AR OS: Proposals (Updated p.3)

It was a busy day at work today with people coming to the restaurant at all times' being a head chef might pay a lot and have its perks, but the stress level' oh my gosh! I was literally going crazy! I was so glad that I have a great evening to look forward to' me and my live-in boyfriend, Armaan, were celebrating Valentines Day today' though it was a few weeks back, both of us had to work overtime then, therefore the adjustment

Waiter ' ridz' someone's here to compliment your food

I was surprised! I usually didn't have any face-to-face approach with any customers.. I was so used to getting feedbacks from the editorial reviews that for a few moments, I lost myself in the worries of how to deal with the situation'

I quickly put my chef hat on, as I told the waiter to bring the customer in

I turned to mix the pasta sauce that I had been preparing for the afternoon's special when I heard him

Person ' riddhima! (he said ever so gently and passionately)

My fingers froze as I realized who it was' I hesitantly turned around and there he was' I wondered what made him come here after what had happened between us

Me ' what are you doing here?

Sid ' riddhima.. I want to talk to you

Me ' you're not here to compliment me are you?

Sid ' (smiling) no, not really

Me ' so.. how have you been? (placing the pasta sauce off of the stove, to cool down)

Sid ' I've been better

Me ' okay just tell me what you're here for... I know you must have a reason

Sid ' ridz, I know you're with Armaan but I just wanted to let you know that I'm ready for marriage and kids! Could we please give our relationship another chance?

I stared at him in shock' I couldn't even form any words' I looked away and held the counter for balance

Me ' why now sid? Its been well over 5 years since we ended our relationship'

Sid ' I know riddhima, but when we met in the caf last year, I just couldn't stop myself from thinking about you

I looked back at him

Me ' and the 4 years in between? Did you ever think of me? But no, now that I have a beautiful relationship with armaan, you have to tell me that you're now ready for a better relationship?

This was sooo unexpected' I was tired of having to wait for him, and now that I've forgotten him and moved forward.. he's back.. and not only that but he was back with somewhat of a proposal' I just wish he had realized this earlier' (sighing)

Sid ' ridz.. I promise I will not bother you ever again if you tell me that armaan is offering everything in your relationship that im ready to offer' I just had to ask to avoid any regret that I might feel in the future for not asking you this

I loved armaan, and though he was not ready for a commitment, I wasn't leaving him' I mean yes, armaan wasn't offering all this now, but it wasn't like we will never move our relationship forward

Me ' you're wrong sid.. he is offering me all that, infact i was the one who told him not to get married right now (trying to prove a point to sid)

Sid ' don't lie to me ridz, you are crazy about marriage and kids and commitment!

Me ' so is he okay' and now if you have nothing else to say then you can go.. I do have work to do

Sid ' okay, but remember, I will always be there for you if armaan isn't

Me ' just leave sid! He is offering me way more than you ever did

And then sid left' but what he didn't understand was how much he changed my life just at this moment'

But before I could let myself get disturbed, I thought of the beautiful night that awaited' I didn't want to ruin the evening with armaan but it was so hard to forget what sid said' what if armaan doesn't ever want to get married?

I felt uneasy to my stomach' I signed out a few hours early as I went to the coffee house to think over everything

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5 years ago' I was in a deep, meaningful, and adult relationship with sid' yes, he was 10 years older than me, but it felt like a relationship that was meant-to-be' I've been in other relationships, but this was unlike others, totally unique and totally special

We had first met during my eye appointment.. he is an eye doctor, and I had an eye infection' so I took an appointment with him.. at first sight, I was physically attracted to him.. but then he asked me out on a date, and then I got emotionally attached to him.. we then spent lots of time together.. he even joined our group of friends that consisted of me, abhi (my brother), nikki, armaan, atul and sapna

They all accepted him because they knew that we were serious about our relationship.. well anyways.. to get to the point:

5 years ago:

Today was the day me and him were going to move in together to take our relationship to the next phase' he was over at my house, helping me pack' and as we got tired, I decided to bring some wine and take a break'

Sid ' im so glad that I'll be able to see you first thing in the morning! (placing a soft kiss on my lips)

Me ' I know.. im very excited for this! Just imagine, if everything goes alright, we can get married, and then have kids! It will be a perfect family! (leaning my head on his shoulder when he suddenly became stiff)

Me ' what happened?

Sid ' ridz.. I should've told you this earlier, but im not planning to get married again

Me ' what? (in utter disbelief)

Sid ' you know about my divorce.. plus I have two kids too.. I want to stay with you, but without marriage or kids! I don't think I will ever want to get married again

Me ' did you ever think about telling me that in the beginning? You know I've been waiting to find the one man with whom I can get married to and have a family' but if you had no intentions of starting a family then why in the world didn't you let me know when I would talk about marriage? (frustrated that he hid something so important from me)

Sid ' I just thought it wasn't the best time to tell you about it

Me ' oh ye, cause there is a good time to tell me that (sarcastically.. rolling my eyes)

I stood up and sat on the couch with my hands on my head' he followed me there and sat down beside me

Sid ' come on riddhima.. we can still live together right?

I looked at him in disgust

Me ' how can you say that? I don't mind living with you but do you really feel that I would want to live with you after knowing that this relationship that we have doesn't have a future!

Sid ' what do you want me to do then?

