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Hii guys.This is the OS which I've written based on yesterday's precap.No PM's sent.Also sorry if there are any mistakes.I'm sure there are many.
"I hate you",shouted Sharon throwing the remote at his reflection which the projector created in the projector room.Swayam stood behind trying to figure out if she meant it."What possibly could have made things this worse between us??",Swayam questioned himself.Swayam knew Sharon respected him."She can never hate me",thought Swayam stepping back."No.She can't",Swayam spoke stepping back."I need to talk to her",thought Swayam standing still."I've to",he thought mustering all his courage walking into the projector room."Sharon",she heard her name being called in a familiar voice."Swayam,I'm in no mood.Please leave",warned Sharon knowing that she could speak anything in the spur of the moment."No,Sharon.We need to talk",said Swayam.Her "I hate you" echoed repeatedly."Swayam,please.",said Sharon raising herself up from the chair."Sharon,listen to me.",said Swayam walking towards her."Do we have something that is left to be spoken?? Except for the constant taunts from you and your teammates for something that I've not done",said Sharon folding her hands against her chest looking sideways."Sharon,I've not blamed you for anything.Ever",said Swayam.Things had taken unbelievable turn,none that could ever be expected,which could effect their relationship the most."Really??",said Sharon looking at Swayam."Really",replied Swayam stressing on the word."What was it all then?? I had to be responsible.That's the thing which you told me yesterday.Remember??",questioned Sharon not in a normal tone."Sharon,I was trying to justify the teammates.You know it.Don't you?",questioned Swayam softly."Were you?? It felt like your opinion",said Sharon trying to hide her tears.Swayam's opinion,being the most important,effected her beyond her imagination."Sharon,its not like that.Please understand",said Swayam in a pleasing tone."You support your teammates.You always have.I'm not important I get it",said Sharon tightening the grip of her folded hands and also crushing her nails into her flesh."Sharon,stop doing that",said Swayam moving forward.Swayam held her hands tight not letting her hurt herself."How does it even matter to you",said Sharon looking into his eyes."It does",shouted Swayam successfully separating her fingers from causing her pain."Leave me",shouted Sharon trying to free herself from his hold.Swayam pulled her close tightening his grip on her shoulders."Leave me,Swayam.Don't act as if you care about me",shouted Sharon."Wha..",stammered Swayam freeing her from his grip."Act??",said Swayam with tears filled eyes stepping back from her.Sharon looked sideways."Now you feel I'm acting.I know because you hate me.Don't you??",said Swayam letting the tears escape his eyes.Sharon turned to look into Swayam's eyes.She could see the pain and also feel the pain."Yes,I do.I hate you",shouted Sharon grinding her teeth and controlling her tears."You do??",asked Swayam for one last time almost showing the signs of breaking down.Sharon couldn't answer that question.She knew she never could hate Swayam.Swayam hurt her the most by declaring her responsible for their loss.She hadn't cared the accusations of the his team.All that mattered was Swayam,his opinion.Swayam started walking out of the room knowing that he couldn't be able to hear the answer."You don't deserve my explanation",shouted Sharon making sure he listened to her while leaving the room.
"She hates me.Hate...",thought Swayam walking lifelessly through the corridor."hate",he thought continuing walking.Sharon threw herself down realizing what she has said."No.You don't hate him,Sharon.You don't",shouted Sharon roughly moving her hair from her face."You can't hate him",thought Sharon crying hysterically."I don't deserve her explanation?? What do I deserve??",thought Swayam reaching the basketball court."What do I deserve?? I don't deserve her love.My friends never acknowledged my work for the team?? I don't deserve a girl whom I love the most?? What do I deserve??",shouted Swayam throwing himself against the fence of the court."Swayam",called Rey,who had followed Swayam from college."Swayam",said Rey shaking him."She hates me.You know that??",said Swayam in a low voice."Who hates you??",asked Rey praying it shouldn't from the person whom he had been guessing.Swayam hadn't answered his question."Swayam,please what's wrong?? Tell me?",asked Rey trying to calm Swayam down."It seems I don't deserve her",said Swayam looking lost."Whom don't you deserve??Swayam please tell me what happened?",questioned Rey looking straight into his eyes."Sha...sha...Sharon",completed Swayam crying."What?? Are you mad??Who said that stupid thing??",questioned Rey."She said it",said Swayam looking at Rey."She can't",said Rey.
