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So I said that I would post a Punar Vivaah fic, so here I am updating it at a later date than I said I would, 😳I'm sorry for that I had problems with my internet and didn't have the patience to write it all from my phone or my vita.
This is what happens when you're reconstructing your house, so annoying! 😔Anyways I am madly in love with the show and its characters now, and I am ever so glad that I came across a promo for this show randomly two weeks back, as since then I have been on a Punar Vivaah craze, watching the show like some sort of a drug addict, seriously that's how addictive the show is!! I've already watched all the episodes from the very beginning till the current track. So this is a one shot of AarYa, I would like to clear a few things first before starting the tale, I have decided that in this OS Yash knows about Aarti being a divorcee and is cool with it since he has a more of an open mind than that of which of his parents, since I am not happy about the lie 😭still being told to him on the show since we all know it will all blow over one day and that is going to be a depressing day for all of us fans.
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I Lost You...
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Disclaimer: I do not own Punar Vivaah
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Yash POV:
He didn't know when it had happened; or how it had happened. To be honest all these emotions he has recently been having was confusing him. Was it perhaps love? No it, it can't be' He gripped his head shaking it slightly as he closed his eyes; knowing full well that he was in denial when a picture of her face immediately entered his mind.
All these feelings inside of him that he thought he would never have again for anyone but his late wife were overloading on him, it was bubbling inside him, heating up his heart and soul to the very core. Whenever he saw her or was around anywhere near her he would react to her instantly, at her every move, her every whisper and he would feel something unexplainable, and a feeling of warmth and happiness would instantaneously spread within him.
He knows that she loves him, but he's been pushing her away for far too long now, so now she has completely distanced herself from him; and that feeling of loneliness and sorrow that would immediately transpire within his heart, whenever he noticed her small steps of actions of detachment towards him, well he had learnt to hate it, immensely.
At first he didn't know why he cared about her indifference towards him, and he confused his concerns about it for his concerns over their unborn child, instead of how he actually felt about her.
But now he knows, he wasn't willing to accept it at first, fearing that he was tarnishing his late wife Arpita's memories who he had loved with all his heart. He knew that it will be hard to gain back her trust but he had to try, he was in pain over Arpita's death but due to that reason he had hurt her so much, especially over the Mumbai incident. He didn't know what he would have done if he hadn't found her that day in the temple, she would have left him with Ansh and their unborn child, he knew that he didn't want a child at that time, but to think that he would never see her and his family whole and together again, to not be able to see Ansh grow or hold their new born baby in his arms pained him. But now what is he to do? She would only ever converse with him now if it was about the children and enquire about his health, nothing more or less.
Did she not love him anymore? Thinking about it sent a painful ache in his chest; he admitted it he was selfish about her love.
He still sat on the couch thinking about her and looked around the room, there were pictures of Arpita and him everywhere and none of her. This is probably one of the reasons she didn't want him anymore, why would she still stay besides him when he never did anything that showed that he loved her, and now it was probably too late for her to still accept him. She was only still here besides him because of the children; for Payal, Palak, and Ansh; otherwise she would've been long gone from his life.
At first, when he had married her for the sake of his two girls (who had no mothers love), he never thought that she would accept his children so quickly and come to think of them as her own, not just as step-daughters; the relief that he felt was unbelievable and for that he had begun to respect her. And Ansh, he did not care if Ansh's father is still alive, to him Ansh was and is his very own child too. She couldn't keep it from him that she was a divorcee, she had told him the whole truth and that she did not intend for the lie of her being a widow to go on, as she had been trying to tell him the truth from the very beginning but under her parents' pressure and oaths she could not say anything. He, however, did not care, it was enough for him that she had told him the truth and that she had done so much for him and his girls, providing them with a mother and giving them all love. His thoughts were not that old fashioned that he would despise of her being a divorced woman.
In such a short amount of time, she had become someone that played an important part in his life. She made him feel again. And now he would show her what she means to him, before he loses her forever.
