MG FF - Winter Sonata-Thread 5 - Page 25

Thank you for the comments and get well wishes. My kids are much better and though I am still not well but what to do "Dil hai ki manta nahi"…can't just stay away from GF on Holi yaar….

So first of all wish all of you a very Happy Holi

Next few messages -

@All – You all applauded Daadi a lot. But give it a thought. It is easier said then done. Will she be able to accept Geet as her bahu? What should be her motivation factor to accept Geet as a partner for Maan? Today she doesn't know the situation or about whom Maan is talking. But what will be her reaction when she does find out? I have already decided on her reaction and the reason for it. But I will love to hear your thoughts.

@Shruthe – Thank you dear…yes Daadima is his pillar of strength. Also, I did not want to overdo his pain but you aptly put it. He thinks about her being someone else's but then quickly moves on to her pain.

@dqno1 – I was very touched by your comment. It is our personal experiences which make us realize and yearn for "Hope" for vulnerable and maybe make our own heart a little bit more compassionate.

@Jenn – Thanks for your comment. I saw your feedback after a long time and it sure felt good to read it

@kiran – Don't want to extend the debate. I just hope going forward I will be able to do justice to move to wards "LOVE" as you define it. All I want to say is that I don't think any love is wrong, be it one sided or two sided. Love just happens and you can't wait for other party to respond to you. But what makes it different from Lust is the respect you give to other person's feeling. If Geet doesn't accept Maan and he doesn't force himself on her then I don't think his Love is Lust.

@Ash – I do believe that such men do exist. But we have to be realistic. Yes, that man may not be a rich business tycoon with a six pack but good heart…definitely yes. I have a close friend who married a divorcee with a kid because he loved her. Well educated and well settled. Someone who could have got any girl but he settled for a girl he loved. My own cousin adopted two kids and first one was a girl. You may not get everything but love and good heart does exist. Yes, I wish there were more such people and not everyone is lucky. But then at least my story has to be about "Hope"…

@singh24 – Than you dear for reading, enjoying and appreciating all my stories. You are most welcome and I will personally hound you to comment going forward.

@Lakshmi – Thank you babes for referring my FFs

@maneetmahi – Welcome back hun….thank you so much for all the comments…it feels so nice and I appreciate you taking out time to comment on each chapter

@gudmeet – Thanks dear for the wishes

@Anu (Tellyme) – Hope ur son is better dear….

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Chapter 31 – Tere Liye

Geet on the other hand felt as if someone had just opened her wounds and thrown her into a pool of agony. Though she focused on her work but her heart was aching as her past was once again haunting her.

"Kitna bhi door bhagne ki koishish karti hoon, yeh kal kyon mera peecha nahi chodta Babaji. Yeh kaisi saza hai jiski koi ant tariq nahi?"

(Howsoever far I try to run; this past does not leave me Babaji. What is this punishment for which there is no end date?)

Just barely hanging in there for her own sanity, she was not oblivious to the stares of other people on her. As party winded down, suppressed emotions started taking toll on her. Maan watched helplessly as he saw her floundering about. His heart went out as she fought her way through but with almost a dazed look on her face.

Finally client left and key staff remained to just wrap up things. Maan could have left much earlier but today nothing could make him go away from her. He just knew that she needed him.

"So Geet, was it an accident?"

"Yes Tasha"

"So did your family also die…I mean why you are alone in Delhi and not with them?"

It felt like a glass slashed through her at Tasha's words.

"Tasha!!!!...stop using your brain and start working."

Maan's rude words echoed through the hall but he cared less. He turned to say something to soothe her pain when he panicked not finding her. Just through the corner of his eyes, he saw a glimpse of her white dupatta as she ran out crying.

"Geet!!!! Wait!!!!"

Geet ran through the crowds on the street not knowing where she was going. There were people around her but she felt lost….alone with her past.

Neighbour - "Bechari….6 mahine bhi nahi hue shaadi ko…."

(Poor girl…it is not even 6 months since she got married.)

Mother –in-law - "Are saari galti meri hai…..(crying loudly)….kyon is manhoos ke saath shaadi ki mere bete ki….iske Kadam padte hi mere beta chin gaya….mere beta"

(It is all my fault…(crying loudly)….that I got my son married to this ill fated girl…I lost my son as she entered our lives…my son)

Tayiji - "Pata nahi kya hoga ab Raji Ka…kaun karega us se shaadi…yeh jaante hue ki badi behen itni choti umar mein hi widhwa ho gayi…Hey Babaji…iska kala saya uski zindagi na barbad kar de"

(Who knows what will happen to Rajji now…who will marry her knowing that her elder sister became a widower at such young age…Hey Babaji…don't let her black shadow destroy her life too)

Geet - "Kyon…aap toh mere life partner the….phir kyon chod ke chale gaye tusi….ab men kya karoon…kya aap ke saath saath meri zindagi bhi khatam ho gayi"

(Why? You were suppose to be my life partner….then why did you leave me…now what will I do? Is my life also over with yours?)

