how I hurt you. I guess you just don't realize what you have until it's gone. I am stupid to leave you. But I want to see you happy; I want to see you smiling with your mother. Talking to her happily. I know we love each other but our love it not love if it is hurting our family. How can I live with you knowing that I am breaking your own mother's heart? I can't Adi I just can't. I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry and I beg with every ounce of my soul please forgive me! Dont ever think that it's your fault because it's not. It's no one's fault. It's the game of destiny. When I leave you tomorrow I know that I will think about you every day and night. When I am with you, you light up my life. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I wish upon a star for you to return back by my side. The love that I hold for you in my soul is greater than an ocean or the sky above. But we are not meant to be. Adi I dont know what path our lives will take us but all I know is that I will love you until the day that I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and you will be the last angel face that I see. I will be able to hold you in my arms one last time, and tell you how much I love you and how much you really mean to me. But that will only remain a wish now.

Dont ever lose that charm that you have or that smile that has lightened my life forever. Dont feel bad for me... because I will always have you hidden in my heart, the memories of you and your beautiful face. Maybe this was what God wanted for us to be separate. Adi, if you ever need me just close your eyes and I will be there in front of you, in your heart, your thoughts.

Bye my love, I know I have hurt you and it will be hard for me to live with myself but I know that your family will be happy from my decision and you will be able to move on and achieve great things without me. I will never forget... my one true love.

Love you always,

Pankhuri

Xxx

Tears bellowed out of her eyes as she signed the letter off. She had to let go of the most precious thing in her life. It was if her heart was being torn out of her body and she was left lifeless. That's how she felt. She felt her life crashing down because her life started with Adi and ended. She could never ever dream of loving anyone other than him. She stood up forcefully and opened the door towards Adi's room. She walked back into her room and picked up something. She walked out and walked towards Adi's room cautiously. She opened the door quietly and he was sleeping soundly. She halted and watched him sleep with a cute smile on his face. She looked at him and she got upset immediately. She couldn't bear to see him and she turned the opposite way and closed her eyes. She covered her mouth to silence herself. She slowly opened her eyes and looked down at the rose and the letter in her hand. She slowly crept towards his drawer next to his lampshade and went to place it there. She put the letter there and put the rose on it for Adi to read in the morning when he wakes up. After placing it, she saw Adi's smile while he was sleeping.

It made her smile a little. Then she remembered she was leaving. She slowly knelt down on the floor and brushed her fingers through his hair. She watched him carefully and felt what she was losing. She was losing her prince. Her prince charming that did everything for her. She was letting go of a gem. "Adi, I am crazy for leaving you but I dont want this smile to vanish from your life I have already brought so much pain in your life that you have tarnished relationships... the most purest relationship of a mother and a son.!" She trickled her fingers down his stubbly cheeks and cupped one of them. She neared his cheek and kissed it gently. She savoured the kiss that she planted on his cheek because it was her last. There was no going back. How she wished she could keep kissing him every morning and tell him how much she loves him. But she can't. "I love you Adi!" he ruffled in his sleep and grabbed hold of her hand that was beside him. Pankhuri was perplexed and anxious. She tried to get out of his hold but he had gripped it tightly. She started praying for her hand to be released from him. But she couldn't. She had to be careful. After 10 minutes she quickly let go of it and ran outside quietly to leave him sleeping.

Pankhuri ran into her room and cried. She couldn't believe what just happened to her. She grabbed the suitcase and started packing she had to leave now otherwise she wouldn't be able to control her emotions. She packed her bags and went downstairs. She quietly went to the front door and turned around. She smiled with teary eyes. "I will miss you Adi!" she wiped the few tears in her eyes then she saw the family portrait. "I am sorry Nanaji that I couldn't unite the family... I was not destined or lucky enough to be Adi's wife! Please forgive me!" she left the house in a jiffy and set off back to Kullu.

It was morning now and Adi woke up and jumped out of bed. He rushed out of his room and went straight to Pankhuri's room. He opened the door and saw there was no one in there. He looked around, knocked on the bathroom door but she wasn't there. He asked Shanky, Nana and even went to the mandir but she was not there. He rushed back into his room to find his phone, he rang the phone but there was no response. It was switched off. "Pankhuri where are you?" he turned around to see a letter and a rose. He walked up near it and picked it up to read.

Precap: Adi read the letter and was in tears. He couldn't believe that Pankhuri has left him. He got his shoes on and ran downstairs with the letter. He showed Nana and Shanky and they set out to look for Pankhuri.