Part 4
Amma blessed the four young kids and then turned to gia"janamdin mubarak ho gia beti. Your brats have given you your gift and now we need ours'.". gia looked at her with a question on her face while the four grinned. "haan gia beta you will have to sing my krishna bhajan for me. Please!!! ", Amma pleaded. The familiar crowd who like gia visited the temple without fail n had grown to love her chimed in with the same request and nodded encouragement at her. Gia looked at their expectant and encouraging faces and sighed."ok." she turned to the brats and smirked."come brats now that u r exceptional classics maybe you can complement me.. what say?".
Fully expecting them to groan she was shocked once again as they went to their instruments.. 'so they really have learnt this for me!!!'.She smiled while her eyes shone with a suspicious moisture at the thought of their love for her, an unconditional love , a love that accepted her for what she was n what she had been,a love she had yearned for all her existence and a love which she had been enjoying and healing in for quite some time. She felt cherished in this love even though subconsciously she couldn't stop herself of thinking of her one lost love, a love that was never meant for her''.
.She was brought out of her thoughts by her brats as they placed a mic in front of her. She shoved the dismal thought back into the deep recesses of her mind where it belonged. It had no place in her life now, her life was what was in front of her. Her brats, their family n her songs. She thanked kanha for his grace n love'. Even as she started singing of her yearning''..
Once again the pandal was filled with the beautiful harmony made more heavenly and soulful by her poignant vocals.
Manmohan kanha binti karun din rain 2
Raah takein mere naiiinnn'.. raah takein mere nain''''''''..
Ab toh daras de do'. kunj bihari''''''''''. manva hai bechain''''''''.
manmohan kanha binti karun din rain.
On the steps of the temple the Modi family stopped suddenly as they heard an eerily familiar voice, one that haunted their days and nights."gopi!!!!!!!!!!"whispered a dazed kokila and then shook her head in negation.They looked at each other and shut their eyes in pain as they remembered a voice that never would be heard again, as they remembered cremating their gopi five years back. They held onto each other on the steps while realising that their gopi was dead."this couldn't be gopi"the men rationalised even as they were drawn to that voice n its soulful words. they listened silently.
Janam janam se panth niharun'''.
Bolo kis vidh tum'''.ko pukarun
Hey natnaagar hey girdhaariii
Aah na paave bain''''
Raah takein mere nain''.
ab to daras de do kunj bihari''' manva hai bechain
Manmohan kanha binti karun din rain
"Maa?kaki?rashi?". they came out of their trance as they heard jigar's frantic voice."maa , rashi where is priya?" They all looked around worriedly wondering where their little imp had escaped to? "priya priya!!"they began searching for her. However the little imp had reached the pandal of the temple.
Attracted to the music the little girl had squeezed among the crowd, reached the makeshift stage and sat there gazing at gia admiringly. Kim pointed her out to the others who smilingly noticed the little kid sitting and watching gia di mesmerised. 'their gia di was the best' they thought. 'Her voice could enchant everyone from the cradle to those one step away from their graves especially when she sang songs that laid her soul open to everyone' mused kim as she smiled at the kid. Gia di's eyes were closed as she was singing. kim uderstood the longing in her song for her unattainable and distant kanha. 'gia di' she realised 'was singing for HER kanha'. kim sighed not understanding such a yearning but loving gia di just the same.
Meanwhile ahem had rushed to the temple after the others as he wanted to be alone for some time, alone with the thoughts of his gopi.Her eyes, her smile, her love ,her innocence and her voice when she sang her krishna aarti. Lost in her thoughts he walked up the stairs n realised that even as he remembered his gopi's aarti he could hear another voice a voice singing as sweetly for krishna as his gopi sang for him.
Sneha ki dori''''. tum sang jodi''''''''.
Hum se toh naahi''""""""" jaayegi' todi
Entranced he was pulled towards the voice with images of gopi flashing through his mind. as he reached the pandal and looked at the crowd surrounding the singer he remembered that his gopi was dead.
Hey murli dhar krishna muraari''''''''.
"gopi, gopi"he closed his eyes and savoured her name"GOPI my love my life".
As she sang she felt someone calling her ,she felt him calling her.
Tanik na aaveee chain''''
Raah takein mere nain'
She opened her eyes and looked at him . NO it couldn't be Him ,not in delhi. She was imagining it like always. She closed her eyes n opened them again to check . He was not there. Tears filled her eyes she kept them back not wanting to upset those that loved her.
ab toh daras de do kunj bihari''' manva hai bechain''
Manmohan kanha binti karun din rain
Manmohan kanha binnntiii karun din rain''
She finished the song and was immediately engulfed by loving applause from amma, from the relations she had made in the temple and her brats (the brothers and sisters she had never had). kim held a beautiful girl in her arms. Even as gia could see something familiar in her face she was smothered by hugs from her brats and surprisingly the little girl who clung to gia and kissed her . gia laughed and kissed her back "whats your name sweetheart?" "pl pli plia''''.."the lil girl lisped. Gia n the brats smiled "gopi " the girl continued. Gia froze. Kim saw gia n asked the girl "what?" the lil girl lisped again "mela naam pliyagopi hai "
Ahem had been about to go nearer to the stage to catch a glimpse of the singer when his mother kokila had tugged him away and frantically told him that priyagopi was nowhere to be found.