As words from her past pierced her heart, she finally she sagged down on the pavement looking upwards crying out loudly. All that pain, she carried in her heart, till now only trickled as a silent river. But today the dam broke and her sobs turned to painful cries. She didn't know where she was. She didn't even care about the people staring at her form now. She was not aware of Maan who ran behind her and died a little seeing

her broken like this.

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVTGNr8P6JM&feature=related_embedded[/YOUTUBE]

Link - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVTGNr8P6JM

Jism Paakh Ankhon Mein Bhar Loon
Saas Saas Mein Shamil Kar Loon

Is Duniya Mein Jaan Gavah
Tujhe Us Duniya Mein Haasil Kar Loon

Zindagi Gavah Kar Bhi Jo Zindagi Miley
Har Khushi Gavah Kar Bhi Jo Ek Khushi Miley

Woh Maang Loon Tere Liye...Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Tere Liye...Tere Liye

He crouched down to her holding her and making her stand. She stood like a lifeless body in her arms; still looking upwards as if asking her Babaji to finally answer her "Why did you write this fate for me?"

Maan dragged her silently, holding her in his arms to protect her from this world to his car. She like a doll just sat in there as he drove to the only place where he could pray for her peace.

She finally gained some consciousness as the car stopped and Maan brought her outside. She was standing in front of what looked like a mazaar.

Maan lovingly cupped her face "Geet….when ever I feel that this world is closing on me and burden on my shoulder is too much I come here. Chalo…thodi der unke paas chalo jinke paas har marz ki dawa hai."

(Geet….when ever I feel that this world is closing on me and burden on my shoulder is too much I come here. Come…for some time let's go to HIM who has medicine for every pain.)

Rooh Se Rooh Ke Dharmiyan
Ishq Ke Hain Hazaron Jahan

Ya Khuda...Ya Khuda
Mujhko De De Agar Ek Jahan

Woh Maang Loon Tere Liye...Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Tere Liye...Tere Liye

Geet looked at his eyes unblinkingly. Today there was no right or wrong. There was just a "humsafar" who stood by her.

"Mere saath aisa kyon hua….maine kabhi kisi ke saath bura nahi kiya. Humesha ache bachon ki tarah apne badon ka kaha mana….phir mere saath aisa kyon hua."

(Why did this happen to me…I never did bad to anyone. Like a good girl, I always listened to my elders…then why did this happen to me?)

Maan looked at her now closed eyes as tears made way out on her already wet cheeks. Her words breaking him but for her sake, he had to be strong…he had to be.

"Pata nahi Geet…woh toh bas use pata hai. Haan, lekin itna pata hai….tab tak tum mujhse nahi mili thi.

(I don't know Geet…that only HE knows. But yes, I know just one thing….you had not met me at that time.)

Geet's eyes opened as she could not understand the full meaning of those words. But Maan did not elaborate any further. He lovingly wiped her tears and took her dupatta and pulled it over her head.

She kept on staring at his eyes as if trying to read them and today Maan did not hide anything and a lone tear made way from his eyes itself. She was startled and she raised her hand and wiped it. She kept on looking at him all dazed and confused but she knew irrevocably that they shared an unnamed bond….full of affection, care and respect which could not be named.

Maan held her hand gently and walked with her towards the dargah. She kept on looking at him as if trying to confirm and asking him "Kya aap sach mein mere saath ho."

(Are you truly with me?)

Maan did not waver his eyes from hers. He promised her silently "Haan….main ab humesha tumhare saath hoon."

(Yes, now I am always with you.)

A woman saw them standing together and told Geet that women's side was on the other side. She guided her by pulling her hand but Geet kept on looking at those eyes which were assuring him that she was no more alone.

Tere Sajde Mein Sar Hai Jhuka
Tu Ibhadat Hai...Tu Hi Dua
Maut Ke Badh Bhi
Jo Miley Bandagi Ka Sila

Woh Maang Loon Tere Liye...Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Tere Liye...Tere Liye

Woman took her and left her to pray in the women's area. Geet bent down in front of her God but her heart was no more hurting. It was busy in understanding the eyes of the man which had shaken her core

"unki har bat ka kyon is tarah asar hota hai mujhpe. Kya rishta hai hum dono ke beech?"

(Why his every word affects me so much. What is this relationship between us?)

