OS: Confrontations of the hearts in love

Note this will mainly feature Gohem so my apologies to Raji fans.

For weeks on end Gopi continue to do Ahems chores with hesitations and reluctance. The happiness and pleasure she used to get in doing these little task for him has eluded her, she could not believe that her Ahemji forgot the most beautiful happening in their lives. She looked at the time in their bedroom and wondered what he would be doing apart from work.

These days she has notice him trying hard to get her attention, taking blames for her mistakes and making her more aware of his presence by being in her face and asking her to do things for him. She has sense his agitation sometimes at not getting her fullest attention.

At the office Ahem hardly concentrates on work much as too many things are bugging him nowadays. First he could not understand Gopi's aloofness and on top of it he have some he has been having some strange blurry dreams and does not know what to make of it.

He is finding it hard to understand Gopi these day, as much as he wants to spend time with her, he finds her trying to avoid him. Before holi they were on good terms and even after that too she was all happy and smiles until he scolded her for not making the bed and spending time dolling up.

Ahem thought hard as to what caused her indifference so soon. He had apologised for his behaviour but now he always keep wondering maybe it was not the scolding and that there is more than catch the eye but this thinking is giving his more head ache and worse for him now he does not look forward to going home as first he has Meethi to open the door for him and Gopi is either in the kitchen or terrace doing household work and when he ask for her to bring his tea, she sends Meethi.

" Bhai!, bhai!!" Jigar called several time before he got Ahem's attention and when he did he was in his teasing mood again making Ahem blush. "Woh bhai I came to give you this." " What's this envelop Jigar?" " Bhai when you see what's inside you will know and to be honest the whole family was surprised but happy at the same time...you know..." before Jigar could finish what he was going to say his own phone rang and he left to attend to his business call leaving a confused Ahem.

" I do not know what Jigar is talking about...anyway what has he given me why can't he handle this matters or give it to the secretary...This Jigar now..." His loud thoughts came to a shocking stop when he saw what he was holding and now he want answers. He dialled Jigars phone which was busy and was told by his assistant that he has left to attend to a site problem.

Ahem could not understand how was this taken and Jigar is not there to answer him so...yes that's it now it's time to sort things out. He called his secretary to cancel all pending work for him today as he needs to go our and might not be back in the office today .

Gopi did all her chores and went to her room to sort it out but hated the room and love it at the same time. Tears started to roll down her cheeks as she recalled both the happy moments and the hurt caused when she found that her Ahemji does not remember all he has done with her. she could not believe her luck. She slowly drag herself to the mirror, these day she does not look at herself in the mirror but only use it to help her put things on herself in place.

The person in front of the mirror is that of an unloved person, she could not believe she hoped again that her relationship is more than what it is. Ahemji is only being nice to her but does not love her..."how could he forget kanaji,why me kanaji...please give me strength to live and protect me from shame...how could..." "Gopi!"

Her head snapped towards the door and the person she dreaded to see her in this state was staring at her accusingly. He has hurt burning his eyes and walked swiftly and angrily towards her after throwing his bag on the bed. " Ah...em...ji aaahhhppp." She fibbled with pallu and lowered her gaze and was about to move away from him but show now he was proceeding towards her slowly. She hit the bed falling backwards and as Ahem was helping her he too fell on her. He was smithen by her beauty and was about to move aside a stranded hair from her face but she stopped him in horror and wriggled to get herself free and out of that position with him. Ahem suddenly has a blurry image of the same situation and was feeling happy yet uncomfy as Gopi did not want to be close to him. She wanted to be out of his sight and made an excuse to get him tea and was about to leave but Ahem grab her arm hard and walked out of the room with her and only stopping to let her in the front car passenger seat before taking his place and diving off.

Gopi was now becoming scared and confused but looking at her husband's angry face, she knew not to ask him but at the same time she was worried that her Ahemji left work to come home early and what would maaji think. She was lost with her thoughts not knowing that Ahem too was battling his mind since he got the letter from Jigar and when he found his sulking and crying wife causing her luck,him and her kanaji, he could not hold himself any more. He wanted to put her in his arms and console her...he want to kiss away her pain... he wanted to...ohhh God what has happened...he now could not look at her straight in the eyes but he has to confront her.

