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its 6.27 am in the morning . i do stay up every day but today its diff . i know i told u ppl so many time that i love but how much i realize today . i m crying like stupid i hv migrain . girls i m tonmoy .this is not the first time i m screwing things up i did b4... coz i get involved with ppl i yeah kesu i start thinking they are my property .n i start to chose what is good for them or not . i do that bcz i want the best for them n i want them to happy ...i suck in all i m not a great student , singer , writer , dance , look but i have a super power loving ppl ... until they break me ... happened in class 5 , 10 with ipk n now with u all...
i m always the miss match...what ever group i get into i always think opposite n i get vibe frm ppl...who is what...i cant explain but i do...
2nd day avril in my cc iru told me she dont like her bcz she said shut up , piya '' she is making fun of my name '' sana '' i dont like her '' tis '' i was offended '' n yeahn then i did not like her ...reason my frns did not like her n she posted my n piyas offensive pic ...
but i never fought with her . sana was leaving bcz of her ... any one reading this '' MY SANA WAS LAVING THIS CC BCZ OF HER '' i did what i had to do . u all knwo how sana is if humi n all can understand why cant she ...n if humi or adi was also leaving for her i would have done the same thing... n i said 1000000000000 times sorry for that... but still i m accused that i had n issue with her...
then she was nagging piya n asking her all rubbish question... piya girls piya u know how she is...so i said '' i hate her ...i never liked her ... n i think she is lying '' yes i said it .. '' THAT WAS MY TWITTER N I WAS TALKING SHE IS THE ONE WHO READ MY PRIVATE TALK WHICH I SAID 10 DAYS B4 '' ppl changes over night n she still picking one my 10 days old convo ...really
n then she pmed all my frns not me ...i stalk all of u n i disagree with a lot of stuff ... n i asked u in ur face ... i hate one thing '' LAIRS '' she took a pic of my conve n send that to all ... n u ppl did not bother to ask me just judged me n still doing it...
i was reading kesus pm standing i was so shocked i had to sit... i was numb...she is the one i thought the smartest one n she did not bother to ask me n listen my part of explaination ...wow ...
adi ka twitter ...issue i was the one who had a fight with piya bcz of this twitter ... humi said dont try to decide whom i should b frns with...
dammm u all it hurts ...but may b i deserve it ...
i m a barun basher i hurt a lot of ppl bcz of this ... i loved him but he lied i felt cheated but u dont know i still watch all of his shows , interview , pic n i m the one compare him with GR ... he was my first larger then life addiction ... i think i m hard core but look at me i m crying bcz my online frn MU me ...
i never fought with avril ... n i never wanted her to leave ...i just said i wont convince her or say sorry thats not tony...i dont say sorry for the truth n ur nature of back stabbing...
this is an issue going on i still did not tell anyone abt this ... that is call loyalty ...sharaya n all asked so many time but i did not .. what is the point...
jab sab ko laga main sab ko control karna chatee honn maine cc ko lose kar diya take sab us ki tarah ji sake ... n look still i m the one to blam ...
adi n humi jab main us cc ko dekha i did not have sense to go back n check what time u started this ...i just saw a new cc with u n humi n yeah avril... god avril should have seen my face she would hv enjoyed ...
ok the point of writing this is
* adi n humi u hv all the right on earth to join another cc n be frns with any one ... i m no one to say anything abt it ... u could hv just tell me coz tuje humi pata hona chahiye the ki meri kya halat hogi ah dekke.maine piya jo kaha n noori ko bhi they will leave me... u came late humi but ur one of my most fav in this cc ... i thought u understand me ... n every time i said i missed u i mean it ... n i will in the future ... ..
* adi tu pehla barun serious phankie the jo mujhe apnaya tha n i m jealous kind n i knew u had 6 cc...u know what i did u used to count how many post u made in ur those cc n this cc... ratio ... yeah i m obsessed with u ppl... i dont want ur money , favour nothing ... i just want u with me ... when ever i see u in the forum i will feel that ...look there my frn ... being alone sucks yaar... n its creepy n all
* ok adi , humi , kesu n chaitu ... u ppl ...sahi samjhe i was trying to control u all ... big power comes with big responsibility ... if u consider opening a cc is big then i had some responsibility n tried to fulfill it .. i really did...but i m just tony ... i hv no quality to handle ppl ... i suck big time ...
i like ppl , i dislike ppl , i drool , i bash , n i hate ppl... n i still think avril is lying i dont hv anything to prove it but i know it... u will know it some day ... i hv never been wrong in matter like this ...
but maine usse nahi lare aur na laryungi .. main apne frns se n jisse care kartee hoon usse lartee hoon ...
once again i not angry i m hurt ... this time so badly i cant even tell u ...everytime i remember this i start crying...i dont care i dont care ... i know all teh ppl has multiple cc but it was not my cc it was my home n family n they r mature nw so they r finding ppl they like n be around with... .
i knwo i m big girl n its nothing but it mean a lot to me... i dont know what the hell a i m talking makes not sense ..but hy forum chatting who cares right ...no one cares... u ppl dont care ...
so hv fun .. n dont worry abt me ... i hv the habit of screw thing up ..
every one else please meri liya larna band karoo ...main e kaha home bante hai sab ne thore.. they hv every single right to pick n do what ever ... i was wrong when i disliked avril ...
let them b ... n hv fun please i m the drama queen ... i take ppl granted , ,, hater , basher , judgey , maha rani , hitlar , kamini n all...
please feel free to bash me ... i m wrong n i suck ... n i quit being all .. i m not saying i quit cc boz its in my blood now but i quit being tony... do what ever i wont say anything ...
thank u
tonmoy
Mr And Mrs Parshuram
