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part 8
I woke up with a big smile on my face. The events of last night left me enthralled. I could only remember the carriage ride, food, that song, the way we danced together, the fountain and how I surrendered myself in his arms. I didn't even bother to remember panchi and her stupid pack of friends.
"Somebody is looking happy," observed Aunt as I was coming downstairs. I smiled and blushed without saying a word.
"You had a nice time?" Aunt was not giving up.
"Umm...yeah, I had a great time" I said putting the teakettle on the stove in order to avoid aunt's gaze.
"Honey, you don't have to hide anything from me," said she with concerned in her voice. I looked at her perplexed. She was right; I could never hide anything from her. She was like a mom to me and she always treated me like a friend. I gasped; I didn't know what to say. Somehow, I managed to speak, "I am not hiding anything. I am confused. I really don't know what to believe Aunt Madhu."
"Listen to your heart," she said with a smile and this advice, which I blindly followed, decided the course of events which changed our lives forever.
That afternoon alina called me and asked to come over to help her get ready for her "special date." I agreed and went to her house. Her room was a total mess. Clothes were lying all over the floor. "Help me, will you?" she said helplessly.
"Yes, of course," I said going through her dresses to pick the "perfect" one. Finally, after so much discussion and the trial session alina found her perfect dress. "Awww this is perfect," she said hugging me.
"Glad I could help," I smiled.
"Oh I want this date to be perfect pia. Just like your date with Abhay. You know, first I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw him on the carriage in front of your aunt's house. BTW you're so bad; you didn't even tell me about it." She said trying her shoes.
"First of all, it was not a date," I was getting annoyed to explain this to everyone, "and he didn't even tell me about the carriage. Abhay and I had some misunderstanding so he wanted to spend some time together to talk about things and just hang out you know." I hoped she'd understand.
"Yeah, just hang out?" she laughed aloud, "It was more than "hanging out". In London, we call it dating, in case you haven't heard that. The guy is paying so much attention to you. Looks like you're his latest conquest."
"Conquest? Is that what he thinks of me? Is he just trying to win me over for a moment's pleasure or he's really in love with me?" I thought to myself.
"I am not his conquest alina. I am his friend. I know you people think he is a player and treat women as mere objects but I've seen a different side of him. I know he's not perfect and he made some mistakes but who hasn't? His feelings are genuine, if he ever feels about me." I meant each word I said that time.
"Oh my God! He has charmed you already. Can't you see what he has done to you? You're trapped darling," she grinned and went inside the bathroom to change.
I stood there bewildered. Is she right? Is this all a trap? Am I trapped? I stood there contemplating.
"So how am I looking?" asked alina dressed in the gown I picked up for her.
"Perfect" I smiled.
I helped alina getting ready and she told me that the guy she's going out with is her childhood crush, "you never told him how you feel about him until now?" I asked curiously.
"Umm I never got a chance to confess my feelings to him. He moved with his family to Scotland when we were in high school. But now he's here and I will never let him go," she winked.
"You really like him, huh?"
"I do" she replied. We heard the sound of the car and alina started panicking, "Damn how am I looking?" she asked applying her lip stick.
"You're looking good, now stop panicking and take a deep breath." I said calming her down.
"Thanks for your help," she said hugging me and we both rushed downstairs.
She sighed and opened the door and there stood her prince charming. They both hugged each other, "pia he is kabir and kabir she's pia my dear friend," she said introducing us to each other. As we were talking I glanced at Abhay who was coming out of my house. alina looked at me gazing at him and smiled, "how about a double date?" she teased me. I gave her a scornful look.
"All set for the date?" asked Abhay coming towards us. He looked at me and said nothing but smiled. I blushed.
"You know kabir and Abhay are friends" revealed alina.
"Oh really?" I was surprised.
"It was nice meeting you pia" said kabir and they left for their date. I stood there with Abhay till their car disappeared from our sight.
"They make a nice couple," said Abhay.
"Yeah, they do. I really like his car though" said I.
"Yep, though I still think nothing can beat the good old carriage," he said sarcastically.
"Absolutely," I said trying not to laugh.
