đi'm so sooo confused....
there are so many contracdictory thoughts goin through my head right now...
why did shiv always behave really rudely with gauri when he first married her...why did he always give her a chance to leave, even b4 the marriage....why did he hate her frm the very beginnin?you cant just start hatin a person can you...there has to be a rock solid reason...dislike is fine but hate is a really strong feelin.....
does he really love ipshita???if so then why do all the things above?coz he knew it was wrong to marry gauri??? even then he thought abt gauri before ipshita or ws it plain humanity?...it makes me wonder whether he truely loves ipshita or not...i think that he always knew in a subconsious level that fightin for ipshita ws not worth all these trouble...thus he always gave gauri a chance to leave him...
he says that he fell in love when he ws 16...dn't you think that that ws a really tender age to fall in love....love is not about likin someone...it means far more than just wantin to spend the rest of their lives together with the person they love...love is just one word but underneath that lies innumerable meaning...it means that the person has to be strong enough to sacrifice for the other..being able to forgive no matter what...thinkin abt the others feelings b4 his own...i believe love is just one word which sums up all the good feelings in this world...but ws shiv old enough to feel all those at that age???
why did shiv himself say that after the girl in that portrait there have been lots other of girls in his life...if what he felt for ipshita ws true love do u think he'd let other ppl come into his life...ok even then let us say that he did and this is what made him realize that his true love is ipshita then why did he tell gauri he did not know what true love is...love is such an essence that once you've accepted it u'd know for sure that u're in love...why couldn't he tell gauri simply that yes he is in love with the girl in that protrait?why say all those things abt not knowin whether he's true feelings were love???then that means that his love is so volatile that he isn't even honest abt their relationship...if he ws in love he would have said openly that YES HE IS IN LOVE WITH THAT PROTRAIT...
i thought love can overcome all barrier then why did he have to stoop so low for a feeling which is as pure as love???even if he ws forced to do it by his mother dn't you think true love wud have been strong enough for both shiv and ipshita to make their parents believe that their love is strong enough to overcome all the difficulties...i mean they should have said that what they feel for each other is so pure that they are not goin to stain it by doin something as wrong as puttin someother ppl's life in danger??that the time they have together would be enough...atleast the love would be still pure and true....
i have no idea what i'm sayin.. i'm so frustrated...i think that shiv stilll thinks that he's in love with ipshita but in reality he loves gaurii...i think that he blurted out that he loves ipshita out of frustration and guil and confusion....
look at the way he gets trapped each time he looks into gauri's eye's...he cares abt her so much that he is willin to let go of gauri even if it means that he can't spend his life with ipshita...he blames himself so much that he can't even face himself...is this just plain guilt out of humanity??? we saw himself that he accepts the fact that gauri is his wife and he admits it...if ur in love with ipshita hw is it that he accepts gauri as his wife while he doesn't even properly admit his feelings for ipshita to gauri...then there ws even a time when he decide to give their marriage a try...
maybe i'm wrong...in that case i dn't know whether to forgive shiv or not..whether he ws the victim of situation thus compellin him to act the way he did... or he ws he the person who used gauri for another girl....why didn't he believe in his love to be strong enough or is what i feel abt love a misconception that love is really not that strong...i've never been in love so i can't tell....i dn''t know what to think...
i dn't know my thoughts are all jumbled up...and i'm really depressed đ
my God i never thought a serial would make me think like this...
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