DIL, DOSTI.. HUM!!#2 ch 43: pg 141/thread #3 added - Page 36

Chapter 34

Geet

"geet beta.. why don't u go rest nw!"

Daadi maa's voice shook me out of my thots..

I had sm hw managed to get thru d ceremony!

bt wer was maan?

i dint need to luk arnd!!

Actually I cud feel his piercing gaze..

He was ryt behind me..

I cud sense his restlessness too!!

Bt I wasn't gonna give in.. nt until he learnt to speak his heart out.. to me!!

He had no idea what-so-ever of hw restless I was whn he had his phone switched off all d while..

N d dilemma I faced knowing he was DD..

N knowing tht was important.. bt der was more..

Thr were only questions!!

The answers to which wud decide my future.. OUR future!!

I walked into my room..

With shaking fingers, I picked up d diary.. again!!

I cud read it again n again!!

I still remembered hw it was den..

It seemed old.. bt still well kept!!

i wasnt sure if i shud read it..

but.. still i went ahead unable to live thru d restlessness!!

With love to my son, maan..

On his 14^th bday!!

Maa..

I was still having second thots abt reading it!! It was his personal thng..

Knowing his anger..

Bt no.. dis tym I was d one wid evry ryt to b angry..

Hw cud he not tell me such an important thng..

N worse still.. walk away!!

I opened d diary..

I found u today while packing to leave for india!!

N though I never used u b4.. u r very precious to me..

My maa's last bday gift!!

N I miss u so much maa..

Wish I cud tell u hw much I love u!!

N dad!!

Bt I will not cry.. nt nymore..

Coz.. I remember dad's last words..

"u r a big boy maan

N cryin never helps!!

U have to take care of evrythng.. take care of dev!!

U wil wont u?"

Ofcourse I wud.. bt I miss u a lot!!

I felt bad for him..

Loosing one's parents at such a young age..

I remembered d pain in his voice wen he had almost bared his heart out to daadi abt hw he wanted to make dev capable of handling nythng cm wht may..

If nythng happened to him!!

Nw I knew it was a forced maturity..

Tht was created by d void coz of his parents death!!

Tomoro daadi wil take us back to india!!

So we will have to leave our home..

N also mohinder uncle n rano aunty..

N dev wil also miss his partner in crime, geet!!

Half my tym went off in taking care of them n handling their mischiefs!!

Bt I ve promised dem dt dey can stay in touch thru mail..!

I smiled.. obviously!! Thts hw I had alwaz remembered him, taking care of all our mischief!!

We ve started settling in india bt its so different here than back home..

The environment, d ppl, d food.. everything is different!!

Bt daadi's presence makes it fine!

After all she is all we have..

Dev has settled in well..!!

He has already made so many frnds at school..

Bt den he's never been short of dem..!!

I made a id for dev n send it to mohinder uncle..

N geet replied back so fast.. bt dev he's so busy playing.. I actually had to force him to sit n answer back!!

Dev.. so he wasn't evr d one..

He never wanted to..

Bt smhw I cudnt hold it against him.. nt nw..

Or

Was it tht smwhr I wanted it to b maan considering whtever I ve been feeling for him since we met..!!

Bt as time passed by dev just got busy wid his frnds.. he did not reply to geet's mails as dey kept accumulating..

N having no option I answered dem back..!!

I dint want her hurt knowing hw attached she was to dev..

N she doesn't even call him dev.. she calls him DD..

N so I answered her back wid d same!!

I wasn't used to d Indian food here..

N she simply loved it..

I knew rano aunty made it really well bt here I dint like wht d cook made..

Plus bth me n dev loved Italian!!

I was just cribbing to her abt it randomly

N nxt she tells me she tried learning Italian.. n made a mess of it!!

Dusht danav.. I tried for him n he.. he is just having a good laugh at my expense!!

I looked fwd 2 her mails.. I liked her discussing her small n cute problems!!

"cute"!! he found my problems cute.. I pouted..

She cudnt decide wht gifts to buy, wht dress to wear for d party

N only she cud get upset coz her lil sister apparently dint like d name she had kept for her.. meera!!

Get upset like hell wen she fought wid her frnds or uncle n aunty!!

Bt despite all she was adorable in her own sweet way!!

N d thng tht surprises me was tht I actually helped her out wid all dis!!

Whn it was beyond me to take trouble to do my own shopping!!

Bt sm hw it wasn't in me to deny her nythng.. ever!!

N neither cud I.. ever!!

I was getting more n more habituated to mailing n chatting wid her!!

Many a times I wanted to tell her abt myself.. abt my identity.. n many a tyms even started d topic,

But she had her own dream world.. rather filmy world!!

She wanted us to meet n recognize each othr!!

She was so confident she wud recognize me..!! I cudnt break her heart..

Ofcourse I remembered tht.. bt I never knew he meant dis..

I was just.. well der was no explananation!!

It was just fun.. a dreamy situation for me!!

I so often call mohinder uncle on d landline hopin to hear her voice.. n smtyms did get lucky..!!

Bt cudnt ever speak a word ..!!

he did.. wht wen?

She was my stress buster.. my mishty.. d only one who cud make me feel good after a horrible day's work!

Mishty.. I had tears rolling down my eyes..

Hw much I craved to hear him call me tht..

I had alwaz wondered y dev dint..

Bt then he was never d one..!!

N maan..?

Initially I felt guilty lying to her n I so wanted to tell her it was me, maan..

Bt smhw I just cudnt bring myself to do tht..

I feared she wud get hurt her best frnd wasn't d one replying to her..!!

N I dint want her hurt..

Afterall I had been so used to taking care of her..

But later I realised it was just an excuse for myself..

I had found a frnd in her.. just abt my only frnd!!

Due to my introvert nature n then d difficulty I had adjusting here plus my responsibilities, I never had tym for frnds n socializing!!

I had started looking after work lil by lil n by d tym I was out wid my architect degree I was almost handling all of our work n glad to relieve daadi of all work!!

Dev too was slowly comin around bt he alwaz needed a push bt den der was no lookin back..!! I alwaz wanted him to enjoy bt not loose track of his responsibilities.. n thus never stopped him from partying n socializing..

Though personally I cud never stand it..!!

he had decided on doin architecture widout ny push n I knew I had been ryt in letting him have a life he wanted!! Glad tht atleast I had inculcated in him sm of d values which wud have made my parents feel proud!!

Mishty too had completed her graduation..

She was a yr junior to dev.. I so wanted her to pursue architecture.. I don't know why I feel she shud work wid me!!

Bt then she wasn't interested in it.. so I suggested interior dcor.. n she loved d idea n pursued it!! she was so excited abt it.. n wud often describe her dream house to me on d hill top, in d midst of nature..!!

n i promised to fulfill all her dreams!!

I have decided she wud work wid me one day or the othr!! she wud work wid KC.. i wud wait for her!!

I smiled..

I had wanted d same!!

I feared her reaction to d truth..

Bt I knew I wud have to confront her..

Coz one thng I was sure of..

I was truly, madly n deeply in love wid my mishty!!

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