MY SOUL MATE #2 - Page 7

Pinky helped maan to come to normal state as he felt dizzy few minutes back…she gave him some tablet which doctor suggested to take…maan is in extreme pain as he is holding himself responsible for geet's pain…he made his geet cry..he is responsible for her tears today..he hated himself for doing it but what he can do..he thought geet cant take this fact n may be completely broken…if any thing happens to him out of his badluck then what??how can geet live without him???he thought he have to stay away from her now..he thought geet will hate him now for leaving her and she may forget him in few days n start her new life….

Maan convinced pinky to take care of geet and immediately left to london without even informing to aadi..he even forgot to speak to daadi in his hasty..he only had a fear that geet may find him again or he may loose control on himself as he cant with stand her tears..he may rush to her n hug her..no no he don't want that…he promised pinky that he'll take care of his health n start his treatment in london..his mind only n only filled with geet n her tearful face…he felt very bad for her..the pain which he felt when he came to know about his disease is very less compared to the pain he is feeling today….he finally reached london engrossed in his thoughts…

Dev came to receive his bro as maan informed only him…he noticed the change in his bro..he became thin n his face was very pale..he could see the pain in his eyes..maan is like an open book to dev..he can read his eyes very easily…he also knows that maan loves geet..he never met her but maan shared his feeling with his little bro…he thought there might be a problem between them but ignored n welcomed with a smile..he noticed plastic smile on maan's face…

Days passed like that... maan always looked in pain,he always stayed depressed but supressed his emotions in front of dev but how can dev fail to catch his bro..he even observed some unusual things were happening with him..he frequently felt dizzy,he was surprised to see tablets with him..maan never ever took a tablet even when he suffered with fever and today there is store of tablets with him..he even observed his meetings with doctors n his doubts got life now..one day he finally came to know about his cancer..he broke down completely n cried like a little kid hugging his bro tight..maan somehow managed to control his bro n requested him not to tell anything to daadi as she cant take it..dev who knows about his daadi's health so he agreed..he took extreme care of maan…he handled the business n asked maan to stay away from stress but maan continued to go to office as he wanted to forget his pain atleast for few minutes..dev assured that he could not take much stress…maan's chemotheraphy also was started which is the first stage of his treatment…

Even though maan left the place where his geet,his life is suffering that too becoz of him he always had info about her whether she is ok??anyways he know that pinky is there to take care of her..he thought that geet may forget him in few days n move on but he was wrong..geet stopped smiling from the day maan left to london..she even ignored to talk with anyone..she went to college,attended classes n back to home..she is just acting as a robot which don't have any life..when pinky tried to cheer her she pasted a plastic smile which also looked un realistic..she only concentrated on her dream to become a doctor..she never questioned pinky about maan or talked about him...

Here maan's condition is no less than a hell... he felt why god still kept him alive..to give her pain??he felt very guilty as he is responsible for the condition of geet now….he only n only is thinking about geet every where..he cant live without her but he have to..he felt that, death better than to live this life without his geet…only her tearful face,her questioning eyes were roaming in his mind…everytime n every where while driving,eating,in his dreams and wherever he go…how can he forget her when she is part of him…

Mujhe yun hi karke khwaabon se juda

Jaane kaha chup ke baita hai khuda

Jaanu na mein kab huwa khud se ghumshuda

Kaise jiyun rooh bhi mujse hai juda

[I don't know where god has hid himself

After seperating me from my dreams..

I don't know when I got missing from myself

How do I live?? Even my soul is seperated from me]

Why god is not helping me now??why he shattered all my dreams..my dream to live with my geet through out my life,to give her utmost love but I ended up in giving her pain…why u kept me alive when u seperated me from my soul??why god why??his mingdscreamed for answers but god is now where to be seen…

Kyun meri raahein mujse poochein

Ghar kaha hai..

Kyun mujse aake dastak poochein

Dhar kaha hai

[why do my path ask me

Where my destination(home)is??

Why does they knock n ask me where the door is??]

I don't know whatever I did is right or wrong but only thing I thought about that time is my geet,her future..i gave her pain but it may be for sometime ... if anything would happen to me in front of her then she will suffer the pain which is eternal n i don't want her to suffer it…but my heart is screaming for answer why why u left her??wher u'll go now leaving her alone??is there any place where u can hide from ur feelings from her..his answer is noo….

Rahein aisi jinki manzil hi nahin

Dhoondo muje ab mein rehtha hoon wahi..

Dil hai kahi aur dhadkan hai kahin…

Saansein hai magar kyun zinda mein nahi

[search me on the paths which have no destination,I stay there..

Heart and heartbeats are at diff places..

Though iam breathing;why am I not alive??]

I don't know where iam living now..where iam going now..the way which don't have it's destination..iam just staying here like a lifeless soul..how can I stay alive when my heartbeat is her n she is away from me…iam breathing but still iam a lifeless creature now..iam lifeless without my geet….

Reth bani haathon se yun beh gayi

Takdeer meri bhikri har jagah

Kaise likhun phir se nayi daastan

Gham ki siyahi dikhti hai kahan

[my fate spilled everywhere from my hand

Just like sand

How do I write a new tale??

I can't see the ink of grief to write with]

Everything is destroyed now,my every dream to fill geet's life with hapiness but I shattered everything with my own hands becoz of the game played by my fate…how should I think of any hope now..there is no sign of hope now…

Raahein jo chuni hain meri thi raza..

Rehtha hoon kyun phir khud se hi khafa

Aisi bhi huyi thi mujse kya khata

Tune jo mujhe di jeene ki saza

[whichever paths I chose was my will

Then why do I remain angry on myself??

What was my mistake?

For which u punished me to live]

I was the one who came away from her,it was my wish to stay away from her but why iam angry on myself..why do I remain angry on myself??why god brought this day in my life??why he punished me n why he wants me alive still in this situation,bearing this pain…

Rahein aisi jinki manzil hi nahin

Dhoondo muje ab mein rehtha hoon wahi..

Dil hai kahi aur dhadkan hai kahin…

Saansein hai magar kyun zinda mein nahi

[search me on the paths which have no destination,I stay there..

Heart and heartbeats are at diff places..

Though iam breathing;why am I not alive??]

Kyun mein jaagon

Aur who sapne bo raha hai

Kyun mera rab yun

Aankhein khole so raha hai

Kyun mein jaagon..

[why do I wake up?

He is sowing more dreams..

Why do my god sleeping with open eyes?why do I wake up?]

I know that I cant go back to her again but again why god is giving me hopes that I'll meet her one day..why I feel that iam gonna meet her…why god is not answering my question??why he is acting as if he is sleeping with open eyes…

So friends guess who called maan??and why he left shocked??

Guys next part will be the end of past n u'll come to know why maan returned back n how he accepted to marry geet…also whether geet know about his cancer or not…

n Guys my college is gonna start from 7^th june..however iam not attending from the very first day..before that I want to give 2 updates atleast..if u want update then I want 90+ likes and 10 pages comments atleast….

I will be deleting one by one who don't respong to me without any prior notice and plz don't send me buddy req if u don't want to respond..

Thanx…

Plz add "monachweetie" to ur pm list if u want pm's rom me..

-mona😳😳