Abhiya SS: Magnetic Dipoles Epilogue(+NOTE) page 168 - Page 93

gud update😊 loved the way abhay tackled her past😊 gr8 writing👏

So sorry for unreserving my comment late Shreya Coming to the update no I didn't find it one bit vulgar. Sensous yes but not vulgar 😳 Abhiya have always been in a complicated relationship in this SS right from the start Pia was suffering from what one would call the survivor's guilt if I could say so. She blamed herself for Nikhil's death and the fact that her parents imposed that guilt on her didn't make it any easier to deal with 😭 I cant imagine the pain she must have gone through to shut this up in her subconscious mind n this only worsened it more. For all she needed was a closure but that was the last thing she got and the result - a happy go lucky girl who was outgoing n willing to spread her happiness around was engulfed in a sorrow so deep that it trapped her in a shell 😭 My heart literally wept for Pia 😭 Once she got her memories back, a new fear had gripped her - that Abhay would leave her forever I could make it out when she almost pleaded him to believe her that she had no recollection of the past n she had not deliberately hid this from him Coming to the part where Pia slits her wrist I could make out that she did that just to feel pain n not to take her life. At times u feel that if u inflict physical pain on urself u will forget the pain in ur heart but its nothing but a distraction for the moment. U feel like ur punishing urself but more than a punishment its a scar that would run so deep that it will never heal. I guess I know how this feels like U dont want to be coward enough to end ur life but u would want to feel a lil pain to take away ur agony. I wanted to know what exactly happened in the therapy session that Misha got riled up 😕 Somewhere deep down I donno y but I feel Abhay felt guilty for having judged her harshly while they were in school atleast after the convo he had with Kabir I felt that n when he said he could have taken Pia along with him. But he was still a teen that time who wasn mature enough to have understood all of it Abhiya r in a relationship n they love each other immensely but something is holding them both back to admit they love each other. They have their own demons to deal with I guess Its so hard for Abhay to keep Pia at a distance n he wants to give her some space to heal n overcome the shock of the trauma but Pia wants a lil normalcy. Its natural for her to wonder y Abhay is keeping her at bay 😕 So she jumps to the wrong conclusion - that Abhay detests her for what she had done in the past. No matter what Abhay had said a few days before I dont think Pia would stop blaming herself for her brother's death. I know she is healing but she might not ever accept it that she had nothing to do with it She misses his touch, his kisses, his embrace n she can only conclude that he is being a gentleman n not telling her outright that he doesn want her anymore since she is a broken person. I so loved their outburst here 😆 esp when Pia blasts at him to stop being formal for mundane things n be a man n call it quits on her face 😆 And well how much can we expect poor Abhay to put up with? 😉 Finally he let his guard down. I was literally laughing hard when she asked him if he finds her hot 🤣 Their outburst finally let forth the angst n passion they had been holding back for so long 😳 He was the first man Pia had given herself to n he knows for a girl this does mean a lot. He loves her with all his heart n he would do anything for her. He knows how much Pia has been through n he also fears the day something might go wrong between them. Abhay will surely no doubt be broken beyond repair but he also knows it will shatter Pia forever. So I can see he fears losing Pia more for herself than he does for himself Well I suppose I am not making sense to u or maybe I got it wrong here or not 😕 I know many of them wish Abhay would tell Pia the same three words that he spoke when she fell asleep the very next day but y do I feel that wont happen? 😕 Atleast not the next morning for sure. The day they finally break all barriers n overcome all their insecurities will they truly voice out their feelings 😊 n I am eagerly waiting for that 😳