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Devika.

@Devika.

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Posted: 13 years ago

#161

Thank you friends for the great response, and being with me in this journey... and more than anything showing that enthusiasm to know how everything will get settled, I am also travelling with you guys only, i plan for something but comes out differently as i type in, the chain of thought influence by the way the charactors responds.. so maybe it is difficult for you to followl but this is how my charactors at this moment reacting to each other... the story will contiue as i am going to type the next part too, free till afternoon today.. so let me try to catch up on it.. till then hope you will like to read this update... I am sorry, when such part comes i need little more clarity than just saying and running away.. so..

Devika.

Part 147: Why dad?

It was Dev's sound which was heard inside the Bhatt house. He was running around holding RUhi in his arms and was lauhging and speaking loud...

Sushma: Wow Suchi , Dev has become an expert, see how easily he is handling Ruhi in one arm and still able to do things.

Suchi : I don't know Sushma, he never keep her down, whenever she is awake, we can find her in his arms only, and now if we ask also she cling back to him. Actually it is after your arrival only he is behaving this high, or else evenings he will be out to meet someone with something, or else roaming around inside home with Ruhi.

Lechu: Let me ask something why it is Ruhi Ruhi now a days, didn't I tell you all to call her chudki.

Sushma: its all her only na, then

Lechu: but Chudki is special

Sushma: ok my beautiful bride, so when Sammy is going to come

Lechu felt shy that she ran away from there.

Sushma teased saying: look at her blushing cheek

Lechu turned once to look at her buva and disappeared into her room.

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Radhika was seeing the escalated actions of Dev especially after dadaji's and sushma's arrival. She saw his clinging near his dadaji all the time, making fun and teasing lechu with his company. And as Surender comes in, he walk away or totally ignore his presence and talk something seriously to dadaji about the village work or soemthing. She noticed the heavy face of Surender too in the middle of that forced smiles at his family.

Surender came to hold Ruhi , but Dev kind of tried to move away. Suddenly Radhika came and took Ruhi from Dev's hand saying, " Sudev is on line to talk to you about something".

Radhika then went near Surender saying: Papa, can you hold her few minutes

Surender happily took his little one from radhika's hand with a smile

Radhika as she walked away: she was really missing her dadaji these days very badly, I told her that you are busy with so many things around, but not believing me, so you only tell her ok

Surender smiled listening and looking at Ruhi's curious face: did you miss me! Ha, what to do ? after your papa's arrival, you always sleep by the time I reach here, and morning you wake up late, then how can I play with you, um, u tell me?

Radhika felt a relief and in a paster pace followed dev to their room

Dev entered the room to pick his cell. He looked at the phone and then tried to check on the logs, but there was no missing calls or incoming call

Dev looked up in doubt

Radhika closed the door behind and came near

Dev: Radhika

"I know, I told a lie" Radhika said as she walked near to him

Dev looked at her surprisingly: what?

Radhika coming near , took the phone away from him : I think I know you well now, you changed, tell me what is going on in your mind?

Dev: Radhika

"I know, you may say nothing,... no,,,, there is something"

"Somehting like what?' Dev asked strightly looking into her eyes

"why you are avoiding papa purposefully?' she asked without wasting a minute...

Suddenly Dev moved his eyes away and said " no I am not, why should i?"

Radhika moving to face him: that's what I am also asking why? You asked me whether I will be with you, Yes I am with you, but tell me what is going on, I cannot see you acting like this, I know it is hurting both papa and you. then why you need to behave like this?

Dev: no he is not hurt or anything.

Radhika: how do you know, I can see it, he is forcing himself to smile, seeing your awkward behavior towards him...

Dev: Radhika, leave me alone

Radhika: no I am not, if you have any problem to tell me, its ok, but talk to dad once and see whether that can bring your heaviness down, and then wrapping her arms around him she said: becasue i want to get you back, you changed, I want my Dev back...

Dev was unable to respond for few minutes, then to satisfy her , he said: " I want to talk to him RAdhika, but I don't know how?

Radhika moving back slightly , looked at his face : you will find it, but please talk to him

He felt her wet throat as she said that

Dev just wrapped his arms around her and said: I know Radhika, may be it is painful for him, and it is painful for me too. Why you are not seeing that?

Radhika: I know it is painful for you too, I said that already , so only I asked you to talk to papa.