He stood, making up his decision; he wasn't going to hold back anymore she at least deserved this and to tell her everything.
'Here I come, Aarti.' He thought to himself and made his way towards the kid's room; he knew that he would find her there.
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Aarti POV:
She smiled at the children's giddiness, watching and listening to them as they told her what they did today, and all the pranks they pulled on their eldest uncle Pankaj, on the insistence of their small uncle Prateek. She shook her head tutting at listening about her youngest brother-in-law's behaviour, he was such a kid. Her children, they were so naughty at times, but they were her sweet little angels too. She gathered them up as much as she could holding them all within her arms and giving them all a big hug, kissing all three children's cheeks, head and noses, totally unaware that her husband Yash was watching her as he stood near the door.
"Momma, Ew! What are you doing? Girls have cooties!!" Ansh complained wiping his cheeks immediately.
"No we don't! You're so silly Ansh." Palak said frowning at her brother.
"What are cooties, momma? I don't see anything on me." Payal scrunched up her little nose in confusion; her little angels were so cute.
Aarti laughed at their behaviour, "Cooties are just made up words naughty boys use Payal, don't worry about it and Ansh, you didn't have a problem with momma kissing you before, fine I won't do it again, momma's beautiful daughters will get all her love from now on." and then mockingly pouted.
He moved towards her more, holding up his small right hand to her cheek patting it, "Don't be sad momma, I didn't mean it like that, okay, okay... Even though I'm a big boy now, you can still kiss me, just not in front of others okay??" He looked totally serious.
"Yes boss!" Aarti replied back with her hand formed into a salute, and then proceeded to have a tickle war with her children.
"Noo!!!! *giggles*giggles* stop mom, stop!" Ansh, Payal and Palak all screamed.
"Come on girls, help me tickle your brother, let's see how he runs from us girls, we have cooties naah." They all gathered around poor little Ansh tickling him until there were tears in his big brown eyes; Ansh finally noticed his dad near the door and screamed out for help.
"Papa, papa! *gasp**gasp*HELP!!! They're going to kill me..." He screamed out before falling into a giggling fit.
Aarti stopped at hearing this, and turned to see her husband looking at them.
"Yes papa come on, it'll be boys versus girls!" Palak retorted after she stopped tickling her brother.
But instead of answering the kids he locked his gaze on her, she didn't know why but she felt a shiver go down her spine, there was something different about him today his gaze was so intense that it burned through her soul. She quickly looked away before he could see her flustered face, why did he always have to get such a reaction out of her?
"I'm sorry baccha party, I promise to play with you all next time, right now you all need to go to bed, as papa needs to talk to your momma."He finally replied as he entered the room.
She froze as she heard this, his husky voice demanding her attention. What did he need to talk to her about? She didn't recall doing anything wrong. But before she could think of anything else, he came right up towards her; standing so close to her that she could practically feel his warmth on her skin.
He knelt down on the bed giving each kid a goodnight hug and a kiss, and then held up Ansh in his arms so that he could take him to Ansh's bed. Ansh quickly turned towards Aarti and gave her a kiss on the cheek making Yash bump into her, she gripped onto his arm without realising and gazed up at him locking eyes into his deep warm brown ones. She could hear her heart thundering against her chest, could he hear it too? She become conscious on what she was doing so quickly let go of Yash's arm and then looked down towards the girls, not realizing that Yash was frowning as she did so. They both bade the kid's goodnight and switched off the room light making sure that the kiddie lamps were on, and stepped out the room.
Aarti started walking as Yash followed falling in a step behind her; she was growing nervous as they both walked in the direction of their room.
"Erm, Yash ji' I'll just go get some water for you and then we'll talk," she made a move to go in the direction of the kitchen but stopped abruptly when Yash gripped her hand.
"Wait Aarti! It's not necessary I really need to talk to you, please come with me."
