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PART 11
Maan embraced her as if embracing his life. In those few hours he died every second in fear of losing her and holding her safe in his arms was like getting a new life for him.
Maan's embrace oozed care and longing but Geet's shattered heart refused to feel or believe anything. She stiffened in his embrace blocking herself from any emotions.
After his escalating heartbeats became normal he felt her stiffening in his embrace. He felt hurt and cursed himself for being the reason for this situation.
He instantly left her.
MAAN: Geet please aage aa jao.
Like an obedient child she moved to the front seat.
As the car moved on both were lost in their own thoughts...
GEET(thinking): Apki bachchi bilkul toot chuki hai babaji please ab aur pariksha mat lena. Maan ko mujhse door hi rakhna.
MAAN(thinking): Ye mujhse kya ho gaya bina kisi galti ke Maine use itni thes pahuncha di ki jo Geet mere dantne pe bhi mere paas aane se nahin ghabrati thi wo mere choone se ghabra rahi hai...
GEET(thinking): Babaji main janti hoon ki main hi jhalli ho gai thi Maan ne thodi si care kya kar di main sochne lagi ki unki nafrat mere liye khatam ho gai hai...
MAAN(thinking): Maan how can you behave so selfish? Tu uske liye attraction feel karta hai ismein uski kya galti hai? Ek to tune uske saath...(he closed his eyes in frustration) upar se tune use apni badi si ego bachane ke liye jo mun mein aya bol dia...
GEET(thinking): Aur wo sab bhi unhone nashe mein kia aur main jhalli pyar samajh baithi...(she was trying very hard to be strong and hold herself but her flowing tears were still making her vulnerable)ye bhi nahin socha ki wo mujhse pyar kyun karenge...main to unke samne kuch bhi nahin hoon...
Maan was feeling really horrible seeing her tears but didn't know how to stop them.
MAAN: Please Geet mujhe maaf kar do I know meri baaton se tum bahut hurt hui ho but I swear I didn't mean any of those things...I just spoke all that in spur of the moment and I'm really sorry for hurting you!!!!!!
Geet was shocked hearing him seeking HER forgiveness...
Her mind shouted "thats another illusion Geet don't believe in it. It will only shatter your shattered self further."
GEET: Its ok Maan waise bhi ye to meri bewakoofi thi na ki apke nashe mein doobe us kamzor pal ko main pyar samajh baithi. Mafi to mujhe apse mangni chahiye apni bewakoofi ke liye.
His heart shouted "NO Geet NO it was all my fault" but saying sorry and taking back his words was more than enough his ego could take.
GEET: Par ab main ye achche se samajh chuki hoon ki main apke pyar ke layak na kabhi thi na ho sakti hoon. Main to sirf apki nafrat hi deserve karti hoon.
An excruciating pain was seething in his heart with her words. It was impossible to hear anymore.
He was going to say something to stop her when he realised that they have reached home...
MAAN: Geet ghar aa gaya andar chalte hain. Baatein baad mein kar lenge pehle tum kuch kha lo.
Gauri was their in the hall when they entered. She got really worried seeing Geets pale and tear stricken face but Geet ran away from their so she caught Maan.
Gauri: Kya hua Geet ko wo itni pareshan kyun lag rahi hai? Subah bhi jab wo aise hi bhaag gai to mujhe ajeeb laga par mujhe laga mera waham hai.
MAAN: Mom please pehle ap uske liye khana la dijie phir main batata hoon.
Gauri wanted to get her answer first but she guessed that Geet hasn't had anything since morning so she left for the kitchen first.
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Maan was agonized at himself. He went straight to his gym to take out his frustration on self. He was kicking and punching in air with all the power he had...and simultaneously he was having flashbacks from the morning...
'how thinking his lustful sin to be his love her face was flushed, she had that beautiful glow on her face making her no less than an angel, her eyes twinkled with his reflection in those enchanting hazels...'
Maan's lips purred up into a soft smile recalling that divine beauty of hers.
'their passionate kiss...how she responded with all her love n passion...and then his pushing her away...'
His face agonised remembering that moment of his delinquency...recalling how she called out his name in that dazed state not understanding anything his eyes were red with anger on his own emotionless act...
Recalling his immoral words his heart was set ablaze...
He was sweating badly not ready to stop pushing his body far from limits...he wanted to punish himself for all those acts...
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Geet ran inside the washroom and burst into tears she was trying to hold since long...
GEET(thinking): Babaji main samajh gai hoon ki Maan ko meri fikr sirf is pariwar ke karan hai. Wo jante hain ke mom dad dadima Annie ye sab log mujhse bahot pyar karte hain aur agar mujhe kuch ho gaya to sab bahot dukhi ho jaenge aur Maan in sab ko dukhi nahin dekh sakte par is pyar ke ehsaas ka kya karoon Jo Maan ke har meethe shabd par is dil mein halchal macha deta hai. Ye main kya sochne lagi? Nahin Geet in ehsaason ko dafna do aur agar in pe bas na chale to is dil ko dafna do kyunki jiske liye ye dhadakta hai wo ise nafrat aur dard ke alawa aur kuch nahin de sakta.
She burst into fresh set of tears with those aching thoughts...
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Maan(thinking): Main mom ko kya jawab doon? Us waqt to maine mom ko khana lane bhej dia par ab wo mujhse poochengi to main kya kahoonga? Par meri first priority Geet ki sehat honi chahiye so I should go and check Geet ne kuch khaya ki nahin..