He turned towards me and said, "Let's take a walk". I agreed.
I was very quiet during the walk. I wondered what he must be thinking about the last night.
"You came with kabir?" I tried to initiate the conversation.
"Yes, I did. In fact, I was at your aunt's home to see you but she told me you're at alina's place," he answered.
"alina needed my help. BTW I've been meaning to ask you something" I said jumping on the topic which he was avoiding for so long.
"What?" he was curious.
"How did your father die?" I asked without any hesitation.
"Ummm I told you I don't want to talk about it."
"Okay, then tell me what happened between you and panchi that led to your break up?"
"Can we not talk about this please?" he was uneasy.
"You promised me you'll tell me all about it so why are you not telling me now? What's stopping you?" I was curious, "may be there isn't anything to tell, and may be you're just making it all up to gain my sympathy." I hated all this secrecy.
"I pity you," he said with the scornful look, "I really do. You think I made this all up to gain your sympathy? I shared my deepest secret with you and this is how you're rewarding me?"
"What else am I supposed to think? You're always so secretive. You never answer any of my questions. I know nothing about you."
"Okay, fair enough. Let me tell you what happened between me and panchi. After my father's demise I was in a really bad shape and my mom left me without even saying a word. I was all by myself. The guilt of my father's death felt like a mountain on my shoulders. It was unbearable. I had no one, no friends, no family member. My mother hated me and I knew nothing about her whereabouts. I was angry at myself. The only ray of hope left in my life was panchi, my girlfriend, my fiancee. The girl I loved, at least I thought I loved her. I needed her support; I need her to console me. But you know what she did? She left me; she left me when I needed her the most. I tried to contact her in every possible way but she ignored my calls and didn't even answer my emails.
The loneliness was killing me, I tried to search my mother but it was all in vain. I was suicidal. I had decided to end this wretched life once and for all. But even death refused to embrace me. I somehow survived. Even the poison couldn't kill the venom inside me. When I returned home I once again tried to find my mom but to no avail. Then one day panchi suddenly appeared at my door. I was shocked to see her. I was so angry at her but all I could do was to hug her. I held her tightly never wanting to let her go, she was the only person left who I ever loved. But instead of showing some affection to her miserable lover she pulled me apart. At first I didn't understand her indifference towards me but then she told me the news that left me shattered. "I am getting married," she said without any hesitation or remorse. Tears rolled down my eyes, "how could you? You left me when I needed you the most." I could barely speak.
"I am sorry about your father's death. But you have to move on in life. It's not like you're the only person who has lost his parents." She said bluntly and left.
These words I'll remember forever pia. It's not like I am the only one who has lost one of his parents. It's not a "big deal" you see. I should have forgotten everything and moved on the next day. I should have started attending parties with her all night without even bothering about my mother who abandoned me for the pain I caused her, and the person I killed who happens to be my father. It was just a death after all." He covered his face with his hands and broke down.
I knelt down beside him and took him in my arms, "I am sorry I caused you so much trouble by making you remember all these things."
"Promise me one thing," he said wiping his tears, "promise me that you'll never leave me no matter what happens. No matter how much I trouble you. You can kick me, slap me, abuse me and even beat me but you can never leave me. I need you pia. Don't ever leave me."
"I won't...I'll never leave you," I said embracing him.
Weeks passed and the bond between me and Abhay grew stronger. My notion of him was proving to be wrong. He was like a little child who needed constant attention. Like when you ignore the child he starts yelling, crying or throwing things to get your attention, same was the case with Abhay. One day when I went with Jey to see his football match without informing Abhay, he bombarded me with phone calls.
"We were supposed to meet today but you seem to be more interested in seeing guys kicking their balls," he said annoyingly.
"I hate double meaning talks and you know that. Now will you please hang up and let me watch the game" said I.
"Fine! Enjoy your game" he hung up.
After the game got over Jey took me for lunch to treat me as his team won the match.
"You play really good," I complimented him.
"I love playing soccer. To tell you the truth, when I was in high school I thought of becoming a soccer player,"
"Then what changed your mind?" I inquired.