Dev: um, I will

Radhika: promise

Dev: um

Radhika: today

Dev: um

Radhika moved back and looked at him and said: thanks

Dev: for what, I suppose to be saying thanks na

Radhika: really then say it, I will take it

Dev: Radhika

Radhika: I just want to see the smile on your face, nothing else

Dev: and me too

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The dinner time got over and everyone was dispersing after a small chitchat . Radhika looked at Dev, and Dev recognized the meaning.

Dev: Dad, I want to talk to you

Surender stopped surprisingly and then : sure

Suchi: now what? Anything we are missing?

Dev: no mom, this is about our business

Suchi: oh that, I thought you are joining after Lehcu's marriage , anyway I am tired, let me go to bed.

Dev walked along with Surender to his room and then closed the door behind.

Surender went and sat on his chair, and looked at Dev

Dev just went and stood behind one of the chairs, and tried to dig out the words

Seeing the silence , Surender: Dev, what is it? Tell me

Dev: vo. He looked up at his dad and then moved his gaze away

Surender was studying each and every expression of his son.

Surender: Dev

With a slight jerk, as if listening to his dad's call: ji

Surender looked at him again with an expectation

Dev: vo dad. I , I am not joining back

Surender looked at him seriously , it did shock him, but covering it up well: and the reason is

Dev gazing away: I just don't want to

Surender calming himself down inside: that's fine with me, so what's your plan?

Dev raised his head and looked at his dad again: hu?

Surender: I mean, you are not joining back with my business, that is totally fine, but then what is your next plan?.

Dev: vo mei, I will think about it

Surender : then you need to give the reason too, why you are not joining back, if you have to think about it.

Dev looked at him in question

Surender: I mean, I am not forcing you to join back, but if you don't have any other plan for now, then what is the reason for not joining our business

Dev: I have different plan

Surender: I am asking that only, what is it?

Dev: that

He hesitated to say it out

Surender: why it is difficult for your to say it out, I never stood against any of your decisions, you decided to go to U.S, you decided to join our business, and now also it is your decision and as a father, I am asking you "what's your next paln, or tell me the reason for not joining back?"

Dev looked at his dad's calm face: I know dad, you never stood against any of my decision, but can I ask you something, why did you kept us away from Chandenpur? More than anything... from Dadaji and Buva? Definitely they did something wrong to you , right? What is it? I want to know.

Blood just drained away from Surender's face , getting up from the seat, he asked in his unbelievable tone: what?

Dev: are you shocked?

Surender trying to normalize himself: no, what did you ask me?

Dev: let me make it more clear. I need an answer from you? Why you kept us away from chandenpur for this long years? What is the reason?

Surender: that doen't have any place with your future plans

Dev: yes dad, it has. and i want to know the reason behind it.

Getting up from his chair, Surender turned his face away and blindly looked at the cream color wall, and then his eyes just focused on the nice garden paint that was hanging right behind his office chair. Looking into those different colors , he just tried to buy sometime , to comprehend the question, as he was unable to take that in completely, he kept his hand rubbed over his chin with the support of other arm.

Dev kept quiet looking at his dad's back, and waited for an answer.

Time ticked by

"Dad"

Dev's voice was unable to bring him back to reality. His dad's mind was going thru all that incident that he buried inside his deep mind for years and years, which he never try consciously to dig out by himself. He once said that to Suchi, and when that letter came to take me back into that place, my eyes were paining constantly , don't know for what, for holding those tears back and keeping it heavily inside , or is it was because of the flashes of faces that appeared even after closing my eyes , the darkness brought my lids were failed to take them away form me..it took its time,

... The distance was added by the time and I was unable to close it as I always tried to escape from that situation, it was a hard for me to face everyone at that moment, everyone was showing that sympathy, which was hurting me more, and on the top of all that mom left me alone, and the people's talk on how I take all that in me, how I will survive... the sympathy touch and look, and talk. Everything, the talks and eyes were flashing in his ears and eyes, and he felt that throbbing pain over his head, he just tried to close his ears and tried to shut his eyes too tight to take everything away.

Dev saw his dad's reaction, but he didn't felt like going near and comforting him at this moment, he wished that to come out from his dad, which his suppressed inside for all these years from his kids, and to feel the relief. The fear in him should be released and he should atleast try to face and realize that dadaji and buva exist with same love and care, who missed his son and her brother for all these years. They also suffered in that situation, he was not alone.

" I think you need time, but dad I will be waiting, I want to know, and I need an answer, then I let you know about my plan too" saying that Dev walked away from the office..

Dev tried to walk away getting out from the office, but suddenly he felt the hold on his wrist. He got shocked and looked behind ..questioning him ..

"you need an answer, then listen"

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thanks for stpping by, next part coming up later today for sure.