He brought the car to a startling halt and got out and went to his favourite spot and now wished he was alone and scream his brains out but he shut his eyes and inhaled deeply. Gopi recognised the place well and smiled to herself and recalled when he brought her there to talk to him freely about her pain of loosing her parents. She could not understand why he brought her here today but felt he was angry at her... he might not be happy being avoided...she slowly open the door and walk briskly towards him...as he reach him, he said " why Gopi why?"

She was getting more confused " Ah..emji...are you okay?" "No Gopi am not okay... do I look okay to you...how do you expect me to be okay?...tell me how to be okay when...when you seem to ignore me at every opportunity...now I have to ask for my things...am not getting you Gopi...one minute you are all happiness and the next you are in your own world...how can I be okay when you do not share your thoughts,pains happiness and sorrows with anyone even me...Am at a brick wall trying to think so please make me understand Gopi."

"Ahemji I do not know what you are saying...but am sorry if I hurt you...I did not mean to..." "Gopi please I do not want you to take blame for every little thing that happens in our lives." Ahem stopped for a while knowing he needed to first make her comfy to get to the bottom of the matter. " Gopi do you remember this place." " Yes Ahemji,how can I forget this is the place you brought me to sooth my pain by making me talk to you and share my pain with you...You really helped me that day...Ahemji thank you."

"Am glad you remember and I was of help so Gopi today am asking you to help me with my dilemmas and please no apologies... I want you to talk to me freely...can you do that with me at least try." She nodded her head but did not know what help he needed but at that moment it cross her mind that they left in such a hurry that they did not inform maaji and knows she will be worried.

"Ahemji can we please call maaji...she might be worried and..." She stopped when Ahem raised his eyebrows but he dialled his mum and told her not to worry and not to wait as they will eat out. When he finished Gopi told him that he should not have told maaji that they will eat out as she has prepared his favourites. Gopi does not want to share the painful truth of the differences between her maaji and kakiji.

" Now that's sorted anything else Gopi...I mean these days you are more worried about others but I always have to ask you what to get me unlike before...I mean you have changed suddenly and I thought maybe something or someone hurt you and that's why I brought you here to talk freely like the other day." Ahem said hoping to open up the conversation wider but as usual she starts with " There is nothing wrong Ahemji...I mean I was just too tired these past weeks and there is nothing wrong."

" Fine if you won't tell me but at least do not lie to me Gopi." " but Ahemji am not lying" " okay Gopi you are not lying but you are definitely hiding things from me...why your sudden change towards me...did I wrong you Gopi that you these past weeks...I mean on holi day I shouted at you but I did apologize for ..."

At the mention of holi. she snapped her eyes and tears started to form but she fought to control them and assure him that all is well and that she did not take his scolding to heart. " Ahemji leave now...and it's getting late and maaji..." " You see Gopi that is what am talking about... these weeks you always find a way to bring mum into our talk... why can't you talk to me...am going insane thinking what wrong I have done to you and you are not helping but finding a way to run from me...am I that bad that you do not feel comfy around me... Gopi please help me understand"

" Ahemji I told you that you have not done anything wrong... all the wrong is mine..." " Stop Gopi please just stop." Ahem shouted as his patience was running out with her. He want to bit around the bust to get the truth from but she seems better at it than him and it's doing his head in.

He gave her the envelop that Jigar gave him and thought now just go straight to the point and nodded for her to open it. She popped her eyes out at the horror facing her followed by tears and not realising she has dropped to the ground along with stuff in her hands. Ahem watched in horror and wend down on his knee to gather her in his arms but was shocked to be pushed away and her words " I can't do this any more Ahemji... why me Ahemji why... first I get hope and then all is taken away before my very own eyes... this time I thought this is it but it turn out to be my worst night mare and am yet to wake up from it...am not strong enough to live on failing hope and that's why...please understand.

Ahem was puzzled as he could not understand the riddles she was speaking but let her calm down before proceeding. " am sorry Gopi I did not to hurt you...now I know your discomfort with me has to do with holi...please Gopi do not get me wrong...after eating the laddo I do not remember any thing... the photo, Jigar gave to me today...what I did that day nothing is coming to mind...please help me Gopi...I cannot ask anyone but you...so."

Gopi was not only hurting for what happen but if Ahemji did not remember what happened after the laddo...bhaaang...Ahemji was under the influence of bhaang and I gave it to him...ohhh kanaji what did I do... mamiji said it's prasad..."