"Umm don't know. Things change, your priorities change in life. But I love filmmaking too. It's more important to me than soccer now," he revealed.
"That's great. One should be passionate about what he does. I mean what's the use of doing a job which you have no interest in?" saying that I realized that even Abhay is not happy about being a lawyer. How will his future shape? I pondered.
"Excuse me? Hello?" said jey bringing me back to reality, "what are you thinking about? I asked you if you want to go for a movie or not but you're not even replying."
"Umm sorry, I was just...anyway movie sounds like a good idea. Let's go." I smiled and we left.
After the movie got over, Jey dropped me home. "I had a great time," I said to him smilingly.
"I always have a great time with you," he smiled back and leaned on me to kiss me. I was astonished and dumbstruck. I somehow got out of his car. "Bye," he waived at me from the window and left. I sighed and as I turned towards the house I found Abhay standing at the door. He was looking very angry. There were expressions of anger and bewilderment on his face as he was coming towards me. I gulped and stepped back in fear as he approached me.
"You didn't tell me," he said gnashing his teeth.
"Tell you what?" I asked nervously.
"Tell me what?" he asked shaking his head. He picked up the pot from the porch and threw it forcefully on the ground, "you never told me you were with him? And I have been waiting here for you for 3 hours just to see your face," he shouted.
He had lost his mind; he suddenly turned into a monster that had no reverence for anyone's feelings. His words were like dagger that went through my heart. Tears were rolling down from my eyes.
"That bas***d. How dare he kiss you? And you let him? What are you? Some kind of a slu..." I didn't let him complete the sentence and rushed towards the door. He grabbed my hand and forcefully pulled me towards him, "you think you can leave me so easily?" he whispered in my ears.
"Please let me go," I said weeping.
"You think it's easy for me? Huh? To see you kissing other guys?" a tear rolled down from his eyes as he asked me.
"I didn't know he'd kiss me. I was as shocked as you. I didn't know how to react as he is my friend." I was still crying.
He let go of hand and I ran inside the house. I spent the whole day crying. The words that Abhay used filled my heart with agony and anger. I never thought he would behave like this with me. I went to the window to get some fresh air and saw Abhay standing in the garden, his gazed fixed at my room's window. He looked at me and frowned. My phone started ringing, it was him.I decided not to take his call but then I thought to end this once and for all.
"Yes?" I answered the phone.
"Can you please come down?" he asked.
"Okay."
I rushed downstairs being careful enough to not to wake up aunt. I opened the door slowly and went outside. He was standing at the porch with a grim look on his face.
"What do you want?" I asked closing the door behind me slowly.
"Can we talk in the garden?" he asked. I nodded and followed him to the garden.
"What do you want Abhay?" I asked again.
"Are you going to break our friendship? He asked sheepishly. I stared at him for few moments wondering what to reply.
"Friendship? Is there anything left of it to break?" I decided to take revenge.
"I know I've crossed all the limits. I shouldn't have behaved that way. But is there a hope left for us?" He looked in pain.
"You've hurt me Abhay," I burst into tears, "you've hurt me really bad this time. I've always tried to be good to you, to be your true friend but all I get in return are tears."
He came towards me to console me but I shrugged him off, "you should leave me alone. We can never be friends. How can you be friends with a s**t, huh?" I asked weeping.
"Stop it," he said grabbing his head with his hands, "I am sorry pia. I lost my self control when I saw you both kissing. I just couldn't take..."
"So what if we kissed, huh? What's so wrong with that? Why does it even bother you? Who the hell are you to tell me whom I should kiss and whom should I not?" I asked cutting him in between.
"'Cause i... I just got angry and..." he was trying hard to justify himself.
"You always force me to hate you Abhay. You always do. Every time I try to change my perception about you, you give me a new reason to stick to my old notion regarding you. The truth is you cannot keep friends. You're not worth being anyone's friend." I said bitterly.
"No wonder I am alone," he laughed slightly, "now you want to leave me too, right? Fair enough! I deserve it."
