Aryan: I can’t have my feelings...

I can't have my feelings stripped for public: Aryan

Mumbai, Dec 19 (IANS) Actor Aryan Vaid, who was voted out of Sony TV's game show 'Bigg Boss' last week, doesn't want to demonstrate his feelings for Anupama Varma on camera anymore.

Anupama was eliminated Friday. And the same morning Aryan was woken up bright and early for a very special mission. He was driven down to Karjat at that unearthly hour.

'I was told nothing about why I was required there at the Bigg Boss' house. Frankly, I thought I had put those days behind me. I'm just getting my life to normal. And the whole 'Bigg Boss' experience appears incredibly distant and unreal,' Aryan told IANS.

But the channel had other plans.

'They brought me to Karjat and quarantined me, not allowing me to converse with anyone. Later, a friend called on a friend's phone to tell me Anupama had been evicted. That's how I came to know why I was wanted there. I guess they wanted a big reunion scene between Anupama and me. But my days of playing out our relationship in front of cameras are over.

'Anu and I need to get out of the bizarre situation that the whole 'Bigg Boss' experience created in our heads. We need to give the relationship space to see where it goes.'

Does this mean Aryan is having second thoughts about the relationship?

'Not at all! I'm very clear that Anu is the woman I want to spend my life with. Whether she feels the same about me, is the question. Anu needs to sort out her feelings and see if she feels the same affection for me outside the whole unreality of reality television or not.'

Aryan is apprehensive about the future.

'We've been together in this for so long within that house. Now, I find we're still under constant scrutiny. Our relationship is being tested by strangers on SMS polls and television surveys. This is making me uncomfortable.

'I'm comfortable taking my clothes off for the camera. But I can't have my feelings stripped for public consumption. What worries me is that Anu is an intensely private person. I wonder what effect this constant scrutiny will have on her feelings for me.'

Aryan sighs and says, 'I know the camera doesn't lie. But there're some truths which must be kept away from the camera.'