Adi- I love you
I dont know what happened to me today. When Adi showed me his invitation I just couldn't look at it. Adi's my friend I should be happy for him. I should be the happiest because that's what I wanted. But why did my heart sink when I saw Latika on the wedding card. Why was I imagining my name on there? Why did I want Aditya weds Pankhuri. Why? Why was my heart not realising that this is the reality. The reality is that in 15 days time Latika will be Latika Aditya Kumar. Tears dropped out of her eyes as if she had lost her life. When I see him smile my life feels complete, his good morning, his good night makes my day. Why can't I live a day without speaking to him talking to him, just glancing over at him or his picture? Why has he become a part of my life? In such a short space of time he has made a special place in my heart and I dont know what I would do without him. He is the strength that has kept me in this house; he has shielded me in support and love. The way he saved me from my boss, stood up for me in front of his mum, his family. The amount of respect that I have in my heart for him is unconditional. My heart is always with him and always will remain with him. The day I met him I knew there was something about him I loved. Obviously he was handsome but I looked a lot deeper than that. I read his heart. His honesty, his humbleness, his straight answers made me fall for him. I couldn't believe my eyes. I never knew that after so many twists and turns, fights and problems that we would still be friends. I would still be around him, guiding him, helping him but I didnt know that Latika would soon be his partner. His life partner. Why does that make my heart wrench so much? When I saw that card I just wanted to tear it apart into little pieces and hide it away. I didnt want it to come true. I didnt want her to be in his life. Why am I not telling him? What right do I have? I had my time, I had my chance but I blew it. Maybe we weren't destined. Maybe I didnt have the right. Maybe I wasn't meant to be with you and be your jeevan sangini. My heart pains when I see you hugging Latika spending time with her. Maybe that could have been me. When he holds my hand so gently it makes me feel special. When he compels me to do something with his blue, heavenly eyes even not wanting to do something I still do it. I dont know how and why but every time he touches me my body feels a buzz, a feeling that can't be described. I wish I could tell him. I wish I could place myself in his arms, listen to his heartbeats. I just wished he felt the same for me. How can a couple have one sided love? It's just not going to work. I can't tell him. He is getting married how can I snatch their happiness away from them like that. How can I say those three words? I dont know how this happened to me. I can't believe I couldn't control myself, I couldn't control this feeling that has spread to my heart. I love you Aditya! â¤ď¸
She stopped the pen and hid herself in her knees. She enclosed herself from the world. She loved Adi but it was too late. How can they be one when they are already so far?