arshi os ||A Story Of LOVE||

A Story Of LOVE

( a bit lengthy, have patience :-) )

The wind was blowing with a cool breeze in the early morning. The sun hasn't risen yet, but the dark sky slowly faded away with the entry of the light. The birds tweeted singing their morning choruses with their ever beautiful voices. A small lake was running behind the far house with a few ducks in it. the windows and doors of the house were drew open wide allowing the light to penetrate into the light, like someone said every day gives hope in the place of sorrow. A lean man with sharp chiseled features drew the curtains, his eyes were dark brown, and face was so keen and clear just like he was carved by gods. His fingers reached his pockets and pulled out the spectacles and wore them above his eyes.

He smiled welcoming one more day, a day of sunlight, a day of hope and also another day of pain, loss and loneliness. Well, it may be shocking, he is ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA; he always got what he wants since he was a kid. Though he lost his parents at a very young age, he worked hard and built his own empire of A.R fashions where no one can beat him in the fashion world. He always stood on his own foot, never wished for anything in life because he don't need to. He had everything he wants, it was then. But now, everything is changed. Life has proved him that he can't get everything he wished for. Money and riches are not enough to live in this world. There is something which cannot be bought or sold, that is LOVE, in simple words a relationship. It may be between wife and husband, best friends, family relation. We may it very granted, but when we lose them, it's really hard to imagine life

Arnav walked from his kitchen with a tea cup in his hand. He took the newspaper and sipped the coffee listening to the humming of birds. He gave a reading through the headlines but was interrupted by a phone call. He was about to go to answer when he was stopped by a painting. Even it was far from the place where he stood, it was glowing with spark. He removed his specs and walked slowly towards it. As he neared to the painting on the wall his heart beat rapidly increased. Finally he stood before it, the painting was huge, it was not of comic or nature, but it was his life. Every time he sees the painting, he drifts to his old memories. He slowly traced his hard fingers on the soft painting. They reached the eyes of the girl, and travelled to her cheeks and smile. He can still hear the sound of her laughter in the air around him, can still see the spark in her eyes, and can still see the red blush on her cheeks. He closed his eyes in pain and leaned his head on the wall, images of them, of her, of their love flashed before him. Everything was perfect, she in his arms, it's like they were meant to be UNTIL that day. Unable to stop himself he drifted back to the beautiful memories

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He had been calling kushi for the thousand times but she isn't picking up her call, he missed her smile which she gave him every day morning at his office. She was his P.A. though there were many nook joks between them finally they realized their love for each other. Shashi gupta father of kushi is a close friend of Arnav's dad and also their business partner. But kushi wanted to be independent and joined his office as his P.A. he tried her number again, it was switched off. He more tensed up of her not lifting the call because she fainted in the office the previous day. Not just the previous day but this had been going on since 2 months. She was always sick with some problem or the other. He was always worried for her.

Yesterday an important meeting was going on and kushi fainted in middle of it. arnav rushed to the hospital with her in his arms. The doctors prescribed some tests and he dropped her back. He recollected all the scenes where she was in slumber when he dropped her home from the hospital. She clutched his collar tightly even while sleeping. After that he did not see her or call her again. He was damn tensed. Even Shashi uncle's phone is also not in reach. He paced in his office rubbing his hands over his temples. His worry was disturbed when his phone began to ring. Hoping its kushi he lifted enthusiastically but what he heard on the other side made him angry, in fact confused. He threw the cell phone and muttered under his breath

Arnav: dammit you can't leave me kushi. Grabbing his car keys he zoomed off to the airport. May things running over his mind, what is happening? It was aman's phone call. Kushi and her family are moving to USA for another 6 months. It doesn't make any sense to him. How can they just leave everything and go? Is it pre planned or last minute decision? Why will uncle take this decision without informing him? And why the hell kushi didn't even bother to call him? He punched the steering and raised the speed. The flight time is running out; if he didn't reach on time he is gonna miss her. His heart desperate to see her and hug her and make sure she is okay.

