MG FF- PARINEETA THREAD 10 - Page 22

He had never imagined to see this change in her...he might have to speak to her doctor. She was angry on something...someone and that's why she had shut herself from all. He felt her clutch his shirt tightly...and rest her head over his chest. But this was not because of love or anything else. She was angry...she was cold...and she had turned cruel. He caressed her back softly, trying to calm her down and carried her back to her room, trying to find out what went wrong.

He made her sit on the couch and looked at her face. She was still fuming. He didn't know whom she was angry at. She looked down lost in something. He went quietly and forwarded her the glass of water. She looked at him with so much rage...those expressions were never geet's. She was someone else... and he was a little confused. She didn't even seem to realize that he was offering her water.

He called out softly, "geet...please calm down..."

And the next moment she snatched away the glass and threw it away, shattering it into millions of pieces. He jumped with that sudden act of hers. She was definitely not in her senses. He held her arms tight and shook her, "whats wrong with you? Speak up geet...why so much anger?"

She looked into his eyes for the first time after so long... there was anger...there was rage...and still in that crowd he knew he saw a tinge of sadness...it was momentary but her expressions did soften a bit as she looked deeper into his eyes...like subconsciously she was still affected by him. It was momentary...like everything happening in a trifle... a millionth of a second...and everything was back to the old self. He was zapped back to reality in the blink of an eye and looked at her. She still looked the same..cold! he wondered if what he saw was as real as it could get. He left her hand and moved a step back. He brushed his hand across his hair...there is definitely something wrong and he has to find out. He thought something and turned to jasmeet who was equally shocked seeing geet's anger.

"am taking her back home... tomorrow!"

He was firm... he was confident...he was stern and he had given his verdict. Jasmeet knew that very well. But will that be okay? She saw maan going back to km and she helped geet with her food. She was too lost in her thoughts. Maan wanted to take her back...will he be able to get her back? She was reminded of the time when she had seen geet run after him like a maniac...they could have possibly met that day sorted out their differences. Was she wrong...again? she put geet to sleep and sat beside her... thinking.

Maan rushed home and informed dadima about getting geet back. He had to know why was she so angry. Dadima was very happy to see this... she was very emotional but seeing maan worry so much about geet..she knew things were settled. She kept herself away from him... she wasn't going to interfere anymore. She went to the kids and told them the good news of geet coming back. All the three of them shouted in unison, "yesss!!!!!"

They turned around only to see maan standing in front of them with his arms crossed over his chest with a stern look. The three of them gulped down hard, wondering what did they do wrong.
"just because she is coming back doesn't mean you got all the freedom to disturb her, irritate her or make her do any kind of thing...homework included!"

Dia and namra made a baby face but then their mamma was coming back. They'd do anything for her as long as she was with them.

"but papa...can we play with her when we finish our homework?", dia asked.

"hmmm...we'll think about that later..", he spoke with grave expressions and walked away. Ohh the kids hated so much restrictions especially with their mamma but they had to agree. Dadima was just too happy...somewhere this was over shadowing the baby thing. She hoped geet to be out of this soon. She knew how it feels to lose one's child...but nothing can be done now. Geet has to understand and come out of it and she'd make sure she did everything to cheer her up.

Maan went to his study and called the doctor, stating everything that he had witnessed.

"i do have a feeling that there is something else bothering her..."

"hmm... could you please get here to the hospital for a check up mr khurana? Only then i can specify something."

"umm..okay...tomorrow morning it is then."

He went back to his room to change but stopped seeing anisha's portrait right in front of him. He smiled lovingly...like he was at peace now. He went closer and caressed her face lovingly, "its not like i have forgotten you... but its more like i found another life in geet...you will always stay in my heart...forever! it took me a long time to realise that i can love geet too...she had always been beside me whenever i needed her...its my turn to pay her back everything anisha... i know you are watching me from above..and i know you understand me well. I love you..."

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He reached geet's place by 8am. Roops was sitting with a gloomy face. She was very upset seeing jasmeet agree to send geet back... but she did understand after jsmeet explaining the fact that only maan can help her out of this. And now she was sad...that geet will have to go back to that idiot. Prem was back to work and Aryan was quite happy seeing the improvements. Though the loss will take a long time to fade but the current improvements have been really welcoming. He had scratched out geet's name from the contest owing to her condition.

