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Laakad jalke koyala hoi jaaye ,
(The wood burns and becomes coal)
Koyala hoi jaaye khaak ...
(The coal turns to ash...)
Jiya jale toh kuchh na hoy re,
(But the heart burns there is nothing )
Na dhuaan na raakh,
(No smoke, no ash,)
Jiya na jalaiyyo re...
(Don't make my heart ache)
There never is a sound to a heart break, nor a foretelling of loss but undoubtedly the pain experienced is heart wrenching and all writhing! To lose the very person that you've made the nucleus of your existence is something you and me can not fathom unless, of course, we've been put to same peril. Paro today lost the very person she had made reason for exsistence. She doesn't know that she had fallen for a wolf in sheepskin and no amount of reasoning will bring her to her senses. She is in trauma and is unable to shake off its remaining vestiges! She is trying to pull herself but the ghosts of the past lie in front of her, laughing at her failing attempts. She badly needs someone, someone to talk to, someone to hold onto, because as it is she is losing herself. The moment this grief will be over, it'll be replaced by a chasm of void and there is no way she is surfacing anytime soon. Its a catch 22 situation, she can't fight it but she can't embrace it either. Today this girl is broken but her pieces are en-tact, tomorrow even those pieces won't remain hers. Her screams, her denial, her depression, her anger, all point to one thing that she is lost. The happy heart had already been hurt with her parents death, today breathed its last! Paro is now lost!
There is Rudra, a man caught in a situation that he has somehow created for himself. Today his present and past mated, and try as much, but you can't run! The man who shot down Varun was a BSD officer, but the one who tried pulling the trigger only to fail was a juxtaposition of that young Rudra and the ruthless Major Ranawat. He is invariably hurt but then his mind flickers to that lesson of his father; he looks on and finds the traitor is again a beautiful dame. And that just gives things an added edge! Whatever remorse or hurt or guilt he had was stripped off and disgust and anger recoiled to devour on an already grief stricken Paro! He pulls her up, thrashes her and throws her into the interrogation room. A part of him is not happy with his doing but the major part of him flashes that beautiful women belong to none and he sees not a widow but a beautiful traitor whom he has to punish no matter what!
In Shiva mythology there comes a narration. Adi-Shakti had been born as Parvati but Shiva had refused to accept her as his wife. She had then began her penance. Shiva purposely created situation that would break her heart again and again. She cried, she got angry but then eventually made Shiva bow to her love. Same goes for PaRud. She has to let herself burn in Rudra's anger before calming and soothing his aching nerves. They have to go through a lot before a zenith of sorts is conquered. But the mind fears that what all will be the cost of it? Will it be her innocence or his life?
The screenplay was again etched out perfectly. I don't know about y'all but I was very happy with Vikram's mother coming in the fore. Yes Vikram is a martyr, yes he laid his life to protect the country, yes he made his team proud, yes he is someone we'd all look up at, but all this is an incoherent sounds to his mother. She is just a grieving mother who is in denial. She doesn't understand that her son's death is a sacrifice! All she knows is that she has lost her child and no amount of justifications can bring him back! My grandfather was a police officer died on duty fighting a crime warlord, when my father was only 13! We feel a sense of pride run over us, but my grandmother hates it. She hates the mere mention of police forces and my bua, her daughter who is part of the police forces, too is reprimanded by granny! That's the perspective! She had lost her husband with young kids to look after, obviously death for her was bad omen. My father and his siblings lost their father to a cause and for them its a matter pride! That's just about it! Death translates into many things, it depends on us how we look at it. For Rudra and his men it was matter of both pride and pain, but for the lady it was only pain, crepuscular pain. She lashes out on Rudra just like any other woman would. And that's just that!
But it reveals a very different facet of Rudra. So he is a vulnerable man, he too breaks down, he too feels loss and pain and despair! Its okay for him to have a attachment with his colleagues and consider them his family! So this proves that he has a white heart that is only covered in dirt and he does occasionally dust it. It also shows that underneath all that bravado of him hating beautiful women and their 'supposed' betrayal, he somewhere longs for the comfort a lady provides. The moment he rests against the wall and feels Paro on the other side he feel relieved and calm. Its only after a recoil of his father's grand words that he pulls back and lets the fury and disgust run to his head and forces his heart to take a backseat!
I loved the shot of Rudra and Paro there! Lord Shiva and Adi-Shakti are practically one and the same and when one is in pain, tears are bound to fall from other's eyes and the makers very beautifully referred it with the mythology! That was a beautiful scene with a tender sweet-ings lingering over!
Sanaya and Aashish were brilliant. I refuse to believe that the ones I saw on screen were actors. I almost lived each moment with them thinking these two WERE Paro and Rudra!! My eyes had welled up seeing the pain that was evident in both their faces! I just can't wait for tomorrow!!
Jhanak
Udne Ki Aasha
