Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely...

Show me the meaning of being lonely

So many words for the broken heart

Its hard to see in a crimson love

So hard to breath

Walk with me and maybe

Nights of light so soon become

Wild and free, I could feel the sun

Your every wish will be done

They tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with?

Tell me why, I can't be there where you are?

There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on? As it never ends

Eyes of stone observe the trends

They never say? Forever gaze, if only

Guilty roads to an endless love

There's no control, are you with me now

Your every wish will be done they tell me …

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with?

Tell me why, I can't be there where you are?

There's something missing in my heart

There's nowhere to run

I have no place to go

Surrender my heart? Body and soul

How can it be you're askin' me to feel?

The things you never show

You're missing in my heart

Tell me why I can't be there where you are

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with?

Tell me why, I can't be there where you are?

There's something missing in my heart

(You are missing in my heart)

- Backstreet Boys

This song, on eof my faves, is for my honeybun and I know as hell that you all will not agree with me. Its also for me, for my hope, my desponess. Ok, I will share it with Jai also, if he promises to be good like this.

At this moment what Bani and Jai needs to do is trust what their respective hearts say to one another and then decide the course of action accordingly. But where Maayi is concerned, things definitely look bleak, bleaker and bleakest.

Ok, today's episode did not actually tell us that we are in for some treat (I have stopped expecting anything as far as Maayi is concerned) but at least we get some hopes for the future. This is solely due to the fact that there are two people in the world (not our duffer darlings) who know what these two mean for each other and that they love each other like crazy, so much so that they end up being on the wrong end of things and situations. And the twist here is that both of them are more or less outsiders with very close relation to the Walia household. Tarun, he is Jai's best friend, and Raashi, who, like Bani, is also a daughter-in-law in the house and for whom also the path to a happy married life is full of thorns. 😭

Loved the way Bani confides to Raashi about her true feelings for Jai. She had to, to someone, otherwise she would have gone insane. Because she is the least happiest of all for what she is putting Jai go through at this moment. Yes, Raashi correctly says, that Bani has gambled everything for her love for Jai, even though she's well aware of the final outcome. My heart went out for Bani when she said that she will go away from his life forever, once she gives him back all his money and property, because although she wants to be with him, her past is not being kind to her and she is being unable to accept it because on the opposite end of the spectrum is her mother. Many of us will feel why she's going thru' all this all alone, but if only things were easier done than said. She acknowledges that life without Jai is a burden for her and that she feels it to be a void all the time, but one day Jai will definitely understand why she did all these? I won't question any morals here, because sometimes in life we are caught at crossroads and we are unable to choose that path that appears to be easily accessible. 😭😭😭

Bani gives another dressing down to Aditya Uncle this time. 😆😆😆Actually, Aditya asked the best question to Bani – 'how much of what I am seeing is true?' and that's why I keep on harping that he is the person who understands Bani the closest. The answer that Bani gives him scathingly seems to perturb him but he isn't satisfied. I am glad that Bani maintains her stand and refuses to divulge anything to Adi also, at this moment she can't afford taking a risk. Its not that she doesn't trust Aditya, its just that she loves Jai more.

Now we come to loverboy, 😳 looking toooooo HOTTTTT to handle with half-sleeved shirt and unbuttoned down shirt. 😳😳😳 Thank God, my father was in the same room, otherwise ... But wait, his hotness doesn't earn his retribution as yet! What I liked is that the Creatives are finally trying to show Jai without his suits. LOLzz

He was this HOTTTT!

I loved his monologue about his feelings for Bani and I appreciated the fact that he holds his trust for her much higher than anything, above all allegations, etc. Wonder how will he react when he sees Pushkar's name in the sonography form? If he survives that, then I will take it from him that he's home. And his beliefs and intentions have been true to the last alphabet. So, he still has a long way to go. The way he says to himself that he can't even think of Bani betraying him, even if his shadow goes against him was simply Lovely. Also the way he says that he is standing all alone in the hell of her hatred is very touching. He asks her take everything to him but to return to him, nevertheless. So the duffer has now come to realize her true worth, that she is much more valuable than what he possesses in the whole world. Or is it the baby? 😕

