MG FF - Winter Sonata-Thread 5 - Page 34

Originally posted by: -lakshmi-

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@Devilclan – Thanks dear….your words and the story you shared was very truly heart touching. I am glad that at least her family is there with her. But yes her loneliness and the thought of having at least a kid is very touching.

@Sree10 – I can't say anything dear. You left me speechless with your comment. For a moment I just sat and thought that really could I give someone so much happiness even if momentary. Thank you so much and words like these just make every effort and pain I take as a writer worthwhile. Thank you so much

@muskanp – Some of these dialogues are courtesy GHSP and you. When you mentioned that particular episode in your comments I was just tempted to see it once again and fresh view of it made me modify this chapter to make hopefully make it more impactful.

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Chapter 32 – Aap yuon faaslon se guzarte rahe

Kya hai yeh ehsaas, kyon sab accha lag raha hai, mausam jo pehle neeras tha aaj kyon suhana lag raha hai. Yeh kaun sa ehsaas jo dil –o-dimaag mein dastak de raha hai? Maan sir jo pehle din se meri zindagi ke suraj bankar apne kirano se, har pal mera saaya banker, mujhe aage badaya. Dil unki aur kyon khicha chala jaraha hai? Unke liye yeh kaun sa ehsaas panap raha hai ?

Shayad isse hai pyar kehthe hai, mohabbat kehthe hai. –

He Holds me when I start To Cry

Makes me smile with just his eyes

shares me dreams ,hope and fear

he wipes my fear

is he my love ,

did I really found in him

By Anu (Hermoso)

Geet was not hungry but she stopped at the door as Pinky's word hit her "Acha hua Maan Sir went after you otherwise we got so worried."

"Maan Sir"

Geet just remembered his eyes and words "Karogi na Geet…mere liye"

How could she ignore his words? A smile came to her lips as she turned "Pinky mujhe bahut bhook lagi hai. Chal kahna khake so jaate hain….kal college jaana hai mujhe subah."

(Pinky I am very hungry. Come let's have dinner and sleep…I have to go to college also tomorrow morning.)

They had their dinner when Geet bade good night and went to sleep. But alas….sleep was far away from her eyes. Usually her nightmares kept her awake but today she laid on the bed with wide open eyes, a small smile and a new feeling which was tickling her inside. She was surrounded by thoughts of one man who stood by her whenever she was in any trouble…always.

"Maan Sir"

Guys, this is once again a song which many of you may have not heard before. Please do give it a chance as it is a beautiful melody with some very meaningful words.

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56QxCEB7RFM&feature=related_embedded[/YOUTUBE]

Link - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56QxCEB7RFM

Aap yun faaslon se guzarte rahe
Dil se kadmo ki awaaz aati rahi

Aahaton se andhere chamakte rahe
Raat aati rahi, raat jaati rahi

Aap yun

She whispered his name aloud as she felt his presence.

"What have you done to me Maan sir? Ab dard ka bhi dard nahi hota…aap jo paas hain mere. Aisa lagta hai ki har dard mit gaya…aapke saye mein sab chup gaya. Kyon Maan sir…aaj jab mein itni takleef mein thi toh aapki ankhon mein mere liye ansoon aa gaye.

Kyon ab itna nahi chubta mera kal….Kyon….kya mehsoos karti hoon mein aapke liye. Yeh kaaisa ehsaas hai?

Aap humesha mere saath khade rahe…bina kuch kahe. Shayad tabhi aapki har baat mere dil ko chu jaati hai

Pata nahi…Pata nahi Kab woh mere dil mein aaye aur unhone apni jagah bana li – courtesy GHSP

("What have you done to me Maan sir? Now even pain doesn't pain…because you are with me. I feel as if every hurt is finished…as if you hid it in your shadow. Why Maan sir…why tears came to your eyes seeing me in pain today.

Why my past doesn't pinch me that much anymore…why…what do I feel for you. What are these feelings?

You always stood by me….without saying anything. Maybe that si why your every word affects me so much.

I don't know when….when he came and made a space in my heart. – courtesy GHSP)

Gungunati rahin meri tanhaiyan
Dur bajti rahin kitni shehnaiyan

Zindagi zindagi ko bulaati rahi

Aap yun faaslon se guzarte rahe
Dil se kadmo ki awaaz aati rahi
Aap yun

Flashback of past events ran in front of her eyes.

First time when she fell in his arms…it felt ages ago when she had felt so uncomfortable around men…even him. But he has given her space. Today she could see his chocolate brown eyes looking at her so deeply that she had an urge to just keep on looking into them.

Well he had saved her again from falling on the party night. But then he had gone ahead and done so much more. That party, he helped her in becoming a better professional. When she had lost courage he had covered her modesty and wiped her tears.

"Geet it was just an accident and don't let an unplanned misfortune scare you. Take proper rest and I will be waiting for you on Monday at office. I trust you to make a right decision. Remember ki agar tumne aaj ka saamna nahi kiya toh kal ka bhi nahi kar paogi. "

His words had given her courage to face the office and world once again. A memory of her hugging him in car to soothe her pain of past memories as rain propelled outside flitted through her eyes.

"Kis haq se maine unhein us din apne itne paas aane diya…pata nahi" But she remembered finding peace in his arms. Like always he had absorbed her pain without a word.

(With what right did I let him come so close to me that day?)

He always trusted her. Gave her opportunities to do something better.

Suddenly Rahul's ugly face came to her mind but even before it could take shape his words freed her – "I have full faith in you…You are a brave girl Geet. It is me who is fortunate to know you."