Me ' can you change your mind? (firmly)

Sid ' no ridz.. you already know that

Me ' well I cant either

In a matter of seconds that felt like a whole eternity, the silence that surrounded us spoke depths

Me ' (in a choked voice) I guess this is it then

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That was it for our relationship' we had been together for 2 years' but I was unaware that me and him didn't share the same ideology of marriage.. while I had always been waiting for my marriage, he had never been interested in marrying me' not that he wasn't serious for me, but we just wanted different things out of life. I needed commitment, and he didn't' two paths that once connected, split into different paths once again'

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3 years after mine and Sid's break-up/ 2 years ago:

I was at Abhi's Wedding' he was getting married to nikki today, how beautiful! My brother, and my best-friend getting married! Who knew that life woud give me such joy! Not only that, but atul had proposed to his girlfriend anjali, and sapna was committed to one guy ' amit' life was going great.. except for me and armaan of course... we were both alone'

Soon after the ceremony, everyone was with their partners.. and me and armaan were sitting together' we were just talking.. weird thing was, though we always hung out all together, me and armaan were never close unlike me and the other people' he was just a friend, whom I met through my brother as abhi-armaan, BEST friends!

But anyways.. me and him were just sitting at the table when one of abhi's colleague walked towards me' and spoke to me'

Him ' hey are you abhi's mother?

Me ' WHAT? Noo!!! (in total shock)

Him ' OH NO!!! no no no no! (embarrassingly.. putting his hand on his mouth) im so sorry.. I meant sister' oh god! (he left hurriedly)

At that perfect moment, despite the fact that he had said so mistakingly, I felt so embarrassed! It made me feel' alone.. and old' and without anyone by my side except for friends

I walked speedingly out of the banquet hall' I don't know why I was so concerned with the whole incident, but I felt so ugh.. so alone.. I had no one to talk to.. yea I had friends who I could talk to, but I mean someone who I can always talk to'

And then I heard armaan follow me out' oh great.. he's gonna see me cry now! I walked away from him.. but he called out in what I thought to be an incredibly caring voice

Arm ' ridzy! Don't let that bother you!

Me ' its easier for you to say armaan! im the one who was called a mother (trying so hard to blink back my tears)

Arm ' that guy meant to say sister.. come on ridz!

Me ' but I don't know.. its so hard to deal with everything.. the one guy that I really loved didn't want to get married

Arm '(figuring out where my track of thoughts immediately led to) you're not over him?

Me ' no (with moisture in my eyes) I try so hard.. its been 3 years but I cant forget him.. i.. I don't know armaan' why are we alone armaan? Are we not relationship type? Everyone in our group has someone' what If I never get married?

Armaan side-hugged me as he consoled me

Arm ' you're beautiful ridz.. you will definitely find someone

Me ' and what if I don't? (turning to face him)

Arm ' you have everything in you that would make you a perfect partner ridz'

As they continued talking, both of us were staring intently at each other and our voices became more passionate and connective as we spoke

Me ' then why am I not in a relationship?

Armaan held my shoulders and said'

Arm ' maybe because you haven't looked in the right places!

Me ' then where do I look? (softly)

Arm ' (replying back softly as well) how about right here in front of you?

As I looked deep in his eyes, I felt a connection between us.. it was a mutual connection' and this was the first time after sid that I felt this'

We both leaned in' and shared a kiss' funny thing was.. it felt weird to not feel that the kiss was weird!

As soon as we realized that we were kissing.. we hesitantly stepped back.. very awkward situation actually.. not because we were friends and this was weird, but rather because I really wanted to kiss him again

Something even odder' armaan looked at me like he wanted to kiss me too' so we kind of kissed again

Things were great until we both clearly realized that we were kissing! He waved his hand in his hair' and me.. I was smiling like an idiot'

Had that been what I thought it had? I felt sparks! It was a "young love" experience once again' in "Armaan"? really? Never thought that that could have ever happened' he was just a friend! I looked at him, expecting him to be confused too.. but that was not the case oddly enough!

But before we could speak, abhi came out looking for us' and that was the genesis of our relationship surprisingly enough'

Just a while after we went back inside, it was dancing time' because of the wedding, only slow-track songs were being played' I looked at armaan, and caught him looking at me too' that made me feel so special that it was clearly expressed on my face

He smiled, and asked me to dance' I agreed, and we headed towards the dancefloor

This wasn't our first dance together, but it felt like our first dance because I actually had butterflies in my stomach' I couldn't handle the confusion within me (about what we shared together) so I signalled him to come outside' we told abhi that we would be back soon' and then we left to sit on the benches outside

Arm ' so..

Me ' armaan' I don't know how to say this'

Arm ' say what?

Me ' do you think what happened happened for a reason? (not knowing how to actually phrase what I actually wanted to say)

Arm ' well, it cant be a coincidence

Me ' are you sure you weren't just being a friend? Like you know, a shoulder to lean on?

Arm ' at first I did' that's how I explained it to myself.. but to be honest, it hurt me to see you so upset

Me ' really?

Arm ' ya! I don't think that we should just be friends you know.. I haven't felt like this ever in my life!

Me ' you felt it too? (relieved)

Arm ' yep.. it felt great'

Me ' so..?

Arm ' so what?

Me ' do you want to' You know' (trying to get him to ask me out, cuz he was the guy!)

Arm ' well.. would like to go out with me?

Me ' I would love to (smiling)

We were having a good time, and we heard rahul calling us, so we quickly kissed each other, and entered the hall again, hand in hand

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The next day had gone amazing too' we actually learned so much more about each other.. and we also loved to be in each other's company' truly the best date I had ever gone on

We kept meeting each other.. and soon became official, and announced our relationship to our friends.. It was very awesome!

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