Next day
Sharon woke up in her room still wearing the same dress.Her hair looked messy.Her eyes swollen.She saw the maid opening the windows,which made her realize that she's in the next day."Swayam",she thought letting fresh tears form."God,what did I do??",she questioned herself.Jumping from the bed,she grabbed her phone trying to call him."Why is he not answering my phone???",thought Sharon feeling guilty."Did he hurt himself??',thought Sharon praying God to keep her Swayam safe."I deserve this.I'm a bitch",thought Sharon walking down into the hall.She grabbed her car keys from the table and walked fast."I have to talk to him",thought Sharon starting her car.On reaching Swayam place,she ran through the entrance and also climbing two steps together not able to wait further to see him.It was so unlikely for a girl like Sharon to walk and run in an ugly manner.She had been climbing the steps crazy enough to grab some eyeballs.Her makeup faded away and her hair looked in a miserable condition.Her lips looked dry."Swayam ...Swayam...open the door",said Sharon banging crazily onto the door."What is wrong??",said Taani who looked petrified.Without answering her question,she ran into Swayam's room trying to find him.After almost looking into every room of the apartment,being followed by Taani with unending questions,Sharon fell on the sofa crying."What's wrong?",asked Taani."Where's Swayam??? Did he hurt himself...no ..tell me he didn't",said Sharon looking at Taani."I don't know.Bhai hasn't come home since yesterday",said Taani looking at Sharon."What?? Are you nuts?? You let your brother stay anywhere he wanted to.What kind of a sister are you??",shouted Sharon."What's wrong?? Bhai doesn't come home someday's.I don't bother him asking where he's been",said Taani coolly."You will ask from now on.You get that",shouted Sharon holding Taani's hand tightly."OK",said Taani trying to free herself from Sharon,who looked miserable.Sharon freed Taani and started walking towards the door."You,inform me any slightest thing that you get to know about Swayam.OK??",warned Sharon on reaching the door."I will",said Taani scared of Sharon.Sharon ran towards her car calling Rey."Hello..Rey..you there.Are you listening?? Do you know where Swayam is ??",questioned Sharon."Sharon,relax.What is wrong with you?",questioned Rey."Do you know where Swayam is ??"asked Sharon praying that Rey should have an idea about Swayam."Hm...No.I don't",said Rey looking at Swayam."Fine.Let me know if you get any info",said Sharon hanging up the phone."Swayam,you shouldn't do this",said Rey looking at Swayam,who had taken promise from Rey that he wouldn't inform anyone about him staying at his place.
"I will go to college",thought Sharon only to realize that the day's saturday which is a holiday for him."No.He wouldn't be at college.Not in anyplace that I've an idea of",thought Sharon tiredly.Sharon drove herself back to home not knowing a place where she could expect Swayam.Sharon took her bath not able to smell her own self.She had never been this dirty her entire life."Why is it bothering so much?? It's not like we have fought for the first time after our relationship started??",Sharon questioned herself for the concern she had for Swayam."I hate you,Swayam.I hate you for not being with me during the tough time",thought Sharon looking out of the window."But this is the first time he had ignored me",thought Sharon.The whole day passed if her trying to assess her feeling for Swayam.The concern she showed for him didn't seem like the concern which could be shown to a person one liked.It looked something beyond that.
Next day
Sharon woke up early in a belief to find Swayam.She decided the places she would go to,to find Swayam.She drove herself to the college and checked all the places she could find him.She walked towards the basketball court hoping this could be the last she'd be searching for him.There he was.Bouncing the ball as hardly as possible.His pain and frustration clearly visible on his face.Sharon ran towards the court,tripping and raising herself back twice or more."Swayam",she shouted looking at him,while his back faced her.Swayam turned back to look at Sharon.Sharon let her tears escape and walked slowly towards Swayam.Swayam decided that he would make it easy for Sharon to hate him.He decided that he would tell her that he didn't love her."Swayam,I'm sorry.I didn't mean it",said Sharon crying."Doesn't matter,Sharon.I don't love you either",said Swayam hiding the immense pain in his eyes.He,hadn't believed,that he wanted her to be happy even after knowing she hated him.Swayam walked away from the court leaving Sharon perplexed."You...You don't love me???"said Sharon to herself knowing that Swayam has left."He can't say that.He has to love me...he has to..",thought Sharon breaking down and crying.Sharon spent the whole day in the basketball court failing to re-collect the number of times she tried to push him away from her."You wanted it...",shouted Sharon holding hair tightly in her fists resting her elbows on her knees."I can't let you go,Swayam.I can't.I don't why",thought Sharon driving back home.
