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SwaRon OS ||Ibadat-E-Ishq ||
"Ishq karoon ya karoon Ibaadat
Ishq karoon ya karoon Ibaadat
Ikko hi gal ai"
"What nonsense!" she said after stopping the song in-between.
"What's wrong with it? It has such a beautiful lyric!" I retaliated, "So much depth in it." I tried to turn back the radio on but Sharon pushed my hand away.
"Oh God Swayam! You're the first ever guy who is so romantic even though you're not even in a relationship." But you don't need a relationship to be in love Sharon, but I can't EVER tell you this.
"And you won't ever find one!" I saw her smile as I finished, the urge to tell her how addictive her smile is was going through me.
"That's true. But seriously, this lyric does not make sense"
"What doesn't make sense?" I asked her curiously. What exactly was confusing her or making her agitated?
"Ishq karoon yaa karoon Ibaadat, Ikko hi gal ai? Why is worship and love the same? I mean you worship God and love is a feeling, an emotion right? So, why are they the same?" I laughed lightly.
"Love is a godly feeling Sharon", she gave me the "what the hell are you talking about" look, "You know what, it's really hard to explain ... Leave it."
"Please Swayam, try, for me!" She pleaded while giving the puppy-dog face. It couldn't help but agree, she was looking so adorable that it was hard to deny.
"Alright! When you're in love, being with that person is like being with your favourite celebrity. But better! You can feel you're heartbeats increasing when she's near you", Sharon started looking out the window and I took the opportunity to look at her, "When you see her smiling face, you automatically smile, no matter what your mood was before. When you see her angry, you wish to kill the person who did that! Love is magic but it can happen to anyone!"
She turned towards me and I quickly looked towards the front, pretending to concentrate on the road, before she could catch me, "Anyone?" She questioned.
"Anyone, even you!" I smiled while answering.
"And what about you Swayam?" I felt my heartbeat rising. Well, this time out of fear.
"Me, what about me?" I felt myself losing the confidence I had just now, as if something might just slip out and make everything bad.
"A romantic guy, explaining a GIRL about love, Am I supposed to believe that you're not in love?" Shit! No, this was no supposed to happen! Not at least until I thought she felt that same, until I was sure.
I cleared my throat, hoping it wasn't indicating something else and replied, "No, me ... love! Haha you must be joking!" I tried sounding as real as possible, tried! Though I know that I am not good at this, on the spot hiding things.
"Oh come on Swayam! I can catch it when someone's in love. Don't try to hide it from me!" What the hell am I supposed to do! The girl I am in love with is asking me, who I love? What type of situation is this?!
"Well, there is this girl!" I tried starting, hoping she wouldn't enquire more.
"OMG! Swayam is in love! Tell me who is it? Please" Lesson learnt; never tell Sharon anything which will make her even more curious.
"Can I not!" I murmured to myself, but I guess Sharon heard it because after that she said,
"Fine! Don't! Later when you come to me all sorry, I am not going to forgive you!" She said and turned away. Now she's upset, if I tell her the truth, she'll be upset. If don't tell her the truth, she'll still be upset! What a mess!
"But Sharon, I haven't even told her how I feel yet!" And a millisecond after, her head turned and her mouth were o-shaped while her eyes glared at me, in shock.
"You haven't told her? How could you not? You are such a big ass!" Yup, and if I did I would have lost one of my closest friends. Why is love so complicated?
"But, it's not that easy Sharon!" I tried to make reason but
"Not easy! What do you mean by not easy? Just tell her you love her right! Any girl would happily take you as their boyfriend Swayam!" That gave me some hope. But I only want that girl to be you Sharon.
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