(Abgina : chalo geet ne nhin geet khyal ne to ise roka warna mujhe
to laga tha k ye apne ap ko yahin dher kar lega kasrat kar kar k ;-))
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Gauri entered the room...
Gauri: Geet! Geet beta kahan ho?
She cotrolled her flooding tears and maintained her voice with difficulty...
GEET: Mom main yahan hoon bas abhi aai...
Gauri: Its ok beta I was just worried.
As soon as geet came outside Gauri asked her to eat. Geet just drank water and said she doesn't feel like having anything.
Gauri: Beta tumne subah se kuch nahin khaya hai...aisi kya baat ho gai ki tum itni pareshan ho?
GEET: Kuch nahin mom bas hum wo competition haar gae na to isiliye thoda mood off hai...
Gauri: Par beta ek competition haar ke koi itna pareshan to nahin hota...
GEET: Nahin mom sachchi pehla competition aur main itni nervous ho gai ki sab gadbad ho gaya :-(...
Gauri: Are beta tum bhi na...aise bahot competition aaenge aage ek kharab ho gaya to kya?Aise khana peena thodi na chhod dete hain...tum aajkal ke bachche bhi na!!!!!
GEET: Please mom abhi nahin main thak bhi gai hoon pehle thoda so leti hoon phir uth ke kha loongi...
How could she eat...when her throat was blocked with unshed tears still trying to breakout with his words still echoing through her soul...
Gauri: Theek hai beta pehle so hi lo par uthne ke baad pakka kha lena aur haan aage aise hazaar maque milenge to itna upset hone ki koi zaroorat nahin hai...
GEET: Ji mom!
Gauri was going out of the room when she saw Maan coming...
MAAN: Mom Geet ne kuch khaya?
Gauri: Kahan beta ek competition ke liye apne aap ko itna stress kar liya is ladki ne...aur ab keh rahi hai ki neend aa rahi hai...main tumhare paas hi aane wali thi ye kehne ke liye ki try kar lo shayad tumhari baat maan le...
MAAN(thinking): Main hi to uske har dard ka karan hoon meri kyun sunegi? Par dard diya hai to dawa bhi mujhe hi karni hogi...kuch bhi karke Geet ko khilana hoga.
MAAN: Ok mom ye mujhe de dijiye main try karta hoon.....
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As soon as she lay on the couch all her self control drowned and she burst into tears of melancholy...
Maan saw her curled in a ball on the couch while crying her heart out...his heart cried with her...
He again blasted himself for afflicting the sweet and smiling Geet...
He entered and went straight to her...Geet immediately got up hiding her tears...
MAAN: Please kuch kha lo Geet...
Geet's heart was overwhelmed by the amount of care and love she could feel in his voice...
GEET(thinking): Ap itne pyar se bolenge to main zahar bhi kha loongi Maan...
But her mind called her back to reality the next second...
GEET: Please Maan mujhe nahin khana mera mann nahin hai...
MAAN: Geet please maan jao dekho tum pehle se kamzor ho aise karogi to tumhari tabyat bigar jaegi...
GEET: Ap fikar mat kijie Maan apne gharwalon se mujhe bhi pyar hai...apne karan main unhe pareshan nahin hone doongi...par main bhi insaan hoon...mana galti meri thi par jhatka to laga hai na? Sambhalne mein thoda waqt lagega... Par ap fikar mat kijiye main samajh gai hoon ki aap mujhe bardasht kar rahe hain to sirf gharwalon ke liye aur aap mujhse sirf nafrat karte hain... Main maa ki maut ki zimmedar hoon aur iske liye mujhe jo saza mile wo kam hai... Aage se main poora dhyan rakhoongi ki apni galti main dobara kabhi na dohraoon warna dard to mujhe hi hoga...
Her each word was burning him...the pain that her words were causing was indescribable...
But when she reminded him of Rano's death his mind won the battle and his ego hindered him to try further...
His mind justified his actions reminding him of Rano...
MAAN: Theek hai mat khao par tumhari sehat ko leke gharwalon ke chehre par ek bhi shekan aai to mujhse bura koi nahin hoga...YAAD RAKHNA!!!!!
He kept the plate on the table with force and left for his study...
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Several days passed Geet was not at all herself...her smile completely vanished... Most of the times she was lost somewhere... She only ate when someone noticed that she is not having anything properly and pestered her to eat... She completely doomed herself...
Everyone noticed Geet's doomed state but she made all kinds of excuses from studies pressure to change of place but never shared her agony with someone...
How could she??? How could she ruin Maan's image in front of everyone??? So sharing was never an option for her...but dis melancholy was taking her deeper into depression with each passing day...
Maan was missing the real Geet badly...
He was always reminded of their suhagrat when even after his several attempts her smile didn't budge while now he could not even find a hint of smile on her face...
He remembered how she was always alert and used to keep running from here to there doing something or the other but these days alert Geet sounds alien...
Her forever sparkling eyes lost even the tiniest glint from them...
White replaced the red color on her ever glowing cheeks...
But still he never tried to talk to her thinking its better for her that he stays away from her since he can never forget about Rano's death so he would never be able to reciprocate the love and care she showers on him...
Thus expecting that others will bring her out of that depressed state he waited to see the glint of smile on her face...
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Edited by crazydevil87 - 13 years ago
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