This episode gave us a lot of warm scenes – my eyes moistened in the hospital scene when Jai emerged from behind the partition curtains after getting his blood tested. It's the baby definitely that's what got him there but he's happy and sad at the same time to find Bani sitting in front of the Dr. Bani was too surprised at Jai's actions and just look at her, when the Dr. mentions the burn in Jai's arms and she notices it too. She can't forgive herself for everything that she's putting him through but, at the last moment, she refuses to attend the inauguration of the maternity wing of the Hospital, simply because she refuses to give herself and her intentions away. I am sure that Jai understands, though he is heartbroken. 😕

Bani now goes to Tarun's office and starts blasting him for hiding the truth from her that he is Jai Walia's best friend. A big round of applause for Tarun for showing her the mirror once again – that he is fighting her case because Jai wants him to do so. That Jai wants her to win at all costs and is willing to pay more than the demanded 50 p.c. of his property. And that he is fighting the case simply because there is no other way to pass on the money to her and also because after the case is over, he wants to see her smiling and victorious. Tarun also tells her that this is the first time he has seen Jai Walia losing, and that too for love – for her and for their child. He tells Bani that if Bani wishes to go to a different lawyer, then she could but she should always remember that she would win the case, which was otherwise weak, only because her opponent wants her to win. I thank Ekta heartily for bringing in Pawan as Tarun, he just acted splendidly. 👏👏👏

Too mush hero worship, I guess. 😕 Bani leaves Tarun's office and finds herself faced with a dilemma about fighting the case against herself and being desperate to win it, not because of the pleasure of winning but because she wanted to win so that he emerges as the winner ultimately. She promises herself that even though after all these, when she would not be able to meet Jai's eyes, she would always ensure that his eyes never drop in front of anybody and that his dignity remains as it is. Very brave, I must hand it to her and I simply loved her. But her dilemma will always stay unless and until Jai himself does anything something about it –

There's nowhere to run

I have no place to go

Surrender my heart? Body and soul

How can it be you're askin' me to feel?

The things you never show

Sometimes, words are just plain necessary. Not those three magic words, but the other unsaid words that touches our souls like a wisp of cool breeze from the sea during intense heat … 😳

Mausi and Dadi's concerns were ok and so was our screaming banshee's observations. Rano is too upset with Pia right now to even talk to her .. but a word of caution Rano, don't keep on pushing Pia like this, otherwise she will try to run straight into Jai's arms and disrupt everything further … as if Raaga's Munna cares. 😡😡😡

p.s. : I am still not talking to you two.

Wow you are write so well.

okay about this "She promises herself that even though after all these, when she would not be able to meet Jai's eyes, she would always ensure that his eyes never drop in front of anybody and that his dignity remains as it is."
She says that to herself but just imagine when Jai finds out about her intentions and is heartbroken once again. This time not because he didn't trust her but because what she had to go through cuz of him.
so my question is does she think that he would be able to face her after this? won't his eyes drop down in front of her? He won't be able to face the one person that matters to him more than his life. So does that hold no importance to her?

just some questions running through my mind.

Lonely, of osure it does matter to her also because otherwise she wouldn't have tried to do that.
the issue here is that she doesn't want her husband to drop his eyes in front of anybody, becasue she thinks that by the time, he will come to know of all these, she will be far away from him and the others. i am sure that at this moment, what Bani is concerned abt his saving his business, his family, hsi beliefs and trust on others, because these have all been with him for ever.
Thats why i said no morales, what she isnt discounting is the heartbreaks that will follow.
i m not thinkign coherently now. busy with a report. will try to give a goos answer within some time. 😉

Everything said....

Great observations!

Thanx Sangita!

Originally posted by: sangitadas

Lonely, of osure it does matter to her also because otherwise she wouldn't have tried to do that.
the issue here is that she doesn't want her husband to drop his eyes in front of anybody, becasue she thinks that by the time, he will come to know of all these, she will be far away from him and the others. i am sure that at this moment, what Bani is concerned abt his saving his business, his family, hsi beliefs and trust on others, because these have all been with him for ever.
Thats why i said no morales, what she isnt discounting is the heartbreaks that will follow.
i m not thinkign coherently now. busy with a report. will try to give a goos answer within some time. 😉

