Chapter 22
it was midnight and gulaal was sitting in her office…suddenly constable came in the office and said "madam south delhi k dhanya bank se signal aa raha hai wanha alarm baj raha hai..Chori hui hai"
gulaal said "dhanya bank woo to naye place mein shift ho gaaya hai….phir wanha kya hai…jo koi churayega"
constable "pata nahi madam shayyad kuch ho chal kar dekhte hai"
gulaal said "haan chalo chal kar dekhete hain"
gulaal and three constable sat on the jeep and drove to the place they entered the place it was empty and vacant constable said "false alarm bhi to ho sakta hai yanha kuch bhi nahi hai yanha koi kyu aayega yeh furniture bhi shift ho jayega"
gulaal said "haan phir bhi check kar lete hain"
she intstructed the two constable to check the terrace and asked the other constable to accompany her….she went slowly near the locker room and asked the other constable to search near the office she was looking in the other direction suddenly a hand grabbed her by arm and put the other hand on her mouth and dragged her in the locker room and closed the door
gulaal was astonished she couldn't see anything in the dark but soon she realized the touch she said "kesar"
kesar put his hand on her mouth again "shhh" asking her to remain silent
they looked at each other in silence – awful silence no sounds but the stormy wailing of the discontent winds inside them….kesar looked deep into her eyes- eyes that were his solace he then stared her lips that rippled his thought and brought a placid smile on his face..he looked at her face and his heart that was shivering like a star now shone as proud full moon
gulaal looked at him and removed his hand and asked angrily "tum yanha"
he said vulnerably "aur kya karta mein mere pass koi raasta nahi tha
tum phone par baat nahi karti ho tumhare aas pass itni security hai k chah kar bhi tumhare pass nahi aa sakta aur kya karta mein kyu khud ko mujhse door kar liya"
he said in soft voice "tumse milne k liye yahi raasta bacha tha"
she replied nervously "mujhse milne k liye bank mein chori kar loge"
kesar "mein majboor tha"
gulaal "u r crazy"
kesar "haan gulaal hota jaa raha hun…kya ho raha hai"
he hold her and said "kya kar rahi ho mere saath…kyu mere neend chura rahi ho kyu mera sukun le liya hai ….
Gulaal was speechless…she just deeply stared him with her sublte passion for him
He moved his hand on her arm and said "ankhen band karta ho to tumhara chehra ankhon k saamne aa jata hai….aankhen kholu to tum ass pass nazar aati ho…aisa lagta hai har pal har lamha tumhara saaya mera peecha kar raha hai…yeh sab kya ho raha hai"
gulaal rolled her eyes in fear she felt exactly the same way wen she imagined kesar few days back..she had even seek pyshatirist help…but she was convinced that kesar was her case she had to follow him think about him…her hallucination were definetly backed by the reason
but y kesar felt same for her..y he was so restless…she shook out of wits
kesar said "gulaal"
he drew her very close..he held her with subtle, stealthy, powerful passion gulaal couldnt resist the burning desire..her heart was perfectly in accord with him and this moment thier thoughts their mind were blank
she closed her eyes not to open it as it was like a dream for her….her kesar was right infront of her holding her close to him taking her loneliness away from her…..he was looking at her without blinking his eyes..his whole world was infront of him and he wanted to capture her in his eyes he wanted to take her forever….his eyes were fixed.. he passed his arms around her waist he could nt say anything…. this woman had made him helpless at her mercy.. his eyes were talking to her asking for her response to held him back to embrace him in her soft arms she could take him or reject…if she would reject he could have died instantly….for him it was life or deadth…his passion made her shiver she quivered…the quite flame ran over her…..she was about to pass her arms around him…about to surrender herself
and he heard the knock at the door the constable were thumping the door hard
they said "madam kya aap ander hai"
Kesar shut his eyes in desperation
the world was between them like the river between the two bank preventing them to meet
Kesar looked at her and parted with her with heavy heart and started walking towards the window and before leaving he said in desperation "jaate jaate itna to bata do ki kya karu mein yeh paagalpan khatam ho jaaye..Kaise apne aap ko tumhare khayaalo se aazad karu gulaal"
gulaal looked at him and said to herself "kis se puch rahe ho"
the one who hadn't understood her quest for him
and kesar looked at her he he was exhilarated he didn't want to go away from her but he collected himself and slid out of the window and disappeared in darkness
….the constable keep knocking the door but gulaal couldn't hear anything as his word was ringing in her ears…she was looking at the window with the dazzled face
Finally constable broke in and saw gulaal they called out loud "madam kanha kho gayi"
gulaal turned back and asked "haan"
Constable repeated again "madam kya hua hum kabse aawaz laga rahe the kya ho gaya tha"
Gulaal made an excuse she said "woo meine suna nahi"
Constable "madam humne sab jagah check kar liya koi nahi hai aur yanha kuch hai hi nahi churane ko kya churayega koi"
gulaal hung her head down and said "shayyad false alarm tha chalo chalte hain"
Afterwards gulaal came home and quickly closed her door she sat on the floor floded her arms his words kept haunting him
"kya kar rahi ho mere saath…kyu mere neend chura rahi ho kyu mera sukun le liya hai
tumhe pata hai ….ankhen band karta ho to tumhara chehra ankhon k saamne aa jata hai….aankhen kholu to tum ass pass nazar aata ho…aisa lagta hai har pal har lamha tumhara saaya mera peecha kar raha hai…yeh sab kya ho raha hai"
she squeezed her eyes shut
farq padta hai gulaal gulaal tumhari baatein se tumahari zindagi se….tumhari har baat se farq padta hai
farq padta hai kyuki parvah karta hun farq padta hai kyunki har pal tumhare bare mein sochta hun farq padta hai kyunki
becoz I
she put her hand on her face and remembered the vunerability in him….she was frightened and puzzled by the hopeless passion for her in him…what did he want y he came to meet her y he was so much restless that he committed a crime just to see her…he definelty wanted something that was mysterious nameless and taboo for her and she shrank in fear..she quivered
she said to herself "kyu nahi rok paa rahi thi khud ko………kitne kareeb tha woo mere…… aur mein chah kar bhi khud ko azaad nahi kar paa rahi thi…aisa nahi hona chahiye……aisa kuch bhi nahi hona chahiye…papa unhe kitna garv hai mujh par unhe pata chalega to"and she shrank….nahi plz bhagwaan aisa kuch bhi mat hone dena" and she weeped bitterly
Aftersometime she stood and wiped her tears and imprisioned her heart and soul inside her though her will was restless
her deep desire was flowing in silence like a stream and her mind was restless…..she hated that she had reacted to him
she was thinking about him and heard revji was calling her
she looked at the clock and saw it was 10:30 a.m. she sat all night thinking about him….comtemplating more about her thoughts about her emotions about her feeling for him…the servant knocked the door and said sahib bula rahe hain dushyant sahib bhi aaye hain gulaal stood up and told her servant that she will join them in 10 minutes
with heavy heart she got ready and climbed down the stairs quietly
. Now, I am sure Kesar is going to do something drastic (lyk "chal naa gulaal" scene). 
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