"I love him.Yes I do",said Sharon to herself feeling happy for her late realization."I feel void without you,Swayam.There was a stage in the beginning of our relationship,where you had given me a right to walk away whenever I felt like.Today,I will give you the right to walk away.Tomorrow I'm going to confess and if makes you happy to stay away from me then be it.But I will confess my love before you could walk away.",thought Sharon looking at the clock,which showed three in the morning."Let me sleep.I've to go to college and talk to Swayam",thought Sharon closing her eyes.
Monday
Sharon woke up with a smile,despite knowing her place in Swayam's heart.A similar feeling that they both had was to see each other happy in their relationship,which unfortunately doesn't show up well as both aren't expressive as much as they needed to be.Sharon looked at her clock and jumped out of the bed."God,it's two in the afternoon",thought Sharon almost crying as she missed an opportunity to meet Swayam."I've to wait till six in the evening",thought Sharon knowing that he would come back to college at six to rehearse.This wait seemed the most unbearable wait of her life.Now she knew the pain Swayam went through every time she rejected him."Today,there will be no faking.I will go as would like to",thought Sharon grabbing favorite jeans and sweatshirt.She dressed up and looked at the clock to tick 5:45."Finally",she thought looking at the clock.She drove herself to the college and also was sure that she wouldn't find any of the students as most of them wouldn't get rid of their monday blues until wednesday.This was the first time she wore a bell bottom jeans to the college.She never felt so deglamorized in her life.But she had decided that today she would let it out to Swayam.Everything that she was.Getting down the car,she took deep breath thanking god to leave college so lifeless.She had worn her favorite red sweatshirt which covered even her fingers as the sleeve was bigger than her hands.She held the ends of the sleeves in her fingers while her faded bell bottom jeans looked very old and out of fashion."Come on.You can do it",thought Sharon for one last time.
On reaching rehearsal hall,she saw Swayam sitting against the mirror.Swayam wouldn't miss a single day's practice as dance was the only means to show his emotions.She had secretly caught him dancing when he was sad quite a number of times.She understood that Swayam's in a position which couldn't be described either through words or dance.Sharon entered rehearsal hall not making noticeable noise and locked the door behind her not giving Swayam a chance to escape.Swayam looked into the direction from where he heard a noise and noticed Sharon locking the door."What are you doing??",questioned Swayam trying to maintain distance from her."Swayam,please listen to me",begged Sharon looking at Swayam who took his bag and started walking towards the door.Swayam walked past Sharon not even looking at her.Sharon ran towards the door and stood as a barrier between Swayam and the door."Sharon,move",said Swayam not looking at her."Look at me while you talk",said Sharon making him look at her."I don't have to as ...as...",stammered Swayam not knowing the difficulty in lying."as ..what?? Swayam..as you don't love me??",completed Sharon for Swayam."Correct.Let me go",said Swayam looking at Sharon."Whom are we kidding,Swayam?? I know and you also know that you love me.",said Sharon looking innocently into his eyes."I don't",said Swayam controlling his tears."Ok.Fine.You don't.Then why are you crying???",questioned Sharon who wasn't in a mood to let go."I ain't",said Swayam looking sideways."You are.Look at you.",said Sharon slowly turning his face towards her."I am not.Ok",said Swayam looking at her letting the tears escape his tears."You look cute when you lie",said Sharon wiping his tears.
Swayam walked away from Sharon.Sharon faced his back while he faced the mirror."Ok you aren't crying.Fine,you don't love me.But please hear me out",said Sharon ever so softly.She knew Swayam wouldn't say no if she asked him this sweetly."Fine.Hurry up",said Swayam dropping his bag on ground looking at her through mirror.Swayam had noticed Sharon's dressing which seemed so unlike her.
"Swayam,I know I've been very rude.I know that I'm a bitch.I know that I'm egoistic.I know I tried to push you away from me.But I need you,Swayam.I'm not expressive.You have to deal with it.I know I've been a ruthless bitch ever since you knew me.It takes a lot of time for me to adjust.Our relationship,I know it's been a while but I'm scared.I'm scared that it might not work out correctly.I cannot afford to lose you.In this confusion,I end up hurting you.I know you are very good to me.But please give me some time to adjust to our closeness.I can't,out of the blue ,express everything I feel to you.Dad and mom have always been busy since my childhood.They have never involved themselves in any of the decisions related to my life.I've grown up alone in my own house.Suddenly to have someone who wants to know everything about you,someone who wants to involve himself everything I do,scared me.You know,Simmi and Rinni,my best friends,I never told them that I feel incomplete without them.Never,not in my entire life,not in our whole 10 years of friendship,I made them realize that they are important to me.I don't want anyone to know that I need them.You know,I always thought Neha looked cute when she speaks broken english and trying to find appropriate words.But I never show it because I'm scared that I might ruin my image.You know,I've loved Vicky and Nilesh's dirty comedy.I never told them.You know...you know I put myself in an imaginary situation with you and keep talking as if I'm talking to you.You know" stammered Sharon as she had a hard time breathing as she was crying.She wiped her face with her sleeve while Swayam turned his head sideways making her realize that he was observing her.