Well i guess there is a point there but still now-a-days Jai is drowning himself so much in her that others don't matter to him. Whatever they think or whatever they do it doesn't effect. i think she realizes that very well but she just doesn't want to believe it. She is the one person who affects and he won't be able to face her and plus with her gone i have no idea what he will do to himself. When she left the walia mansion he drowned himself in alcohol so she just needs to think about that.

lol have fun writing your report. will be waiting for your answer cuz these questions are just confusing me to the core. I have never been so interested in a drama (especially desi) before. and plus looking at Jai doesn't help either all my senses get blocked.

cheers,

you really write well 👏 👏 👏

hey sangs great analysis as usual. again my fav song ....... love quiet a few of the backstreet boys nos.

my jiya cried for both bani and jai yesterday, at their predicament and their helplessness.

at the risk of repeating myself, jai was looking hot, drop dead handsome ........ his sleeves rolled up, buttons undone just like adi's ff and to top it in black, that colour does wonders for him. 😉

bani was much better in emoting yesterday, but she needs to stop crying so much .......... bechari, like jai even she is all alone in this battle of hers, it's different that she made this choice herself, but still ...... they are both sailing almost in the same boat just hope they reach the shore safely some day.

as for the trust issue .............. i feel that the way jai's trust in bani was emphasized in yesterday's episode, when the pushkar fiasco does happen i.e. the hospital form with his name as the father, it should not create such a ho haaaaa mainly for 2 reasons

1) becoz the handwriting is different than that of Bani's
2) jai has gone for a blood test yesterday with regard to pregnancy, so it will not take a genius to figure out whose baby it actually is unless of course mai forgets this scene and insists on creating more rona dhona circumstances.

as for pia, what i would love to see happening with her is her trying to get close to jai when he is drunk, hug him and pacify him and jai in turn hug her he may, but end up saying I love u Bani, I love u so much, Miss you, please come back, main tumhare bin adhura hoon.......... oh god how i would love to see peabrains expression then .............. wishful thinking 😆

Originally posted by: sabsj

hey sangs great analysis as usual. again my fav song ....... love quiet a few of the backstreet boys nos.

my jiya cried for both bani and jai yesterday, at their predicament and their helplessness.

at the risk of repeating myself, jai was looking hot, drop dead handsome ........ his sleeves rolled up, buttons undone just like adi's ff and to top it in black, that colour does wonders for him. 😉

bani was much better in emoting yesterday, but she needs to stop crying so much .......... bechari, like jai even she is all alone in this battle of hers, it's different that she made this choice herself, but still ...... they are both sailing almost in the same boat just hope they reach the shore safely some day.

as for the trust issue .............. i feel that the way jai's trust in bani was emphasized in yesterday's episode, when the pushkar fiasco does happen i.e. the hospital form with his name as the father, it should not create such a ho haaaaa mainly for 2 reasons

1) becoz the handwriting is different than that of Bani's
2) jai has gone for a blood test yesterday with regard to pregnancy, so it will not take a genius to figure out whose baby it actually is unless of course mai forgets this scene and insists on creating more rona dhona circumstances.

as for pia, what i would love to see happening with her is her trying to get close to jai when he is drunk, hug him and pacify him and jai in turn hug her he may, but end up saying I love u Bani, I love u so much, Miss you, please come back, main tumhare bin adhura hoon.......... oh god how i would love to see peabrains expression then .............. wishful thinking 😆

Sabsj, tu bhi na 😆😆😆
yes, i agree it would not take a genius to know abt the child's paternity. maybe thats why the creatives added that scene 😕
i did write in the post but i really dont think Jai will make a very big issue abt Pushkar' name in the form, though he will hurt by the mere fact. but, i am worried what the screamign banshee will do abt it along with her whistling sapola. 😃

ur idea abt pia and jai its hilarious, but i dont that girl to be anywhere near Jai. Jai and his 'josh' and 'hosh', thats what bothers me. 😉

dear sangita.......
that was so touching!!!!!!!

Great Observations Sangita 👏 👏 👏 .

Was waiting for ur updates from the morning. Ur updates keep me hooked up to the forums as much as MT's and Anu's updates. Great Job yaar 👏 👏 .

But dont u think atleast now Bani shud realise that she has to confide in someone and tell the truth?? May be not Maasi , Adithya , but not even Tarun?????. Cant she think that Tarun can handle the situation in a more professional and matured way and help her save Jay from his own ppl???