Part 4-A morning not so bright...
I looked at the skies that embraced the morning's arrival the darkened sky mixing in the tinge of reddish glory of the new day. The birds seemed quiet enthusiastic with the arrival of the morning but for me my morning was still not so bright Ronak has not come home since last night but that didn't made me worried in fact it inflicted the scars of envy on my heart that how easily he can detach himself from the happenings of our life and my miseries. The fact of him sleeping with someone else suddenly had no effect and impact on me perhaps he has slept with many women's on his bed of success.
I looked at the walls around me that echoed his presence everywhere and suddenly there was a rush in my blood that wanted me to escape from the pretentious world of our marriage.
I in a haste grabbed a suitcase and stuffed all my belongings within may be this the only thing that was right for the moment though I had no idea where I wanted to go or was there some place where I can go. I held my head in my hands hoping to find an answer and that is when my eyes fell on the album that held moments of our togetherness together lying lifelessly in the cupboard and I don't know why I felt a sudden urge of flipping the pages back as if the pages holds the answer of my miseries and the key of my happiness.
I looked at the coloured photographs that held the moments of our happiness he kissing me, I kissing him, we getting married, our new home and many more what I noticed was in every photograph we were being distant and at the end I found a picture where I was standing alone. I looked at the picture carefully it was from our last holiday that we spent in Tuscany the background was of a beautiful Villa that was at sale at that time and I remembered how I insisted Ronak to buy the property but he thought it to be a deal of loss.
I looked at the picture again and I don't know why at the sole point of time having that villa was only thing that mattered to me a dream that I wanted to buy myself.
I took out the picture and kept in my bag leaving behind the tarnished memories of our togetherness. I took my bags and asked the servant to call for a cab I gave a last look at the house that I lived in with him my Ronak and wiped my tears off I needed to move on and emotions couldn't hold me back. I took a paper and neatly wrote on it
My Ronak
I looked at the alphabets for a while that seemed alien to me and then I discarded the word MY from it
Ronak
I am leaving your house
I should have done this days ago but I guess I was blindly depending on My love. Nevertheless better late than never I will contact you once I am in a state to talk with you on any issues drop me a message though when the Divorce papers are ready I will come and sign it
Geet
I neatly folded the letter and kept it on the table I took a deep breath and walked towards the door and looked back for one last time promising that I will never look back again.
It was 8 AM in the morning and my mind was still struggling to get free from the images of Aditya and Nitya's marriage and togetherness just even the thought that last night she would have given her body and soul both to him made me mad and no liquor helped me in forgetting the same.
The only thing it did was that it added a bitter headache making my state more miserable. I looked at the walls around me that certainly didn't look like my room but on a clearer view I was glad that I was in the office and not in a road or a hotel room.
I heardmy cellphone buzzing mercilessly and I picked it up immediately it was Dadi no wonder she would have been worried with my disappearance
Hello Dadi (I said with discontentment but regretted the very next moment as I heard dadi's worried voice)
Maaan Kaha hai aap...Kal raat se aapka koi pata nahi hai...Hum jante hai aap naraaz hai par aise
I am ok Dadi
Hum nahi jante aap Ghar aa jaiye abhii
Nahi dadi hum waha kadam bhi nahi rakhengey
Maaann beta please...Just let me see you once from my eyes and then aap jaha chahe ja sakte hai (I wish I could have refused her but her worried voice made me aware of her state and I agreed readily without much persuasion)
Ok just for 5 mins
I disconnected the call and was surprised to see the number of missed calls and messages on my cell. What surprised me more that apart from dadima it was Nitiya who kept on calling and messaging me all night long. Call it my insanity but it gave me immense satisfaction that for her I was more important than her sWedding night but such are miseries of love I said knowing it was only because I was her friend she would feel guilty if something happened to me but perhaps I was no Romeo who will kill himself on the departure of his beloved and neither was she any Juliet who will die in my love.
I laughed like a maniac at my state of mind and after composing myself wrote a message to Nitiya
I am ok thank you for your concern but next time please don't pretend you care when you are the sole reason of my misery.
I reached Khurrana Mansion in good 30 minutes and I hated the site of my home that still was living the festivity of the marriage.
With quick strides I climbed up the stairs and reached at Dadi Ma's room who was sitting on the chair and looking outside towards the sky through the window.
Come in Maan she asked sensing my presence
I walked inside and sat on the bed not looking at everything else except her
Oh my god you look terrible Maan she sighed
Y a I know I said not giving her an opportunity to start a conversation
You are still mad aren't you?
I am not in a mood to discuss the state of my madness with you Dadima I replied in a cold and a blunt tone
Very well son if that suits you
Can I leave now I asked her getting up from the bed
No sit for a while I need to discuss something with you
I hope it's not about Nitiya
No it's not
It's about the villa that we have Tuscany
What about that
I got a call from someone who is interested to buy it and the amazing thing is that she had a word with me 6 months ago
6 months ago what was she doing sleeping till now and suddenly out of blue she is like lets buy the house
No Maan there was a pain and sincerity in her voice...She called me at 7 AM in the morning and I don't know why but it seemed like her life depended on it
Strange any ways I thought you changed your mind about selling it
Yess I did because I want someone to take care of that house like I would and your Dadaji would do and she seemed tome those ways
But we can take care of the villa ourselves Dadima I know how important it is to you
I know we can Maan and it is true that the villa is really important to me but another thing that is true too is that I will never return to it and I think even the house now deserves to have someone that can fill it with new colour s
You know Maan at times you have to let go of the things you love for their own sake
I looked at Dadima not knowing what to say to someone who is giving her most prized possession to some stranger
What do you want me to do Dadima
That lady is reaching Tuscany today she will be staying in our Villa I have promised her that I will reach there by tomorrow morning and will finalise the deal and you are accompanying for the same
But Dadima why me
Because Maan I need you there it is going to be difficult for me and also because I want you away from everything now
I nodded in dismay I knew there was no escape from it and for some strange reason running away from here seemed the best thing to calm my mind and heart too.
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