He made me his friend. Woh bhi jaante hain ki mein unke saamne kuch nahi….kisi bhi angle se mein unke layak nahi. Phir bhi…meri padhai…hostel sab ki parvah hain unhein. Kitni aasani se mujhe aur phir Meera ko unhone apne saath khada kar diya.

Aur aaj ek baar phir mujhe tutne se bacha liya…

(He made me his friend. He also knows that I am nothing in front of him….from any angle I am not fit for him. But still….my stidies…hostel…he cares for everything. With how much ease he made me and then Meera stand next to him

And today once again he saved me from shattering.)

His face with a lone tear falling from his eye made her vision teary….

Katra katra pighalta raha asmaan
Rooh ki wadiyon mein na jaane kahan

Ek Nadi, ek nadi dilruba geet gaati rahi

Aap yun faaslon se guzarte rahe
Dil se kadmo ki awaaz aati rahi
Aap yun

Kahin mein aapse pyaar…

(Have I fallen in love with you….)

Geet sat up in bed with a start as tears finally made way thru her eyes at the thought of first knocks of love at her heart– "

Zindagi mein jab kisi ladki ke dil pe yeh ehsaas dastak deta hai toh woh khush hoti hai…par mein…mein ro rahi hoon…kyonki…khushi mehsoos karna ka to haq mujhse chin liya gaya hai…hai na – courtesy GHSP

Haan Geet …tu pagal ho gay hai. How can you think like this about Maan sir?

Par unki aanhken…his eyes. What were they saying to me today and why do I get so affected by him?

No…he was just showing empathy towards me. He is such a good hearted person that he cannot see anyone in tears. He knew I was shattered by my past and being an angel, he was there to hold me…to make sure I don't break down.

Yes, I know it is much beyond what he does for anyone and no one else beside him would have done it for me and probably I would not have allowed any one else so much right on me but he is different. He is my messiah…."

Suddenly her hand caressed the softness of her cheek where Maan had planted a small peck. She closed her eyes feeling his lips and revering the moment.

"Kyon Babaji kyon…aap mere man mein yeh ehsaas jaga rahe ho…batayie na Babaji…Kyon.

I asked you to give him his happiness. To give him what he deserves."

A line of fresh tears spilled from her eye – "Lekin woh main nahi. I can not think like this about him. He has done so much for me and what can I give him? A great person like him deserves someone who is equal to him. Who can love him and give him same happiness which he fills in everyone's heart. He is a successful man with world's biggest heart and I am just like a bad omen…ek kala saya….I can not let my black shadow fall on him. Please Babaji give him all the happiness in this world and love to cherish whole life time."

Her own heart mocked at her "You may run and hide but truth is that you feels something for him."

"Yes…maybe…shyad….if nothing else I care for him more than anyone in this world. Shayad khud se bhi zayda. If this is love than yes, I love him. Aur kyon na ho. Woh hain hi aise. Unse toh kisi ko bhi pyaar ho jaye."

"Then how can you ask Babaji to bring someone else in his life. You will be jealous and will be asking for his or that girl's downfall from same Babaji if that comes true" her heart beckoned again.

"No….never. Yes, maybe I love him. There is no control on you…my stupid heart…he is the most beautiful man I have met….best of best….not only in looks (she blushes unconsciously on that thought slightly)…focus jhalli….when did you start checking him out like this?

Where was I…hmmm…yes….not only in looks but in his heart as well."

She got up and picked up the pen he gave and caressed it lovingly

"He is everything not only a person like me but anyone would want in their life. So what is the big deal if I have fallen in love with him? So many girls fall for him everyday.

But my love is not that selfish that I will ever think ill of that person to whom I owe my every breath. Yes, I still want his happiness and wish that he gives everything he deserves and yearns for…woh har khushi jo unka dil chahye…woh har pyar ka ehsaas jiski unehin aarzoo ho….Babaji…unka har pal sawar do….meri har khushi unhein de do…..chahe toh badle mein unki zindagi ka har aane wala tufan meri nazar kar do…."

She twirled around with his pen in her hand and giggled slightly

"aap ka ehsaas mere saath hai…aap mere paas hain. Mere dil mein…mere andar. Aap har waqt mere saath hain…mere rom rom mein aap hain. Yeh zindagi aapki…appki di hui amanat aapki hui…..

Aapko paaye bina hi paa liya maine

Aaj aapse waada karti hun Maan sir….humesha aapke saath apke saye ki tarah rahungi. Agar yeh zindagi jal bhi jaye toh koi nahi...I will find the worth of this life if I could bring even a small smile on your lips.

(I can feel you inside me…you are with me. In my heart...inside me. You are there with me in every moment…in my every being. This life is yours…life which is your blessing is now only yours.

Without getting you I got you.

Tpday I promise you Maan sir….I will always stay with you like your shadow. Even if this life burns, I won't care as I will find the worth of this life if I could bring even a small smile on your lips.)

I can't be part of you but I am all yours.

When I close my eyes, I only see you.

When I lie on this bed…I feel only you.

Your shoulder which provides me with peace to close my eyes and sleep.

Your arms which has absorbed my every pain.

You eyes which have made me alive

I love you Maan sir….I love you"

Aap ki garm baahon mein kho jayenge
Aap ke narm zaanon pe so jayenge, so jayenge

Muddaton raat neende churati rahi

Aap yun faaslon se guzarte rahe
Dil se kadmo ki awaaz aati rahi
Aap yun, aap yun

Note – Zaanon means Knee / Thigh

Precap – Ghar se nikalte hi