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Chapter 10: "No matter what but i cant stay without you"
After having a lavish dinner with her father, she reached to her room. The room didnot look alien to her after all it was her room and she immediately fell comfortable inside. It was her first day in her house after the accident.
After coming out from the bathroom, changing into her night dress she sat on the bed. she touched the fabric running her fingers on it.
She closed her eyes and exhaled. Her eyes welled up with the thought that her husband has another woman in his life. tears started rolling down her chubby cheeks while her fingers clutched the bed sheet.
After few minute she opened her eyes and got up from the bed to switched off the lights.
It was dark inside the room. She is always scared of dark, but tonight she just wanted to be in dark. she gathered some courage and moved towards the bed and lied down. She pulled the quilt with her heavy hands and wrapped herself. He wipping got more stronger when she was unable to smell him, yes his natural perfume which she inhaled very night, sleeping close to him. His musky smell always gave her a sense of belonging. She could smell him everywhere in the house even when he was out and not infront of him. Silently she always used to take out his clothes and smell it whenever he missed him. but today she didnot have anything of his.
Quickly she pulled out her top remembering the incident which has happened today in the morning...the way he smuggled inbetween her swells. Finally she could smell his aftershave which was lingering on her skin there. She touched the place and digged her face. She smelled her fingers after rubbing it to take the aroma from there.
She tried to sleep but she couldnot...his absence beside her haunted her. The emptiness beside her killed her many times. The thought itself was more than enough for her to curse herself for living him like that without talking it out and understand the situation.
She couldnot sleep the whole night tosing and turning, nor did he sleep.
Arnav's POV
Why arnav? why are you thinking about her? She is in her dad's and her dad will take care of her, atleast more than you for sure. He is not going to hurt her all the time like you do right? But why are you so concerned for her? Good that you told her about lavanya...but why did you tell her? Are you answerable to her? Kyun? who is she to you? Why couldnot you lie to her? no that you never lied to anybody but why not her? Lavanya is your gf...and khushi has got nothing to do with that. and i am not her real husband and she is not my real wife then why? why the hell do i need to tell her and hurt her? why cant i see her hurt? Why i felt like someone has stabbed me when i saw her crying? why i felt hopeless when she said she wants to go to her dad's? Why i wanted to stop her and take her in my arms right there? why my hand itched when i saw her hugging her father? Why i felt bad thinking that i was not able to comfort her...why i felt like a looser? and WHY AM I MISSING HER SO MUCH RIGHT NOW? it has been just 10 days that we are staying together...then how come she has become so integral part of me? Why?
He held his hand with her hand and closed her eyes...flashes of her chirsiness, her sweet pecks, her nervousness while serving him the puri bhaji, she sweet confession about the food, her face holding the saree with her mouth, him drapping her saree, her skin, her breadth, her face, her smile, her touch...he exhaled. He opened her eyes and then again closed it...but it was of no use he saw the same flashed over and over again and finally her sad face after hearing the truth...
His tranz was broken by the knock in the door...
He went up and opened it...
Arnav: Kaka aap?
Ramu kaka: Beta what will you have for breakfast?
Arnav: you didnot sleep? whats wrong with you? you are asking at night?
Ramu kaka: Lagta hai tum nahi soye beta...its already 8am
Arnav looked at the clock and was quite surprised to realize that he didnot sleep for one sec the whole night.
He took a quick shower and went out for college without having his breakfast.
I was surely a bad day for Arnav. First of all, he was sleepy all day, secondly his exams went bad, thirdly he banged his car, and lastly he had a big fight with lavanya over khushi's topic.
It was night when he came back home and went straight up to his room.
On the other hand Khushi tried to enjoy at her father's place, shashi didnot go to his office as he decided to stay with khushi and take care of her. in anycase she was so sad so her decided to spend some quality time so that she doesnot feel all the more bad staying alone.
They watched movies in the threater room, played games, but somewhere she was not feeling nice about the whole situation.
Today night also she hardly had anything. her mind was with arnav, what is he doing? what did he eat? arent he missing me? do i hold no value in his life? what made him go around with some other woman? am i that bad? am i not able to satisfy him? why didnt he call me? What have i done jiske liye he is so rude to me sometimes? I think i am not worth...
She pushed the plate and ran to her bedroom and locked it from inside.