Jasmeet gave him a warm hug and welcomed him. She had been busy the whole night packing geet's stuffs. But geet still remained aloof from everyone... every ongoing good... everything. All she knew was she was being sent somewhere. She never asked why or where... or with whom. It didn't matter to her anymore. Everything was fake...illusion.. a mirage. She heard jasmeet ask her to get ready. She looked at her blankly...did she had to?

Jasmeet sat beside her and cupped her face, "maan aaya hain tujhe lene... apne ghar nahi jaana kya tujhe?"

[maan has come to take you back... don't you have to go back to your home?]

She gave a cold smile..which jasmeet failed to see. She went ahead picking out her clothes and helping her with her hair. Nothing mattered to her anymore...kya fark padta hain... if anyone comes or not. Like she cared! She followed jasmeet robotically down the stairs. He was sitting with roops who was still sulking and not even looking at him. He looked towards her as she slowly descended down the stair... clad in deep red salwar kameez with her hair let down. She looked somewhere else...lost...and he just kept watching her. She looked really very pretty...he couldn't take his eyes off her. Jasmeet slowly pulled her by her hand and made her stand beside him. She had tears in her eyes seeing them standing together like that...they just looked perfect... everything about them was perfect except the coldness within geet. She had never expected to see this day. Maan understood her emotion and hugged her, whispering in her ears, "am sorry mumma..."

Jasmeet wiped her tears...geet was finally going back to her home. She asked them to wait and immediately brought a puja thaal and did their small aarti, "never a sadness touch you both again..."

Maan was overwhelmed seeing jasmeet like that. He bent down and took her blessings but geet stood still...not even moving an inch..like she had stopped caring about anything at all. He put his arm protectively around her waist and walked her out. She walked out and sat quietly in the car. He at least wanted her to ask where they were going when he took a different route but was disappointed to get no reaction from her. It pricked his heart to see her this cold to everything around. What should he do to get her back?

He stopped in front of the hospital and opened the door for her. She stood at the entrance wondering what she was doing here. He noticed that question in her eyes but just for a moment...like she had suppressed herself behind this mask. He put his hand across her waist and walked her to the doctor's chamber. The doctor smiled at geet and welcomed her, "good morning mrs khurana... how are you feeling today?"

She never responded...this was the first time someone had addressed her as mrs khurana yet she never moved a bit. Maan saw that... he remembered how much she had craved to be his..and when she is his...she is so far from him to even realize anything. He then looked at the doctor who was looking at him and nodded softly indicating this is what he had meant when he had spoken to her the previous night. The doctor gave an assuring smile took geet for a check up. He sat there anxious, hoping he'd find something about her. Those 15 minutes actually felt like ages. He was getting impatient when the doctor came out with geet. He sighed and immediately pulled her closer him. After suffering so much..he really didn't have it in him to stay away from her anymore.

The doctor asked geet to wait outside so that she could speak to maan alone. As if she minded. She complied without even an expression. Maan sat nervous in front of the doctor and asked if everything was alright.

"she is perfectly fine mr. Khurana... but she needs some more rest. Its surprising to see her heal this quickly, though physically...but still something is bothering her. Did she tell you anything at all?"

"she doesn't even speak to me...", he admitted sadly.

"is there anyone with whom she at least interacts?"

Maan thought for a while and then remembered about the kids, "yes she does speak to our daughters...tough not much but she does."

"umm... good...let her stay with them and open up slowly...please do not force her about anything. Change of atmosphere will be good if needed be."

But maan was still not convinced. The reason of anger could never be the baby he knew... was it him? Or anyone? Or anything else? He anyways nodded and got her medicines prescribed. He got up to leave when the doctor added, "if this continues... you can consult a psychiatrist mr. Khurana..."

He needed and walked out. Geet was sitting quietly on a nearby chair, with her head resting against the wall. Her eyes had a very gloomy expression... something that bothered him. May be it was the baby. He gulped hard, keeping in check his own emotions and placed a hand on her shoulder. She was startled and looked up to see him. Her expressions soon turned back to being cold and lifeless.

He didn't understand the sudden change yet gave her a gentle smile, "lets get home..."

He walked her back to the car after purchasing her medicines and drove off.

They didn't even have to wait. Dadima and the kids were already at the door, waiting for them. He held her hand and walked her in, asking nakul to get her stuffs. Geet watched everyone..and then back at the kids who ran and hugged her by her waist. Her lips curved into a very small smile as she caressed both their heads.