In spite of the heavy traffic he reached the airport. Without even locking the car he ran to the entrance. Before even he can enquire he saw the flight taking off flying high into the sky. His heart shattered, she can't do this, she can't leave him like this in the middle of nothing. He stood numb for some time. Everything was chaotic around him but his mind was only on KUSHI. Why did she leave? It is still unanswerable to him. As he stood looking at nothing he phone beeped. The lone tears of his eyes fell on the screen of his mobile. He wiped them away and unlocked the mobile and found a message waiting for him to open. Even though he lost all the hopes, a corner of his heart screamed that it was kushi. He opened the message and shocked to read it

"Arnav, by the time you open this I might have already gone. I'm so sorry for not informing you. I and my family are moving to USA. Don't worry I will be back soon within 6-7 months. Don't ask me the reason for my sudden decision. You don't have to worry about my health as papa is with me. And also promise me that you won't come there to me. Your family needs you here. I will call once I land in US. Take your tablets at time and eat and sleep at time. Whenever you feel gloomy think of me

Love,

Kushi."

Stream of tears gushed through his eyes falling on the mobile screen, soon it started raining. She left him, for the first time in life he felt alone, shattered, orphaned. It was like a part of his is dead. "6 months" he noted the words. He has to learn to live without her for the next 6 months. Live without her smile, her hugs and passionate kisses, their never ending chats at night. His mind urged to book the next flight to fly, but he made a promise to her, that he will stay back. He wiped his tears in rain and walked back to the car. He is a stone again, with no emotions and feelings. He drove back home and shut his door behind him not meeting anyone. He felt like he wanted to be poisoned in that room forever...until she comes back.

7 months later

Kushi has been calling him often, but she didn't talk much. He used to know bot her where about and she about his. For every call there was a difference which arnav noticed. There was pain and weakness in her voice. A pain she was gulping in her dry throat when she was talking to him and a weakness which isn't permitting her to talk to him. He so wanted to see her but his promise held him back. But again since 2 weeks there was no call from her or uncle. And he too didn't call back. He just wanted her to come back to him, into his arms.

He walked into the pool side and his tracks stopped listening to aakash voice and shocked to hear his words

Aakash: "haan payal, I'm so happy that you guys are back" Arnav's eyes widened in shock! Payal is back?? He wondered while aakash continued waise how's kushi ji?

Hearing her name from his brother's mouth arnav couldn't stop himself from running to him and snatching the phone. Aakash was shocked to see arnav there grabbing his mobile. Payal was stunned on the other side as arnav started shooting up questions about kushi. Not knowing what to does she disconnected the call. Anger shot up in him, kushi is already in Delhi and no one even informed including his brother. He hit aakash phone to the wall and barged out to the gate to go to kushi's house.

Aakash tried to stop him but in vain the mighty ASR zoomed out of the magnificent gates of shanitivan.

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She was lost, hurt and broken. She doesn't even know for what reason she is living for. Since she was a kid she always brought problem for everyone. Today it was confirmed that she is an accident. Her birth is a mistake. May some fault and confusion took over when Brahma was creating her. Why did she have to face this? God has punished her enough. She lost her parents at a very small age and then she was adopted. Now she found her love, her happiness, her life with arnav. Why the fate does have to play with their lives? Uncontrollable tears flew out from her eyes, silent sobs filled around her, she don't even want to look at herself in the mirror, because she is not the same kushi anymore, everything has changed. She has to spend her life in the four walls. Tears rolled on her thin weak cheeks which did not have the glow anymore. She digs her head inside her folded legs crying. Suddenly her eyes shot up, the same gush of wind blew on her, her heart paced rapidly, just like when she was with arnav. She silently wiped her tears in dilemma whether it's her dream or reality

