rantara ff-sajda tere pyar mein[note at page 150]

Mera ishq ab awaaz ye de
Meri rooh ko tu Jahan dikhe
Main adab se Ibadat mein
Gir jaun tere aage
Tujhe Choomu Karun Tujhko sajda ve
Rang resh mein Rag Rag mein tere
Karoon sajda main tera Resh mere

Sajda tere pyar mein

The white foams mixed with phosphorus was the only glowing thing on the endless dark sea. coming from that pitch black horizon with it's roar the waves of the sea crushed over the sands on the beach and touched the beautiful pair of feet standing over that sand. the girl shivered a bit and looked down to her feet. even in that darkness anyone can detect that the girl was crying. the low sobs coming from her direction and her feature shaking time by time was enough to clear up everything. she saw how the waves were going back to the sea sliding over sands. it felt like the ground beneath her feet was slipping slowly. just like her situation was at that moment.

She was not so much attached with sea and ocean. she belonged to the hill area.a beautiful flower born and brought up in kashmir's garden. suddenly a huge storm came and uprooted her from there and brought her to this foreign place or may be hell. she didn't like sea before but today,it seemed like that she could find peace in the roaring sound of those waves. she badly wished if she could straightly walk inside that pitch black infinity and lost herself. but she couldn't! at that moment her ill mother and her little brother's face flashed in her mind. how could could she be so selfish leaving all of them behind just for her own sorrow. How could she face papa after her death when he would ask her that how could she leave her mother and brother all alone to face the world. His antara was never that much vulnerable!! Then how could she let it happen. she helplessly sat over the wet sand. "I am sorry papa'" she uttered slowly. "again I came back from the very place from where I started. I lost my job papa!!" her voice cracked. Again that horrible moment came back in her mind and that mad angry roar shook her again. "maine tujhe kaha tha ki firse koi galti ki to''nikal'nikal ja is ghar se'.aur kabhi apni sakal nahi dikhana.." his scream flashed in her mind and she desperately covered her ears sqweizng her eyes.she tried to tell that it was not her fault. but he was not ready to hear a single thing. But it was her fault too. She made that all to happen. He had lost all his faith on her from the time she badmouthed him about his upbringing, his mother. She shighed. It was too late. She had to leave the matter for now. At first she had to think about the money which she had to pay for her mother's treatment after two days. Now how could she bring those moneys. She closed her eyes to controle her frustration. Suddenly a precious moment she spend with her father flashed in front of her eyes. It was the moment back in her Kashmir's house. Both of them were seating in the garden chair and taking the warmth of new summer sunlight. "papa can I ask you a question?" suddenly she turned towards her father and asked. "since when did you need permission to ask anything from me antara?" the middle aged man sitting beside her answered. "yeah doctor kaul I knew that'but it's a very serious topic." Antara informed with a lovely mild smile. "hmm how much serious ?" doctor kaul asked with a funny but concerned face. "hmm something 20 to 30 kilos'" antara again said in her usual funny language. "oh ho'so it seems quite serious' you sure I can answer that ?" dr kaul wandered. "papa not so funny'" antara made a puppy face. Dr kaul smiled "ok let me know what my daughter wanted to know from me'" he turned quriously towards her. "papa suppose if you are in a situation where you desperately need to move on. you have to step ahead but you can't find a way to go. There is nothing in front of you. Like you are standing in the middle of a desert but you don't know which direction is right! Then what will you do?" she asked. "are bapre!! This is your 20 kilo serious question'" dr kaul rolled his eyes. "papa pls tell me na'." antara asked. "well in my school days our teacher used to tell us a quote. That was where human moves the path moves to that way. Insan jis tarf jaye rashta bhi usi taraf jata hain'.so if something like that happens, we should just step ahead in which direction you wish and your feet someday will reach to your destination." Dr kaul finished. "hmm sounds good' will try some day'" antara said. "bahut asardar dawai hain dekh lena'" he said with a affectionate smile. "yeah yeah, after all prescribed by great dr kaul." She said.

Antara opened her eyes. She had to move on. anyhow!! It's useless to shed tears all alone hear. After that incident in raghu's house she just moved aimlessly in the road and came across this empty sea beach. She had to go back. Mumy must be worried. It was too late and so dark. With a new determination to do something. She moved her feet and got up to the road leaving the sea beach. She moved towards the direction of the locality. Few vehicles were moving in the empty road. A black mercedes was passing by her and suddenly it stooped at a few distant. Antara didn't noticed the car. Suddenly the car's door got opened and a middle aged man came out. "antara..!!!" that man suddenly called her. Antara was startled. Who was calling her? The voice seemed known. She moved bhind and startled to c the man standing near the car. The lights on the high road were clearing their view. "vishal uncle?" antara asked in confusion. "so at last I found you. i moved hear just to find you and your family." Vishal uncle said in a satisfied tone. Antara got startled more. What was the cause that vishal tripathi one of the head officer of intelligence bureau was searching for her?

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