"You know,I love these clothes.This jeans I bought it five years back.I still love it.I've gotten it stitched thrice.All my track pants have oil stains around the pockets as I store the snacks in the pockets.This is me.I'm not as beautiful as you think.This is how I look at home.I'm not as clean as I show the world.I use my sleeve to wipe my nose.I bought a dozen check shirts same as you have.I liked them ever since I saw you.Whenever I wear them,I feel close to you.Did I ever tell you that you handsome in gelled hair.I bet I didn't.I I...I...",said Sharon now losing her control crying hysterically.
Swayam turned around to look at Sharon.Sharon raised her head and saw Swayam's tears filled face.Sharon knew that he loved her.She knew he wouldn't be able to watch her cry.She knew,even if they hurt each other,they loved each other.Swayam nodded his head hinting her to continue,who now let his tears escape not able to control after seeing her cry.
"I know you can find a girl better than me.I bet,every girl is better than me.But I want you to choose me.I've always made you unhappy.I thought that's what made you happy.You are made for me.If I lose you I never would be able to find another guy as only one guy is made for me.That's you.I get bitchy.I get angry.I get rude.But all these things,I can be only with you.There's no one in my life who pampers me as much you do.Why is it that you never hold my hand?? Daily I apply a scented moisturizer thinking that you will hold my hand.Swayam,trust me,I can only be what I'm when I'm with you.You have accepted the worse in me,which any guy wouldn't do.Lastly,Swayam,I know you love me.You know you do.And Swayam,I Love You.I guess,I always have.Since RDX Sir's party,I guess.But as it comes,my realization about important things comes late.Swayam,I love you.Please,don't throw me away from you...I..."said Sharon looking at Swayam whose eyes turned red.
Swayam stood there looking at her.She had worn,may be the worse of her clothes she ever had,but looked beautiful in her own way.It's been over a year since he started loving her,he himself didn't know the reason for his unconditional love he had developed for her.May be,he knew that Sharon which she had hid from the entire world.He could see her right through.Swayam slowly started walking towards Sharon,smiling to himself how she had,in brief,explained her whole life to him.Right from her track pants to her dirty habit of wiping every thing to her sleeve.From buying his kind of shirts to her imaginary conversations with him.
Sharon ran into Swayam and enveloped into the tightest hug she had ever known.Standing on her toes,she hid her face in the crook of his neck,covering his neck with her crossed hands.Swayam completely gave into the hug and hugged her tight.They remained hugging for a few minutes after which Sharon spoke,"Say it".Swayam knew what she meant but decided not to give easily."What?",questioned Swayam pulling her into a even more tighter hug."Ouch...",said Sharon suddenly being crushed into his arms tighter."Are you ok?",asked Swayam immediately loosening the grip."I'm fine.You love me.Don't you?? Say it,now",said Sharon this time pulling him into tighter hug."I don't.Who said that??",questioned Swayam acting all innocent."Your eyes.Why are enjoying the hug if don't love me??",questioned Sharon."I'm not enjoying the hug because I love you.Any guy would enjoy a hug generally",said Swayam still hugging."Ok.Whatever.You know what?? I love you.A lot.Much more than I could ever imagine",confessed Sharon.Swayam smiled,digesting that she had just confessed for the third time."I knew it since a long time",said Swayam taking pride in the fact that he had always been correct about Sharon."Say it,Swayam.Please",said Sharon not able to wait to hear those magical words from him."Sharon,do I have to say it separately.Every look of mine says I love you.Every breath I take makes me realize I'm a breath older and I've to pour my love for you as much as I could.I Love You,Sharon.I always will",said Swayam hugging her tight."I love you too",said Sharon."Sharon,do I seriously look cute in gelled hair??",asked Swayam wanting to hear his praises from her."You do.Very cute.Dare you gel your hair and come to college.That's our private hairstyle.OK?/",questioned Sharon."Whoa whoa..Private hairstyle??? I don't mind.When I'm yours how does even matter ??",said Swayam."Hmmm",replied Sharon feeling happy that she has confessed."You really have check shirts of the same kind??",questioned Swayam."I've dozen of them.Tomorrow I will wear it in the evening when we meet for our rehearsal",said Sharon also declaring that they would practice together.They continued talking about things which Sharon had said Swayam through the evening followed by a cycle ride to Sharon's house.
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