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Arnav stepped in the large drawing room of her house. There was no sign of any workers or uncle. Even payal was nowhere to be seen. But his heart screamed and yelled that she is there. With every step his heart yearned to see her, while on the other side kushi's heart was recognizing his presence. This is sure, he is here. Her eyes snapped wide. No!!! It can't be! He can't see her like this. She can hear his foot steps towards her. Arnav narrowed at the lean and thin figure standing a few steps away from him facing her back. But it doesn't look like kushi at all, still he can smell her jasmine fragrance, he wondered why? Even her hair doesn't match kushi's. As he took a step towards her kushi's heart started thumping. No!! She cannot face him, she cannot look in his eyes like before, and she is not the same jolly, kushi anymore. Before he can approach her she pulled her duppata covering her hair and ran upstairs. Sobs couldn't stop themselves other than escaping. Wiping her unstoppable tears she ran, this is sure, she is kushi. He just believed his heart and ran back of her, but she was way too fast. While she was running, one of her payal slipped from her soft ankle and fell on the stairs. Arnav stopped his tracks and realized that it was hers anklet, his kushi...why is she running away from him? No! He isn't going to stop today. He needs to see her after damn 7 months. He reached her door which she already closed behind her and started banging

Arnav: kushi!!!!!!

His fingers curled and he punched the door hard and harder for every punch yelling her name. Shashi and payal came out of their rooms and shocked to see arnav there and that too banging kushi's door.shashi tried to stop him but he isn't ready to go back. He banged the door while kushi collapsed leaning on the door other side. She clutched her heart and cried out. But the bangs on her door were getting louder. She wiped her tears and breathed in and out controlling the sobs and managed to reply

Kushi: arnav ji, please go away!!

Arnav nodded no. his hands were almost bleeding but he isn't going to stop. He will fight for her, for his love, for their life. Kushi clutched her head and shredded millions of tears. What did god do to her? She is stuck between him and her. She cannot face him. Cos she knows he will try to convince her to lead a normal life. Her thoughts were stopped by the door. It is in the state of breaking she moved away from the door s it fell down.

Her duppata was still on her head. She was facing the window while arnav stood at her door step. He walked in, still she was silent. Her sobs rang on his ears. He fisted his hands unable to bear her cry. She isn't facing him till. He grabbed her hand and tried to pull her towards him but her other hand took the support of the wall. She clutched the wall tightly not facing him. He whispered

Arnav: kushi face me..His voice was soft yet commanding. Kushi nodded no shedding her tears out. She lost all her strength; she can't fight anymore with him. Her grip on the wall slowly loosened, he pulled her to him with his force and her duppata slipped from her head. She is directly standing in front of him with down cast eyes, rivers of pain flowing through her eyes.

Arnav withdrew his hand from her shoulders in shock. Her long silky hair is now thin and short. Her eyes swallowed back and cheeks inside. There was no spark in her eyes now. She looked faded. Her lips dry and bluish. Her palms had scars of injections. Her milky body is now looking half eaten and yellow shade. He was with drawn. What is going on? He came back to his trance with her voice. Her lashes were still low and she whispered

Kushi: go away from here !

She sounded broken and her voice chocked between her words. Arnav asked her back still in shock

Arnav: kya hua kushi?

Kushi bit her lips and told him again

Kushi: chale jaaien yahan se

Arnav pinned her to the cupboard and yelled at her

Arnav: dammit I'm asking you something ! kya hua tujhe !! he yelled on the top of his voice. Kushi fisted her small palms and with her her might pushed him and yelled back t him

Kuhsi: CANCER hua mujhe !! cancer!!!!!!!!!

At that strike of the moment his world stopped. The dreams he dreamt of her, with her till date broke into pieces, a million pieces. "CANCER hua mujhe!! Cancer!!!!!!!!!" her words rang in his mouth. He took a few steps backward in disbelief, no his kushi...no she can't be a cancer victim. No she can't be!! He saw her breaking down again and falling to her knees on the ground hiding her face. His heart pained and ached. The girl he loved, the girl who entered his life breaking the walls he built, is now broken, is now trying to turn into a stone, is going to leave him. He knelt down reaching her. He forced her cupping her face to look at him. Her lashes were still fixed on the ground. He just pulled her into his embrace. Her fingers went back to his broad chest, her nails digging into his skin while her head rested on his shoulder. She cried her heart out. She cried pouring out all the pain in her she had hidden for 7 months, the pain she had hidden behind the curtains of her eyes, the pain which had hidden behind her forceful smile is not splitting out. She sobbed harder; his shirt was completely wet while the tears from his eyes flow out. She was dumb folded, shocked, not because his dreams are shattered but her's. The healthy, joyful and crazy girl he saw is now lost all her hope and courage. NO! He can't see her like that. He can't bear to see her hurt herself. He pulled back and wiped her every tear on her face. He cupped her face and then their eyes met; kushi couldn't understand what he was going through. Arnav just let her do whatever she wants, she just flickered all the tears with his finger. Kushi came out of her trance, no she can't do this, she can't let him near her spoil his life too. She pushed him and turns to the other side. She now realized that coming back from US is the biggest mistake she has done. That day after she fainted, her blood tests confirmed that he has cancer, Shashi shifted her to the best hospitals of US, but no one can help it out. They came back because the doctors already told them that her cancer is in the last stage and she might be able to live for another month. She came back just to spend the last days of life