They were looking for priyagopi. Though she was rashi and jigar's daughter she was closest to ahem. It was ahem who had given her the name as she had given some life to him. She had brought him some hope to live for. She had brought to him, who had lost everything in his life something that reminded him of his gopi. Her eyes were as doe like as gopi's , her smile as innocent and heartwarming as gopi's. how in his sheer stupidity had he failed to realise that the innocence that shone on his neice was the same innocence that shone on gopi. The innocence which he had butchered out of gopi. He remembered when he had held her for the first time.
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Flashback
After gopi had died ahem had been left a heartbroken shell who's soul had shattered due to his own stupidity. The guilt played heavily on him.he had tortured her. (Oh yes how he had tortured her blaming her for everything that had gone wrong in his life. He loved anita he had reiterated to gopi again n again Had blamed her for ruining his chances for a life with anita. Anita'. He thought he had loved anita but the pain after gopi had left him was unsurpassable. With anita's loss he had felt a momentary grief for the loss ofsomething that had the potential of being great but it was not the heart wrenching gloom that had surrouded him after gopi left the modi mansion.
Days, weeks and months had gone by but the grief did not shake away.he missed her. Oh! How he had missed her when he had searched subconsciously for Work had ceased to be a distraction from her memories. He had fought this love for gopi with everything in him,refusing to believe that it was true love this time. 4months had passed before he had let his love for gopi n gopi flood his existence. B4 he had surrendered his self completely to her.
it had taken two months then to find her and he had been ecstatic that he would finally confess his love, apologise and remarry her.He would reunite with his gopi and nothing could stop him. Nothing? He asked himself now in black humour. Oh yes nothing but he had not counted on death''. He remembered reaching her place n being told of the accident and death. He had rushed to the hospital not beleiving the cruel punishment fate had meted out to him. He had looked at a badly burned body while the doctors handed him all his gopi's documents and possessions n declaring gopi dead.
The pain that had been there ever since gopi had left him had now shattered him completely, ripped him to pieces as he gathered his dead gopi in his arms n screaming "u cannot die.not Now. Atleast not b4 I telll u I love you. I love u gopi. U shud have punished me in any other way but not this' not dying before I confessed my love to you. U cant leave me this way.i love you gopi I love you. Can you hear me gopi I love you.plz accept my love .hear me gopi plz hear me I love u. "
"its too late son she is dead"said a crying kokila' ahem hugged her and cried, "I was too late .too late to say I love you gopi.mom how will I live without telling her of my love.i love u gopi plz hear me"no response and he fainted. ) It was what had finally convinced him that he loved gopi. That he never had loved anita. Anita had been an infatuation gopi had been his life, a life so ruthlessly snatched away leaving him to remain an empty shell.
The pain of not telling gopi that he loved her had left him hollow even two years after the cremation . Even though he said these words to her daily, it was not the same . He could not see the happiness his words wud have brought to gopi's face.All he could remember was a shattered gopi.. a gopi he had callously shattered.
Thinking about gopi as always he had walked down as his mother called him for the naming ceremony of his neice. He went to the their temple to oblige his family not really interested in anything anymore. As he closed his eyes he heard a gurgling laughter that reminded him of his childlike gopi. He asked rashi to let him hold the baby for a while. The family sighed happily "finally ahem is thinking of something beyond gopi".they thought as rashi handed him the baby.
Ahem gathered her in his arms and in wonderment and amazement saw his gopi's eyes as they shone at him with trust, the same trust gopi would have in her eyes. the family asked him to name her. He murmured 'gopi'. Kokila n the others gave a watery smile as they too had seen gopi in the baby. The pandit interrupted saying her name should start with 'p' and ahem said "priyagopi" (beloved gopi). The family smiled n so rashi's daughter was named priyagopi (their beloved gopi)''''''
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PRESENT
Ahem had lost his gopi. He couldn't lose his last hope of living too. He couldn't lose priyagopi too. Not ever and definitely not on the same day that had shattered his life five years ago. He prayed to kanhaji "Don't take her away from me. Haven't you punished me enough?" "priyagopi!" he called even as he frantically joined his family in their search .
"Priya! Priya!Priyagopi!" called Rashi and rushed in relief to the woman who was walking upto them with priyagopi. She thanked the woman. Kim smiled and said "lovely daughter. lovely name". Rashi smiled "thankyou". "Can I ask you something?" kim said. "Sure", replied rashi. "priyagopi is a pretty unusual name. What does it mean?"kim asked. "Oh!", chirped rashi, "it means 'our beloved gopi'. As kim looked on confused ,rashi continued ,"Actually gopi was a sweetheart of a person who brought me and my husband together n so we named our daughter priyagopi." Hmm kim smiled nice name."bye take care". She was about to turn back when she saw a man coming up behind . priyagopi saw ahem and hugged him saying 'dada'. Ahem laughed and saying "beta don't scare your dada like this again." He turned to kim saying 'thankyou' only to be confused by her eyes that glared at him with anger n then filled with pain as she looked over her shoulder as if searching for someone. Kim made an effort to smile at him and said "'bye. It was nice meeting you. Take care of your wife and child in future "' n she rushed off before ahem could correct her.
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