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Today's expressions of Sharon and Swayam gave in a lot of input about Swaron relationship...
Swayam's emotions during the break-up time portrayed that he was very intense in this relationship and was very happy when he was given a chance.. He grabbed it with both hands and tried to change it into a true relationship but unfortunately or fortunately this relationship period gave him a hint of how Sharon felt about him and made it clear to him that most probably they are not meant to be together. Sharon is not emotionally into him as he is, she is still self-centered. All her previous actions were not of love but actually, pure excitement of being in a relationship. M happy to see that it was Swayam who made the final call and not Sharon today.
Sharon's expressions and wordings during this hour clearly reflected about her emotions.. Sharon reacted to the break-up sentence coz it was Swayam who used this word instead of her otherwise, its seen that she is not pretty much affected by it. She was in a relationship and so was dejected when it broke and that too when it was not done by her but the other person... I was able to understand Sharon's POV a lot today...
I understood that Sharon was not in love with Swayam but was in awe with the ability of Swayam to read her so accurately, this is what she admired about him and this ability of his itself brought her more close to him, as she tried to act more and more weird in front of him, so that she would be like a puzzle for him which would not be able to unfold but for her admiration, Swayam always unfolded her accurately, this ability of his itself created an infatuation in her heart. for Swayam and also brought him close to her as now when she hurted him, she felt bad.
Sharon was overly-pampered by Swayam, she being an attention seeker, loved it, (the secret admirer part). If we notice, in the earlier episodes also the moment Swayam used to start ignoring her, she used to start making actions so as he would notice her, and we thought they were due to love, no but it was because she loved being someone's world although the other person was not her world, this is why she was hell confused, as she was unable to differentiate between love and mere admiration for a person.
During Charity event after the conversation when all her attempts failed to gain Swayam's attention, she realised that most probably Swayam was over with her. Her heart was not ready to take up those emptiness of not being pampered now, of not being somebody's apple of the eye. She felt guilty of breaking his heart and giving him a lot of pain. In order to set things right, she went to his house and decided to give this relationship a chance, she was confused about her feelings and feeling guilty which paved way for her to say yes and give this relationship a chance, but unfortunately she did not realise that it was admiration and not love for Swayam.
Sharon took many steps and did many things when the relationship started whereas Swayam was cautious in each step... We could see that everything was being blabbered by her and Swayam was only getting surprised by her actions. We all found it cute and thought it was coz of her love, but no it was due to her being in a relationship for the first time (see the video of the first morning after Swaron decided to go in for a trial relationship).
She started expecting many things, though she had nothing to give in this relationship that's why she was hugely disappointed when Swayam failed in them (he did fulfill them partially, but still it was not enough for her). She realised after footloose competition that she was not comfortable sharing her thoughts with Swayam, she realised that she is not in love with him and so went in self-doubt whether she was doing the right thing by being in a trial relationship or not. She did not want to break it also as it was her first relationship, so it becomes special, hence she was so apprehensive of breaking up, this is the reason why she was in so much of confusion and was behaving so weirdly. She was unable to share her feelings of not being comfortable with him nor was able to convince her heart to break up with this relationship but Swayam finally read her and cleared her thoughts and confusion by breaking up. She was taken aback as she did not want to finish it like this and also coz she likes being the dominator or the decision maker.
Finally !! I understood Sharon today and her weird behaviour.
Phew !! what a long post, I hope I have made sense.😃
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