But arnav is she sees him another time, she can't stop herself, she started going away from there but arnav pulled her back again. She tried to come out of his grip but she is too weak. She wriggled her hand pleading him to leave her but the response she got from him is

Arnav: I love you kushi..His husky tone sent shivers to the spine, like the first time he confessed his feelings to her. But the best thing was he is still saying that he loves her, what kind of mud he is made up off? But she isn't the right one for him. she can't make his life more horrible. She muttered

Kushi: but I don't arnav..

Arnav chuckled and took her bruised palms and kissed them lovingly. Lone tears escaped rom the both their eyes

Arnav: you can't lie to you self kushi. You and I know how much we love each other, and you can't run away from life..you

Before even he can say kushi interrupted him

Kushi: the point is I don't have a life anymore arnav ji, I don't see any future waiting for me. And I don't wana spoil ur life because of my selfishness

Arnav cut her off and replied

Arnav: but I'm selfish kushi, I don't care what is wrong with you. I can't see the girl who taught me to live is ready to be defeated by death. I can't see my love suffering like this..i cant

But kushi cut him off leaving his palms and controlling sobs

Kushi: you have to see me like that arnav, I have no other choice,

Arnav grabbed her shoulders smoothly and

Arnav: of course you do, you are the one who taught me to live a new life every day. I want you to enjoy every day, every minute and seconds of your life kushi. He cupped her face and continued come with me kushi, marry me, live a life with me. Kushi pulled out from his embrace and tried to convince him

Kushi: "it's not easy for me arnav" she gulped her tears and replied "it's not easy for me to say that I hate. Please arnav ji, try to understand, we are not meant to be together. I can't promise you to be with you as I have no guarantee that I may live or die the next second's. Before even she could continue arnav covered her mouth not letting her to speak. He took her hands in his and placed on his heart

Arnav: if anything happens to you my heart will stop beating kushi. I love you kushi, and I can't live without you, please kushi, let's face this together, nothing can separate us.

Kushi unable to stop herself threw her arms around him letting her heart out for him. he wrapped her waist with his hands and draw her closer, both were shedding tears, tears of pain, of love, of strength , of weakness. He pulled back and cupped her cheeks with his tears

Arnav: soch kushi, nothing else mattered till now and will never matter in the future. Because you are my future and I am yours. You taught me to live the present. Now it's your turn kushi, jeelo kushi, enjoy this present, with me. Please don't lose hope. I'm with you

His words gave some unknown strength to her, courage to fight once again, for their LOVE. And again she heard him saying

Arnav: you can't run away without completing our story kushi...our story of love. Kushi smiled through her tears and sobbed with happiness. That moment was perfect; he didn't felt any other moment to be this sensual. Even though he didn't have a rose and ring with him, he knelt on his knees shocking her and asked her

Arnav: will you be my wife kushi? Will you marry me?

Thousands of doubts arose in her but all that matters is the present, and she Is no more scared of future as they will face together. She smiled and gave her hand in his. Arnav smile din his tears and they both embraced each other not wanting to leave.

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It's the day of their wedding. Just as kushi wished only few closed ones were invited and it was held in shanitivan. Kushi looked angelic with her red lehenga and simple yet elegant jewelers while arnav looked dashingly handsome in the sherwani. As the pundit announced they walked around the fire for 7 times completing the pheras promising each other.

