Originally posted by: Jyo.Arshi.IPK
Secret Passion ' Chapter 12
Gosh this is gonna be a crazy task for me...writing down comment for SP update, I cried through most of the update, couldn't take their pain but in many ways, the update was positive more than negative.
Life has taught each one of us that reality isn't what u see on the surface, its the undercurrent, the subtle complex yet simple layers of emotions beneath the outer open exterior that matters, its what inside your heart that matters and not what u try to show to the world !!
Khushi despite knowing that her one simple action could uproot everything that she has with Arnav decides to take the plunge and it was much needed, in Arnav's words .. they have come so inseperably close and hushing up their love in the name of a contract isn't the right thing to do ... its a sin and if Khushi commits that sin or lets Arnav carry on with the false illusion for the sake of keeping him happy and their relation intact, it will only backfire, one day it will snap, reality will crawl under the skins until they both are forced to accept it and thats not how it should be !!
The acceptance shouldn't be forced ... it should come from within their hearts and for that this difficult step was needed.
Someone had to take the courage to open it up between them and Arnav wont do it coz his past will not let him accept love and marriage !! he loves her... he wants her forever in his life, she is the very air he breathes, she is the core of his existence, his heartbeat but he is scared to call it love coz he is scared of losing her to love that destroyed his past !!
Khushi is the only one who can make him see the light, can make him understand that there is life after darkness, life after death !!
Like everything else, even love has 2 shades to it, the good and the bad, so far Arnav has seen the darker side ... and now Khushi will show him that Love is Beautiful !!
The very emotion that destroyed his life will heal him once again !!
If the love in the his past ruined him then Khushi's love will heal him !!
But to make him realise that, Khushi has to walk through the literal murky hell that his past has weaved around him !!
His past will do everything possible to kill their future together but together they can weather out the storm and make sure that past remains past !!
Khushi argues with Arnav, she once again shows him that Sindoor isn't a mere red powder for her as he claims it to be, for her it marks him as her husband !!
He brings up the contract, he threatens her not to play the victim, he goes to the extent of telling her she is his mistress and yet Khushi doesn't let herself break down !!
That shows her strength of character and more over her faith in Arnav's love, she knows its his fear thats making him take such hurtful words on her, she knows his inner demons and today instead of letting him succumb to them , she is fighting it out for him !!
Even in between hurling insults at her, his heart is weeping, his own heart acknowledges the inseperable bond they share, the bond whose real name scares Arnav so much that he is rdy to live his entire life with her in a farce illusion coz he is scared the real bond will destroy them rather than binding them stronger than ever before !!
They argue over it... Khushi knowing his demons that has instilled a fear in him about marriage trys to show him that marriage can be different but his past plays the villain, his mother... his sister... who can blame Arnav for initially succumbing to the fear, the man isn't God for heavensake, he is a mere mortal who is flawed ... maybe battered even worse than normal human beings and that makes it all the more difficult !!
2 women he loves a lot...his sister... his mother...they both had ugly dirty marriages...he saw their life in ruins and having seen that... he doesn't want the same to happen to Khushi !!
The most important thing here, he isn't scared abt what marriage will do to him ' he is scared of what it will do it Khushi ... he cant see her suffer the same fate as his mother or sister ... he loves her too much to let that happen to her... having seen what sort of men his dad and bro in law is, he doesn't trust in men at all, including himself, it shows his own repulsion and hate towards his own kind more than anything !!
He thinks that he could end up just as his dad or bro in law...its his lack of trust in himself to be a husband to Khushi thats making him deny the marriage she so badly wants !!
What Arnav doesn't know is that when there is true love, marriage doesn't change anything at all, it gives u like he says, society's approval as man and wife but the relation that he and Khushi has, as 2 lovers, it will be the same as ever, soulmates bonded for life !!
He makes Khushi choose and she does what she has to do... the right thing !!
It shows us that we don't get the most precious things in our lives the easy way, if she had gone on his terms, she would only be securing a happiness thats temporary, pushing the dust under the carpet and making it all look glitzy and glossy outside but the gloss will eventually get washed away no matter how much u apply it repeatedly !! her decision... her words...well for a minute I felt Khushi to be a real person and I wanted to hold onto her !!