His tear which he had spilled for her, melted the ice in her heart. It was as if his being there with her in every step of her way had dulled her pain.

Before she prayed, she looked sideways and found him sitting in between the sufi singers and swaying to music and prayers they offered to the almighty.

Suddenly he shifted and looked at her through the holes in the partition wall. There was a slight smile playing on his face and it shone with unexpressed emotions for her.

Finally he looked away and got lost in the hymns again. She closed her eyes too; mimicking him but there was nothing left that she could ask for herself. So she asked the only thing which her heart now truly wanted.

"Kyon Babaji…kyon aaj unki aankhon mein apne liye ansoo dekh kar ek pal ke liye aisa laga ki puri duniya ruk gayi hai….sirf isliye ki mein unhein aankh bhar dekh paoon - courtesy GHSP

(Why Babaji…why today after seeing tears in his eyes for me I felt as if the whole world has stopped…just so that I can see him for a moment.)

Yeh mujhe kya ho raha hai….yeh kaise ehsaas hain….yeh main kya soch rahi hoon. Jab ki mein toh yeh bhi nahi jaanti ki inhein mehsoos karne ka haq hai bhi ya nahi. Par dil pe toh koi zor nahi hain Babaj aur yeh dor jo humaare beech hai use aapne hi baandha hai...hai na.

Bas itna kehna tha ki unhein sada khush rakhna. Bahut ache insaan hain woh. Unki har muraad puri karna. Aapne mere liye unhein farishta bana ke bheja hai…pata nahi meri kismet mein koi khushi hai ki nahi. Par agar hai, toh woh unki nazar kar dena. Unki jholi khushiyon se bhar dena Babaji."

(What is happening to me….what is this feeling….what am I thinking? When I don't even know if I have any right to think like this. But there is no control over heart Babaji and this bond between us; you only have tied it…isn't it.

I only wanted to say that that always keep him happy. He is a very good person. Fulfill all his wishes. You sent him as an angel for me. I don't know if there is any happiness in my life or not. But if yes, then write his name on it. Fill his lap with happiness Babaji.)

Jismon Jaan Luta Kar Bhi Jo Ek Haasi Miley
Dil Agar Jala Kar Bhi Jo Roshni Miley

Woh Maang Loon Tere Liye...Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Tere Liye

She finally got up and once again glanced towards him. He was not there so she stood up quickly. Picking up a holy thread, she walked towards the wall of wishes and started tying it there.

"Pata nahi kahan chale gaye…."

(Where has he gone?)

Just then she saw him besides her tying his thread along with her.

"Kise dhund rahi ho Geet….mein yahin hoon…tumhare saath."

(Whom are you searching for Geet…I am here…near you.)

They both finally walked side by side as Maan for the first time saw something different in her eyes. There was a different emotion as if for the first time, she was trying to reciprocate his feelings. But there was uncertainty and slight fear as well. But whatever it was, it soothed his heart. At least she was trying to understand their relationship finally and more importantly she looked at peace with her past….at least for now.

"Maula tum dono ki Jodi banaye rakhe…har khushi aur bepanah pyaar se sawarta rahe"

(May God keep you together always….and showers happiness and limitless love on both of you.)

Geet looked at the fakir who touched their head with feathers as he uttered his blessings. She tried to say something to correct him but Maan immediately held her hand to pull her back into the world of his eyes.

He silently took her to back to the car and drove back. She just kept on looking outside scared of all the unsaid words between them. Only when the car stopped, she realized they were at her PG. Maan offered her his hand and gently took her to the doorstep.

Jaanmon Ka Pyar Tere Liye

Khushiyan Hazar Tere Liye

Jaanat Dua Tere Liye

Yeh Jaan Nisaar Tere Liye

"Zayda mat socho Geet. Just remember that you are not alone. Take care of yourself. Go to college tomorrow and make your new destiny. Agar himmat kam pad jaye toh look at the pen which I gave as my daadaji's blessing. Aur agar phir bhi himmat na ho toh then if not for anybody else, for me, just smile and move forward."

With that he bent and placed a small peck on her cheek.

Geet looked at his smiling face "Karogi na Geet…mere liye."

Tears welled in her eyes as she nodded her head. Maan rang the door which Pinky promptly opened.

"Geet…thank God you are fine. I was so worried. Thank you Maan sir…woh party mein…I was very worried."

"It's ok Pinky. Take care of her and make her eat something before she sleeps."

Tere Liye...Tere Liye...Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Tere Liye...Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Tere Liye...

With those words he moved towards his car. When he turned back, she was still looking at him and he blinked his eyes assuring her as the door closed.

Tere Liye...Haan Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Haan Tere Liye

Note – All pictures are from Geet Picture Gallery and facebook. Credit to the uploader