As the grihapravesh took place arnav lifted her in his arms and took her directly to his room. Crimson red flushed from her cheeks as she blushed furiously. He laid her on the bed and went back to the luggage, the duo changed and spent the whole night talking and chatting with each other and dropped into slumber in each other's embrace listening to their heart beats

And the one week of honey moon in Paris was magical. He took her to every where she wished, full filled all her dreams. Everything was perfect, she looked healthy and happy, and she just stayed in his arms all the time feeling his love.

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Suddenly one day he got a call that she fainted and admitted again. His heart beat stopped. Ambulance, ICU, nurses, doctors, and his surroundings were chaotic. He silently prayed inside to make her live. He heard the doctors saying that she is in her last stages. He sat on the bench and cried like a small kid. His eyes were puffy and face was red. Kushi was calling for him from the ICU. He wiped all the tears pretending to be happy. He entered the ICU and saw her on the bed with oxygen masks and iv canellas on both the sensitive hands. The place where the injection was given turned bluish in color. She lifted her hand slowly calling for him. He settled himself beside her on the bed.

Kushi smiled seeing her husband who is no less than a small kid, silently sniffing and sobbing. Her heart ached, if she hadn't entered in his life, he wouldn't have faced this. But no, she won't cry or regret for anything. They promised each other that they will stand together. She slowly placed her hand on his shoulder and whispered

Kushi: arnav ji..Her voice choked; in a blink of an eye he hugged her tightly as if his life is depended on her. He can't let her go, all the moments flashed before them, their wedding, honey moon, proposal, their hugs, kisses, smiles, and promises. He sobbed like a little kid resting his chin on her shoulder, while shushed him patting his head. He pulled back wiping his tears and

Arnav: please kushi, mujhe chod kar math jaana..

Kushi ruffled her fingers in his thick hair and smiled

Kushi: I will never leave you arnav ji, until god wants to take me. Arnav nodded no and held her palms kissing them slowly and lovingly,

Arnav: no kushi, please, I can't live without you...please..

She hugged him back while he sobbed hard. She patted while he said to her

Arnav: if you leave me then I will also come along with you, tell to your devi mayya.

She chuckled and pulled back wiping his tears on his stoned cheeks

Kushi: no arnav ji, you need to complete our love story right? She smiled while he rested his head on her lap. She continued

Kushi: I will not leave you alone, you will have my heart with you, my love for you and the golden memories of mine. She made him face her and cupped his face between her palms

Kushi: I will always be with you, by your side, if you cry, iw ill cry, If you laugh I will smile, I will be watching over you all the time. If you are broken I cant see you arnav ji..

Arnav tried to pretend to smile but tears rolled down his cheeks. She planted a kiss on his fore head

Kushi: you are the best husband in the world arnav ji, in these all days you made me experiences your love and care. That is enough for me to cherish. I'm so sorry for not being a good wife. I'm leaving you and going, but I will stay by you, watching over you when you sleep, my heart is always with you.

Both the lovers broke into tears and hugged each other. Kushi placed her head on his chest so that she can hear his heart beat, she slowly drifted into a dream from which she never opened her eyes again

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Arnav broke down on the floor leaning to the wall. It's been 2 years she had passed away, but as she promised her heart was with him, he can still feel her warmth around him. he was in a depression when she died but later he started living each and every second cherishing her memories. Now KKGSR cancer institute is giving free medical services to the victims of the disease. He leant to live happily because he knows that if he laughs she smiles, if he cries she breaks. He stood up and kissed the painting of hers, of kushi's which still have life in it. he will live , to show light to others as kushi showed him, to strength the weak like kushi did, and more over he WILL live to COMPLETE their STORY, their STORY OF LOVE, because their story can make a HISTORY

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Well, I donno how's it...but I cried while typing it

I know many may be not happy with kushi's death but that's what happen in real life. I want ot write something which touch peoples heart. Sorry if I hurt anyone..this os is very special to me, please leave ur views :-)

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