"we missed you mamma..."

"i missed you too...", she spoke very softly.

Maan and dadima looked at her in awe...she was so gentle with her words... and so soft. Maan was yet again surprised to see that velvetiness in her voice.

"arrey pehle apni mamma ko andar tho aane do...", dadima suggested.

[arrey at least let your mamma come inside...]

They stepped into the house when dadima stopped them and did an arti. He rolled his eyes... how many aartis in a day? He looked at geet who seemed a bit tired. He led her in when namra held geet's hand, "mamma...baby theek tho hain na? You got wet in the rain na... usko sardi tho nahi hui?"

[mamma... is the baby fine? You got wet in the rain na... did it catch a cold?]

Maan and dadima stood shocked hearing the kids ask this to geet. They feared her reaction..will she breakdown? It was more like salting her deep wound.

Dia too joined her sister, "han mamma..where is the baby? You told you will be getting it na?"

Maan dindnt know how to handle this situation. He did want geet to react...but like this? This wasn't right at all. Before he could speak anything he saw geet take a step forward and hold the kids close to her, "ummm... but baby is not coming here anymore..."

Her voice was so cold...it was like piercing maan's heart with a hot knife.

"why?"

Geet smiled yet again, "because baby didn't want to. Mamma was very careless with the baby...so baby got angry and went away..."

How could she say that now? What was her fault? Everything was because of him... every little thing that hurt her was all because of him...yet she took all the blame on herself! How could she do that? He'd have digested the fact if she'd have accused him of killing her baby... but taking the entire blame on herself...that was not acceptable. He wanted to hide somewhere and cry his heart out seeing something like that coming from her but he heard dia's angry voice, "no...mamma was not careless... baby was bad... ganda baby...acha hua chala gaya...mamma is not careless..."

[no...mamma was not careless... baby was bad.. bad bad baby... its good that it went away.. mamma is not careless...]

Geet caressed dia's cheeks and kissed her softly. Maan couldn't stand there and watch all that happening. Even the kids knew geet better than him. He moved ahead and announced, "chalo...let mamma rest..you people go and play..."

The kids nodded and ran to their room. Dadima kissed geet's forehead, "go and rest beta... we will get something for you to eat..."

Maan was searching for something in his phone when he saw geet go up the stairs and then dadima's words. He spoke cutting dadima, "...yeah and you have to have your medicine as well..."

She wondered what she was even doing. All she had been doing was rest... does anyone even care what she wanted!! Huh... how does that matter anymore. She slowly walked the corridor towards her room. But today she didn't feel anything at all. She never felt sad..not even happy or nostalgic or emotional...or anything for that matter. She put one hand on the door knob and turned it open when she felt some one hold her other hand. She turned around only to see maan, holding her hand. He looked upset about something... and there was clear disagreement written on his face. She looked away from everything she saw and tried to free her hand.

"you are not supposed to be in this room..."

She didn't even spare him a look, forget asking what he meant by his words.

"geet...listen to me..."

She struggled even harder...he held it tighter, "geet..."

She looked back him, with those anger filled eyes, "let go..."

This was one simple sentence that she uttered to him since that day of her performance. Her anger was something he hated...he was somewhere scared...but he held firm.

"geet..."

"let go...", she screamed!

His forehead wrinkled with a frown and he jerked her close making her fall on him. She hated it...she hated him for not letting go...she got even more furious for not leaving her alone. She tried to push him away. He turned her around instead and lifted her up in his arms. She didn't even struggle but looked away from him...which hurt him more than her struggles did. She was fuming when she realized he was carrying her somewhere. She didn't even want to know where she was going.

He was stern yet she looked away from him. That coldness sucked the life out of him. He took a deep breath in, trying to calm himself down and sat beside her. He pulled the spread and caressed her forehead, "what is it that bother you geet? Tell me...please..."

She closed her eyes and turned away from him giving him a cold shoulder. He sat there...feeling so helpless. He had come up stairs to check on her and found her trying to open the door of her 'old' room. He didn't like it..but wasn't he the one who had brought it upon himself? He recalled the day she got into his room for the first time after their marriage...and he had behaved rudely with her. Life did come to a full circle now.