Gopi what happened at the holi celebrations... I hope I did not embarass mum and you in front of people... tell me Gopi only then will I be in peace...you see I have started to have night mares of holi but all is unclear even today in our room...when we fall on the bed...I felt as I have been in the same situation but like I said all is blurry... so please make me understand my behaviour during holi

Gopi felt her hurt reduce at his plea and for the fact that she could be the reason he lost his memory by giving him bhaaang and now he is asking her help to recall but how do I tell him about us. She then told him about him dancing, taking photo with the family and her as well and playing holi with everyone and how he wanted to tell her some thing but did not get the opportunity as she was busy with the guests and food.

" Ohhh God I did all that...but how and why...all I remember is that I want to apply colour on you Gopi but..." He stopped when he realised what he said but knew it was the truth all the time since he heard her tell her kanaji that she will not play holi...he was determined to apply on her and caress her cheeks..." Gopi I ask you to talk to me freely and I do otherwise... yes I wanted to play holi with you only...to apply it on your face and hoped you too wanted to apply on me...so did we play holi?" he asked the last part hoping that they did but sad that he could not recall.

Gopi could not face him with the truth and said " well you did not disgrace maaji in your bhaang state." "What when did I have bhaang...Gopi you are still hiding something from me... did something happened between us..." "N..o no Ah...emji..not...hing and am sorry about the laddo... mamiji did not know it was bhaang laddo...I did not give to you deliberately...seriously Ahemji...I did not know..."

"Gopi I trust you so why are you shaking... Gopi I know that I wanted to tell you something before I have the laddo but after that please tell me... I can handle it... and stop denying it...if not why are you running away from me each time am near you... your smile, radiance, eagerness have all gone and replaced with aloofness, sadness and self pity...all I know Gopi is that with or without bhaang I enjoy your company...I like touching you and your smile make my day before I leave work and shines my evening and night when I return...I know you won't tell me but I have a feeling something happened...but whatever it is I want you to know that I do not regret...and my only regret will be because I was not aware but not the act...so since you have decided not to tell lets go home"

He was angrily towards the car for not recalling what he did with her and more for an opportunity missed to devour her. Gopi felt bad for giving him the laddo but was at least happy that he will not regret what they did. She was blushing red and looked at the figure ahead of her slump and wanted to ease his pain " You kissed me" she said making him stop abruptly and looking at her againg as if his hearing was faulty. "Did you say some thing Gopi?" He asked not leaving her eyes " woh you applied holi on my cheeks and asked me to do the same...you played holi with me Ahemji."

He narrowed his eye questioningly " was that all or more Gopi" with her heart racing at full speed she knew know she cannot stop " Wohh we played inside the house and ended in our room... you were throwing colour at me and then we both fell on the bed". She could not explain further as she was choking in her voice...she shut her eyes and let his burning imagination devour her face as she could not look him in the eyes.

" And what Gopi...and what?...did we?" She could not stand been so close and therefore hug him tight not wanting to let go ever.

Ahem hug her back and they stood like that for a long while " now I know why you avoided me...you were angry that I did not remember touching you, kissing you, removing your earrings, the broken bangles, me removing my kurta and then fell asleep on you...ohhh Gopi I got my blurry images back when we fell on bed and I was removing the hair strand from your face...I came to talk to you and when that image came clear, I knew I had to confront you with the truth...all the drive to here all the holi images came back...please forgive me for taking too long to recall...I believe I have serve my punishment by you ignoring me so now it's your turn to be punnished..."

"Ahemji you remembered and you are not mad or regret it" " Well Gopi how can I be mad with the woman I love that fills my heart with piece, joy, happiness and taught me patience is the best solution to all problems." By now Gopi's eyes were blurry with tears and Ahems next words "I LOVE YOU GOPI" made her cry her heart out holding on to him closer to herself and when her sobbing finishes, he added and now my dear you will not escape your punishment and before she knew what it was, he took hold of her mouth with his and kiss her senselessly driving both insane with love. " Now this one I will never forget and believe me Gopi I will not fall asleep on you without fulfilling our every need, I promise." He kissed her again and told her now they can head home to finished their SR. She lean her head on his should and a smile plastered on her face knowing her Ahemji loves her and so does her kanaji and she finished their journey home by giving him a bold kiss in the car and saying " I LOVE YOU TOO AHEMJI".

eNJOY AND DO LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS TO CHEER ME UP AS AM IN AN OWEFUL MOOD