She nodded, shocked at his actions as he pulled her along with him, she could feel the warmth seep of his hand against hers as he tightened his grasp, not letting go of her hand at all.
What is going on? She couldn't help but think. Aarti was just plain confused at his actions he was acting very strange and so unlike him. Is he worried about the kids?
They finally entered the room and he reluctantly let go of her hand and started pacing around the room nervously, she watched him for a few seconds before interrupting him.
"Are you alright Yash Ji? Did I do something wrong?" She tried to keep the sadness out from her tone, but when it came to situations like this, it was always her fault somehow or another that was why she was trying to create more distance between them, she didn't want to cause any more problems for him.
He stopped his pacing and looked at her, like really looked at her. This situation was getting more and more awkward for Aarti and she was starting to feel self-conscious; so she kept her head down not looking at his eyes. He strode towards her just six paces away from her.
"I'm sorry; please can you look at me Aarti Ji? I need you to listen to me and..." She looked up as he stopped talking to take a huge breath in and then exhaled out and then connected his deep brown gaze to hers.
"I need you to hear me, understand me, believe in me and the truth behind my words. Let me start from the beginning; you know it yourself after Arpita my life didn't have any significance to it, my children were the only ones that were keeping me together, without them my world would have been filled with darkness. I was so miserable, and I was making everyone else miserable and worried around me. All I could think about was what will happen to me now, what will happen to my children who have to live their life without their mother the one person that kept us all together..." He looked her in the eye, expressing all his emotions and the seriousness behind his words; she couldn't look away even if she wanted too.
"...And then you came, and you gave me so much, to my children my family, and yet I have given you nothing but hurt. It wasn't only once but so many times that I gave you so much pain; I was so ignorant towards you so immature yet you took it all in and still loved me. You don't know what you mean to me, because I was a coward and I still am even now..." He took a step closer to her still looking as a few tears slipped from both of their eyes.
"...You, you are so special to me, and now without you my life has no meaning what so ever. I don't know if you still want me after everything I've done, yet when I look into your eyes I know you still care. I just don't want you to ignore me anymore; because I can't live like this without you by my side. It hurts. I know that this is what I wanted before and you're respecting my decisions, but I don't want that anymore. I just want you. Your laughter, your company, you being with me makes me so happy; and I always questioned myself on why? On why you make me feel this way. But I know now I think I've always known Aarti. That I-I love you. More than anything in the world, for giving me and my- no - I mean our kids all the happiness in the world, for being my wife. Forgive me please??? Don't ignore me anymore I don't want to lose you. Be mine like you were always meant to be, because I love you."
He finally closed the distant towards her, and leaned down to connect their foreheads, holding her face within his hands trying to swipe away all the tears off her face with his thumbs, as she was full out crying now. Tears blurred her vision as she looked at him, believing him.
"Please..." He whispered to her, she could feel his breath caress her lips, he was so close.
"I love you too, I always will Yash." She whispered back.
He smiled through his tears as he heard her reply and then enclosed his lips to hers; she closed her eyes and gripped his shirt closer to him. Kissing her softly and then nibbling on her bottom lip, brushing his tongue across her lips; she gasped as he pulled her even closer opening up for him as he darted his tongue in. Kissing her so passionately that her knees began to wobble, so she held on to him as if he were her life line. They finally stopped to take a breather and he pecked her lips a few times before sighing,
"I love you." He smiled down at her; she looked dazed but so damn happy.
This Punar vivaah was the best thing that ever happened and he would make sure that nothing would ever go wrong again; he rubbed her stomach grazing her baby bump. Yep, they were definitely going to make it...
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Ehem!! Well, well, well. I finally finished and posted it, I hope y'all liked it and it meets to all your standards. Sorry I don't do image banners since I suck at it so don't mind me. But do please, please, please like and comment I would really appreciate it and would like to hear all your thoughts,🤗 no matter how small or big. Thank you for reading. Ellie xoxo ☺️
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