She jumped on the bed and started weeping badly...she cried and cried and cried...her eyes were red, swollen and paining.
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Knock knock...dad...open the door...dad...dad...please open the door (she banged continuously)
Shashi opened the door and saw khushi in a terrible state...he hugged her quickly so did she...she cried bitterly...
Shashi while caressing her head...chup ho ja khushi...everything will be fine dear.
Khushi: D...DA...Dad...I want to go to him
shashi broke the hug: WHAT?
Khushi: Please dad, she looked at shashi in pleading eyes...please she said
Shashi: Beta, humlog kal chalenge ok?
Khushi held his night suit and jerked him a little, i want to go to him right now dad...please let me go...she cried bitterly.
Shashi: Beta abhi raat ke 2 baj rahe hai
Khushi looked at the watch and again pleaded...please dad i cant sleep without him...not a single second.
shashi was shocked to hear that from him. His concern for her daughter grew. he knew if anyday khushi after gaining her conscious gets to know about this she might hurt herself.
Shashi inheled and again said to khushi that "i will drop you to his house tomorrow darling"
Khushi snatched his phone and searched his no...but while doing so she by mistake deleated the entire contact list. She threw his phone on the ground and sat there.
Shashi couldnot bear that anymore that decided to take khushi to arnav.
Shashi: Go and change, we are going...
Khushi looked at shashi with tearful eyes and gave a quick hug to him and ran to her room to change.
In the meantime shashi informed arnav everything.
Arnav was initially shocked but he felt a little happy as he will be able to see her once again near him, in his house, which was not less than a shamshaan (cemetery) without her.
He told ramu kaka to prepare light snacks for both of them and ramu kaka felt happy that finally his chotte shahab will eat something properly.
Shashi and Khushi drove off to Arnav's apartment and finally reached there after 15 mins.
Once they entered through the gate, khushi felt goosebumps all over her body...her legs were excited to run inside the house, her hands were excited to hug her husband tightly, her body craved for his warmth, her eyes longed to see his face once and for lifetime.
She saw him standing right at the door, waiting for her.
She jumped down the car and ran towards him.
Finally she could see him, his face which was equally pale as hers, his eyes equally tired as hers.
She stopped running...he stood where he was...she took her first step, then second...then third gradually closing the gap between them she finally stoop infront of him, wipping badly, restless to hug him once...but she didnot.
Shashi stood behind her, while arnav went and touched his feet.
Shashi: Shambhalo apni pagal KHUSHI ko.
Arnav's heart felt with joy when he heard "apni khushi" but he knew that is not what distiny has held for them. He can never call her "apni khushi" she can never be his. But the fact that she was with him tonight despite of the ugly truth that she had faced yesterday, he was overwhelmed. How can someone be so selfless, how can someone keep her ego aside, how can someone love unconditionally?
Shashi blessed him and left.
Arnav saw her figure still glued infront of the door but her uska rona rukne ka naam hi nahi le rahi thi.
Arnav came and stood beside her...
She looked at him once in his eyes and so did he...
Arnav: Ab sari raat bahar hi rehna hai kya?
Khushi without saying anything stepped inside while arnav followed her.
Precap:
Arnav: You cant sleep here khushi!
Khushi remained quiet
Arnav: I am talking to you.
Khushi turned her back towads him and started wipping.
Arnav angrily came to the other side and stood infront of her.
Khushi: Tumko kya farak padta hai meye agar guest room mein soyun ya kahin aur? I am not going to your room she said angrily shieveing in fever.
Arnav thinned his lips and took her in his arms.
Khushi frowned and started protesting by hitting him on chest but all went in vein.
Arnav glared at her once but she didnot bother to stop struggling.
Arnav: STOP IT he yelled.
Khushi: DONT SHOUT AT ME!!! she yelled back
Arnav exited the guest room and walked towards the bedroom taking khushi in his arms.
Khushi: Leave me! i said leave me arnav...le...leave...me her voice started breaking.
arnav opened the bedroom room with his legs and finally looked at her face, which was all red due to anger and for her high fever.
Guys you are asking me to update it before i go for the holiday...i will and i promise it is going to be a maha update but i hope you guys dont regret it as it and curse me throwing tomatoos and chappals. I am warning you all.
Edited by Appy_Indy - 13 years ago
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