Just then dadima entered with a tray full of some light but healthy snacks and juice. She had initially planned to go to geet's room but she was surprised to see maan's room wide open...which had never been so after anisha. She got really curious and peeped in...only to see geet lying on the bed and maan sitting beside her. She could never ask for more. She knew it would take time before anything reached geet's heart..but maan's sincerity was reflected in everything he did. She felt relieved after years... she felt the first breeze of calmness after the baby's demise. She entered but was surprised to see the change that had occurred in the room. The windows were wide open...letting the cool morning breeze come in. The most surprising part was he never removed anisha's portrait... but its position did change. It now hung on the adjacent wall, by the wardrobe. This sudden change in everything was probably too much for her as tears rolled out of her eyes. She quickly wiped them before anyone could notice and sat near geet, trying to speak to her.

"geet... chaliye kuch kha lijiye..aapko medicine bhi tho leni hain.."

[geet...come on eat something... you have to take medicines..]

Geet slowly turned towards dadima, hearing her voice. Maan got up to check her prescriptions when he heard someone's scream, "geeettt...i missed you..."

He turned around only to see roops jumping over the bed and hugging geet. Jasmeet followed roops, smiling at dadima!!! He rolled his eyes... wasn't she with roops just an hour back? Jasmeet sat near geet and smiled at maan, "sorry beta... but roops bahut senti ho gayi thi..tho mujhe ise lana pada..."

[sorry beta... but roops had become so senti that i had to get her...]

He shook his head... no matter what happens..geet and her gang will never leave their 'nautanki' as if it was their birthright! Geet didn't respond but slowly sat up, resting against the bed rest. Dadima fed her some while she noticed maan looking at some papers.

"maan...aap wahan kya kar rahe hain... idhar aiye..."

[maan..what are you doing there? Come here...]

"hmm...just looking at her prescriptions dadima..."

Roops made a face and jumped out of the bed and walked towards maan, muttering to herself, "i really don't trust this man...huh!"

Though she did agree with jasmeet at some point but she wouldn't rest assured till she finds out everything herself...makes sure that geet is in safe hands and she couldn't be n peace until she saw geet.

She took some other papers and glared at maan, who returned the favour with equal enthusiasm. She rechecked those papers again when something on the table caught her attention. She was sure she had seen those papers somewhere. She looked here and there and immediately grabbed those papers and flipped through them that made her mad! She seriously can't trust this guy.

"what the hell these papers are doing with you?", she screamed, making everyone look at them.

Maan wondered what was wrong with her. He saw her holding those papers and looked at her quizzically. Roops hated that look, "you still plan to divorce her...don't you?"

Everyone went quiet in that room...as they looked at maan with question on their faces. Maan had completely forgotten about this in all these. He took the papers and flipped through them...realizing she had never signed those papers. Her side was completely blank. He could have fallen into the pit of guilt when he was reminded of the situation when he had signed those papers. He looked at everyone's faces...which seemed so worried and then back at geet. She was still the same except the fact that she did look at him for a moment before turning away.

Jasmeet was scared to see those worried expressions on his face and so was dadima. What was he thinking? Did he still have the plan to go with the divorce? Suddenly everything looked seemed so scary and so blurred. Maan knew he had to bear that coldness for long time now. He recalled the moment when he had signed those when he actually never wanted to. His worrisome expressions turned into a soothing one. Technically, he was nowhere at fault. He looked at roops who had a smirk on her face giving him a i-know-you-little-too-well look and smiled at her. And the next moment, he tore away the papers into millions and zillions of pieces before feeding them to the dustbin.

Geet didn't even look at anyone. She sat their quietly not even wanting to know anything at all. Jasmeet and dadima looked at each other and smiled, feeling so relieved! Maan looked at roops and gave a sweet smile which seemed to irritate her. she knew she was getting convinced but she didn't want to. She stomped her foot and walked back to geet. Just then the kids ran into the room and were amazed to see their choti nani and roops massi. They were too happy to see everyone together. It was as if the biggest benefit of whatever happening was savoured by them. They hugged jasmeet and pulled away roops to play. Jasmeet and dadima gave each other a meaningful smile and left those two alone.

He went near the door and closed the door, not locking it and went to sit beside her. she seemed to be just as what she was before. He extended her a glass of water and her medicine. She looked at him.

"ab please..glass mat todna...", he tried to lighten the mood but she was far from everything.

[don't break the glass now..]

He sighed and forwarded her the medicine. She took it quietly and lied down to sleep. He took out his laptop and sat down to catch up with his works...still thinking how to get to her.

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