Hi Sweetheart,I just came up to say srry.I realised how stupid i was to fight for the smallest of things an not let u hav ur way.I am srry about fighting for the right side of the bed;you can sleep there hereafter.The bathroom tiles can be maroon and not blue.You knw what?i know it's too hard to believe, but I've started started closing the bathroom door if I'm done using it. It wont bother you anymore Honey.I've given up booze time with my friend only so that I can hold ur hands in the evening and watch u laugh for eternity. I've understood that I have a life apart frm work and i will never keep u waiting all day so that you cn see my face after my meetings.
Hey look at me! I am wearing the tie a nd cologne you got me on our engagement. We'll go for go-kart today and I assure you that I wont cancel out on you because of last minute work. Plz give me a chance and trust me when I say that I wont expect u to be that gorgeous plastic wife of the great vice president of the fortune company. I swear I love u more than my Jack Daniel. Sweets, plz dont pull my ear because I m not lying to u today. I want to take care of myself so that I can live longer with u.
Remember, you always told me that you wanted to go to the Bahamas on a holiday, sit by the beach with the sound of waves pampering our ears, open sky and bonfire. Hmmm...we're going there this valentine's. It's been years since I celebrated this day with you.
We can go for those late night strolls and early morning aerobics. In fact, we can go to ur favourite instructor and not the guy I wanted to go to. Am not saying all of this but I want everything about my life to be ur way.
Am sorry for all those things I said and did. Today I realise that I did reserve my nasty side for u. I am srry for being abusive. I m srry for hanging up on you and walking ou on you in between ou conversations. Am srry for not taking the time to enjoy the food you cooked for me with so much love.
One day you asked me if I could drop u for the wedding and I should not have refused. I shld not have given reasons. But u still understood and were ready to take an auto rickshaw. You asked me for change to give the auto-walla but I was in a rush and asked you to manage. Oh what a fool I was. If that day I would have let you have your way,the bus wouldn't have rammed into you while you were crossing the road to get change. Please dont be mad at me. If I knew that was ur last morning with me, I never would have done it. I've realised that any day can be the last day of life,honey. I could not believe that u were dead.I still cant believe it.
Two years have gone by and I've coming here evening just as I promised. But you've changed now. You're refusing to sit next to me and hold my hand. You've chosen to sleep to me. But how long will you sleep? Wake up! Wake up for my sake. Just look at me once. I brought ur favourite chocolates, those red ballons and carnations. Wake up to me darling. I've been begging you for forgiveness for two years and you still haven't accepted my apologies?
I've realised so much about life, doll. Today I can see ur point of view. I have the maturity to flow where I should and take stands wherever necessary, but all of this is still isn't bringing you back to me. Is that thing called God even listening to me? Time is precious and it's slipping away and it feels like I've been waiting for you. Sugar plum, there's no time to even love, then where is the time to fight? Talk to me. Come back to me angel...