Mayur FF - Falling apart is just not easy Page 89 - Page 43

Pallu that was a beautiful part!!😳

beautiful update

loved the mother-son bonding n convo

I always get a little nervous before posting the updates for this FF...may be serious story doesn't suit me😆 nevertheless still looking forward to write more her😎😆

Part 21:

As Mayank entered the home, using his own pair of keys, what he saw made him blink his eyes for once - Varun was sleeping on the couch with his head in Nupur's lap and Nupur was asleep too sitting, her head twisted though while trying to find a comfortable position for itself, on its own.

He forgot everything else for a second and smiled an automatic, contended smile, after days, months, almost a year even. Yes, this is what happens when you disregard something dear as unreal, no more existing and a far-away dream and suddenly come across it in real-time. He couldn't help but look at them for a while and then reaching out for his cell-phone, he clicked out one of the most hold-able part of his life, fragile it seemed still but he knew he had to savour this. Long forgotten was his sheer tiredness from the day, his hunger as well as his irritation for some great bugging reasons at work.

He sat down from across them and unfocussed them suddenly for a thought, not at all merciful at his happiness. He tried hard to dodge it and provide reasons for good - Mayank, may be you were wrong all along…its not what you have faced, Varun will too….Nupur was not at all, to Varun, what your Mom used to be to you….you have seen her taking care of Varun to bits earlier, right…maybe those seemingly dream-like now days are to be back now….they are just the same as they were earlier to each other….to yourself….don't you know how Nupur is?...She has always been a human being which you fell for because she knows how to fly high and come back to her own nest always…isn't it one of the reason that makes you love her….can't she be back this time too?

But when you have accepted the worst, it becomes harder to accept an unexpected good thing. May be living in denial then asures you no hope atleast and limited worries without expectations, and lesser chances of getting hurt ahead rather than believing in something truly and living by it all by yourself and getting hurt time and again.

He somehow wanted to reason out against his will and he did….what about her immature decision…I am dying every moment without them and she chose it just like that, as if it didn't mean as much to her as she showed it did…how can she NOT manage her own child for a few months without me?...he will grow up further and life will only get complicated, so is sending him away a solution to his problems?...its like closing your eyes to him so that you don't see him in problems…and besides, she is all so devoted to just her work and will hardly now have time for them, specially she is more so giving all her time to work from the time Varun is away, even more….isn't that a slight reflection like wht his Mom did to him…well, yes Nupur loved Mayank and Varun sometime atleast…his Mom didn't ever….and it hurt him so sharply to admit it, still, when he looked at Varun's face and saw what he didn't want him to go through….he was suddenly restless….was he thinking too much? It all seemed so confusing and stressing…he had thought his grudge for that was now buried in some unknown place oh is heart, but no, it was suddenly overpowering his brain like not so often, as in his earlier days of life.

He loosened his ie as he sat thinking about it and sighed from not finding any calm or solution in the silence that had seemed promising to his mind.

Why couldn't he trust Nupur as he wanted to? But then what did she know about all this - nothing.

He had never thought he would have to share this weak part of his life with Nupur. But then why didn't she make him believe him without him explaining the obvious facts of life to her? Even without that phase for him, shouldn't she herself take Varun as a complete responsibility without him referring to it?

Life was harsh because he was witnessing what he had wished and prayed for, from long, but he was now worried like hell when it was in front of him.

He took a deep breath, stopped thinking for a while and calmed down. Gulping down a sip or two of water on the table, he thought it was best to leave this reaoning for now.

He didn't even want to talk to Nupur about it because he knew that if he talked much about it all and his heart out to her, this time he would talk about it all, all that he had not talked of earlier. Nupur would dig that out from him and he didn't want to.

Would she understand it all when she was doing exactly the same thing herself, now? What must be the point of that talk?

He just wanted to see if Nupur wanted to stop Varun with them this year as she had once promised or would she not and would keep up with her all the time to work? He also knew that whatever it was, he would not let Varun go away this time and not let him go through what he had gone through. Not in any circumstances would he let it happen!!!

About Nupur, he didn't know…would she want to come back to them truly, he wasn't sure and how did he love her same even when she had done what she had to Varun? How could he? He shouldn't! He wouldn't….perhaps….

He went in to get freshened up and came back to see Nupur missing from the picture that he had left a while ago.

Varun was still asleep and in Nupur's place, he saw a pillow below hi head. Well, he despised this scenario…this is whathe had been fearing, he knew he was exaggerating but the way he looked at it, Varun was left all alone, on his own and this is what may happen to him ahead, God forbid, if he left him all alone to Nupur maybe.

Nupur came out from another room where she was on a call and when the call was over, she saw Mayank sitting there in the hall room reading the newspaper to let his stress flow out.

As Mayank looked up, Nupur had almost smiled before settling to a straight face looking at his face. He looked so worried that it questioned her for the reason behind it. Why was he SO worried now when Varun was right in front of his eyes. Tnis is what he had wanted now, right?

Sheasked impulsively, "Is everything okay?"

He looked at her and failed to pass it as a 'yes' or a 'no' and ended up saying casually and stiffly, "We might get late for the party. If you can get ready in time, it would be great"

Nupur gave him an equally stiff nod back and said, "I thought you knew me better. My fault I guess!"

Nupur felt so detached by him. This is what he did to her, his way of cutting it all so sharply and acutely that it pained her. Surely he was not worried about getting late in a party, no he was not that kind ever, she knew him very well. Then why was he so worried and had stopped sharing everything with her suddenly? She had the impression that he shared things easily with her, atleast earlier. Right now, Varun was alo here, so what worried him now? She failed to understand anything at all. It was getting harder and harder to bear it all - especially his detached behavior with her.

He needed to respect her words, decisions and herself completely too but somewhere he had forgotten to respect their relation amidst all the chaos. No she wouldn't let him continue it for long, she would surely read herself for a big showdown with him or whatever it takes to get him to speak, today itself, after the party. Fight, maybe yes, but she needed to get to him, to make him understand things and to know the heart again that she had prided to reach out to, once.