She lets it out the she loves him beyond imagination...with every cell of her existence...she tells him that whatever they shared the past few weeks was only coz she was truly convinced in her heart that they are husband and wife and not as he claims to be because of a damned contract !!
If he fears marriage, then its something she treasures... she understands the sacred relation called marriage which will eventually bring them happiness and salvation for the rest of their forever coz she knows that what they have for each other is pure unconditional selfless true love !! <3
The wise says that all things good or bad happens for a reason... u might be wondering Tina why I felt there was positivity amidst the pain in this update...yes there is gut wrenching pain here but at the same time the basis of their shackled bond was swept away by Arnav himself !!!
Acting in defense of his fears...he breaks the contract thinking that he is putting an end to the overwhelming fear and darkness around him, he thinks the contract is the core of everything that they share and keeps them together but in reality...
He removed the one and only thing thats detrimental to their bond of true love, the god damned contract is gone !!
He thinks ... that whatever they shared will be over with it but little does he know that he is slowly gonna realise the truth in Khushi's words.
He is soon gonna realise that whatever it is that helped them form this unbreakable bond isn't the contract but their love for each other, he is soon gonna know that its their hearts that keeps them connected and not a damn piece of paper that holds no value at all !!
The contract is gone but the emotions, the love is still intact !!
Now when Arnav fully acknowledges what his heart feels for Khushi and they come together, it will be for all the right reasons, not coz there is a document keeping them together !!
The contract between them was ironically similar to the hateful marriages that his mother and sister had/has. And just like how the marriages destroyed them, the contract would have destroyed Arnav and Khushi if it had been allowed to exist !! Arnav who calls marriage nothing but a piece of paper unintentionally used the same means under a different name as a mere contract to tie Khushi to himself !!
And now the document is gone and its only their hearts there which is gonna help them come together once again !!
This is their most difficult trial by the fire which they will cross together to emerge more bonded than ever !! One body and One Soul .
When a man makes the right decision, it brings with it a sense of righteousness and certainity and yet when he made it clear that he is done with her, he could feel deep inside his heart how terrible wrong it was to walk away from her... to walk away from his existence !!
Tina and Satina... I love you symbolism... subtle and smart and yet very very powerful !! <3 hugss my ladies !!
Khushi again demonstrates a very strong character when she decides to complete her role as an employee of AR for the remainder of the trip...once again here she proves she is truly Mrs.ASR in all true style <3 she doesn't mix their personal and professional lives at all <3
At the party they are drawn to each other, he cant stand her pain, he cant stand her remote detached broken heart, he thinks he let her go for her own good but he can clearly see it in front of his eyes, what its doing to her !!!
He thinks passing on the Raizada name to Khushi will be a curse on her... little does he know that Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada is the one who along with her husband Arnav Singh Raizada will salvage the family name once again !! <3
He comes for her...hoping they will once again have what they shared the past few days but khushi despite wanting nothing more than to be in his arms, stands her ground !!
He clings to his past but she thinks of their present and future which at any cost will not be allowed to be destroyed by his demons !! She is fighting their battle together all alone now but very soon Arnav and Khushi will fight their battle together... them against the world just like Romeo & Juliet ;) <3
Khushi when she sees him walking away is more sure than ever before that he will come back ... its human to err but doesn't mean Arnav will always make the wrong choice'he is walking through darkness right now and thats how the law of nature works...to see the light... you need to know what is darkness... or else how can you appreciate the beauty of light !!! <3 <3
And their small separation also worked in protecting them from the evil eyes watching over them ... keeping evil at bay until Arnav and Khushi reunites to fight it out together !!!
Phew...thats it <3 <3 Tina Satina... I hope I have explained to the best of my abilities as to why I felt the update is positive...I know am long overdue on the comment and am really sorry about that !!
Love u both <3 muahss !!
And to all SP haters, I have very few words to waste on you, if you cant understand a beautiful story like this, then why are u lot even alive !!!
Go drown urself in Dante's Inferno !!! <3 ( effect of reading Dan brown ;) <3 )
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