"You shouldn't have reacted this way. That kiss was a shock to me too. But instead of asking me about this whole kiss thing you turned into a violent monster and hurt me. This kiss shouldn't be a big deal to you. I don't why you demonstrated such violent behavior?" I asked him again.
"I got a bit possessive. You're my friend pia. For two weeks we've spent each day together but today you left me without saying a word. You didn't even tell me that you were not going to meet me today. You went to see his game. You even ignored my phone calls and messages. I decided to wait outside your aunt's house, in hope of seeing you. But what did I see? That... Jey kissing you," he clenched his fist in anger, "I swear to Lord, I felt like someone has stabbed me. I couldn't believe you would do this to me. I felt like he is stealing my friend from me."
"You have only harmed yourself in this rage of jealousy," I said wiping my tears, "I don't think we can ever be friends now."
"Don't say that pia," he pleaded as he came towards me, "I am really very sorry. I can do anything to beg your forgiveness. Please, just don't say that we can't be friends."
"I can't be your friend Abhay. You're not worth it." I had decided to part ways.
"You can't do that. You promised me, remember? You said you'll always be my friend. You said... You said you'll never leave me. You can't break that promise," he said holding my arm.
I pulled my arm away from him, "you are the only person to blame for all this."
"I know...I know it's entirely my fault pia," he burst into tears, "but no one is perfect. Give me one more chance, please. I won't disappoint you...I swear."
I turned to go back but he immediately held me from behind, "No...no don't. Please pia don't leave me," he tightened his grip on me.
"Abhay let go of me," I tried to free myself.
"What is wrong with Abhay?" asked misha. She was shocked to hear pia's account of that night.
"I wished I'd known," replied pia.
"But it's really strange pia. I mean, considering his behavior, he got so jealous when he saw Jey kissing you and now he just doesn't seem to let you go. It sounds like he was in love with you," Observed misha.
"I don't know what it was. I don't even care now. He is very hard to understand. Now I don't even bother to read him. He is so complex," said pia expressing her failure.
"What happened then? Did you agree to be with him?" misha was curious to know.
"No, I had decided to leave him once and for all but he wasn't just letting me go. He loosened his grip and turned me around to face him, "you said we'll always remain friends. I know I am a jerk but I promise. I'll behave myself pia. You're the only person left in my life," he held my face with his hands.
I tried to push him away and free myself from his arms but he was too strong for me, "please, reconsider your decision. You can punish me in whichever way you want," he was trying to his best to convince me.
"Abhay just let me go," I tried to free myself. It was getting frustrating, I was trying to free myself but I couldn't. Finally I lost my cool and I slapped him. His cheek turned read. Everything was silent for a moment; I could even hear my heartbeat. I wondered what his reaction would be. I didn't want to wake up the monster inside him again. He raised his head to look at me. He had a stern expression on his face.
"Slap me. Slap me once again," he insisted, "I am ready to do anything to make it up to you," he said freeing me from his arms. He was serious. He was ready to even die for me that night. I walked towards him and slapped him again. I was burning with anger like hell. Something inside me provoked me to slap him again. I slapped him again and again and again without stopping, I avenged every word that he said to me in the afternoon. I slapped him 7-8 times without stopping. His words were echoing in my ears, every insulting thing that he told me provoked me more. I slapped him till the anger inside me burned out.
In my madness and vengeance I noticed that one of my nails scratched his face and blood was coming out of the wound. I finally stopped. His whole face had turned bloody red. He stood there with his head down without moving like he was waiting for his death sentence to get over. I burst into tears again, this time it was tears of satisfaction.
I came closer to him and looked at the scratch on his face which was still bleeding. I brought my lips to his cheek and suck the blood from the wound which I gave to him. I couldn't let a single drop of his blood to be wasted. I sucked the blood till it stopped bleeding. I felt like I was healing me like the way he healed me by letting me slap him.
Then I raised my face to meet his gaze. Still few drops of blood were left on my lips. He leaned towards my face and kissed me, sucking the blood drops from my lips. He was holding me tightly and we were kissing madly without stopping to breathe. Suddenly, I started feeling dizzy. I opened my eyes to see his face. I felt like this is the last time I'm seeing his face and I fainted.
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