Devika

:)part 148: https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/47017913

Edited by Devika. - 13 years ago

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Devika.

@Devika.

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+ 2

Posted: 13 years ago

#162

Originally posted by: Myra.nelly
Thats great,thanks 4 informing...ok,58 min left 😆

🤣made it within 11 minutes... 😃😃😃😃😃

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Mirela

@Myra.nelly

Rocker

Posted: 13 years ago

#163

People's talk,the pain to hear the bad words,that was what kept his father away from dadaji and bua...totaly understandable,i am sure dev too will cool down when he will know...Loved the way radh made him talk,he is not this closed inside amd radh knew and made him rethink...how sweet is to see their bonding! Also liked to see how dev tried to take ruhi away from her dadaji just the way surrender took away dev from his own dadaji,clever move,taste from his own medicine!! I loved it,thanks devika!

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harianjana

@harianjana

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Posted: 13 years ago

#164

devika u really know how to hold on ur readers really i am waiting for next give it fast

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radhika5

@radhika5

Dazzler

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Posted: 13 years ago

#165

A very emotional update-Dev and Surender's pain--was really felt through your writing, even in the midst of all the activities...

waiting for Surender's reasoning----and Dev's reaction to it. Will Dev understand? decision made at any given moment may be analyzed very differently later in life by other people...

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ekta15

@ekta15

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+ 2

Posted: 13 years ago

#166

OH ,I WAS WAITING FOR THIS FOR SUCH A LONG TIME AND WAS CONFUSED TOO
but still confusion is there,will sort hopefully in next
u know my heart was doing dhak-dhak when dev entered in office.don't know now a day i am feared of ur dev's anger ,how he will ask questions,he will manage peacefully calmly or not.don't know why? his changes are really reflected in ur writtings very well.
di,pls soon give,i will not be able to wait today more.so pls pls pls.
and yes thanks for update

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abhilasha_dream

@abhilasha_dream

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Posted: 13 years ago

#167

just can't wait for the next one.. Hurry Up darling..

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Devika.

@Devika.

Dazzler

+ 2

Posted: 13 years ago

#168

OMG!!!;;; thank you so much.. such a quick response, i only need that... truely.. really really thank you Myra, hari, radhika5, ekta, nycsweetie, and abhi... thank you so much... ok, next one coming up... was able to type in the middle of one dr's appnt scehuling and a friend's call.. hope i didn't take much time ... ok no more bhashan.. it is coming in 15 minutes..

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Devika.

@Devika.

Dazzler

+ 2

Posted: 13 years ago

#169

Part 148: the tension build up inside the mind and its relief...

Dev surprisingly looked at his mom's questing eyes

"why you are looking at me like that, don't you need an answer." Suchi asked determinately

"Mom" he called out unbelievably

"ha mom, I know there is something going on inside you, and noticing all these changes recently, when dad got confused about your decision, I tried to pacify him saying you may want to take Lechu's marriage responsibility, but Dev, you surprised me too, is that what was going inside you, you were acting all this time!!!!, I never expected this from you, you should have asked me, I thought we are very close, but now I realize how distant we are" Suchi said in one breath in an unbelievable tone...

"mom" he called her again helplessly

"now you need an answer for keeping you away from Chandenpur?, what you want your dad to say it out Dev, now I know you came to know all about it, but then why you are not trying to understand your dad's situation, he was at his young age, where one love to be recognized by everyone, nothing ever questioned his self esteem till that day , he was proud of himself, being the center of attention, but then all of a sudden everything changed in front of him, he felt down in front of the whole village, on the top of all that he lost his mom too,... so how you think your dad to respond?, he felt first time so down and stood bowing his head in front of all others, only he wanted to escape from all that talk around, all that sympathy around...,. You know sometimes the sympathy make you feel more weaker, and at that age anyone do anything to escape from such situations, and your dad did the same only, at least he didn't try to hurt himself, he only moved out from there, and tried to face the world in a different way, by his own... and he succeed in his own way"

Suchi released his hand and looked into his son's eyes deeply : is that answer your question, or you need more explanation?

Dev: mom

Suchi fanned her hand out stopping him: no Dev, don't call me mom now, I never thought you can behave this badly to your parents, that also to your dad whom you always gave that respect, you always wish to be like him, and now, I feel I also made a big mistake by taking everything granted.

Dev: I want you to listen to me too mom, please, atleast ones

Suchi looked at him, and found his wetting eyes

"now what, what else you want to know, tell me"... Suchi said very calmly

"No Suchi, he asked me the question, I am the one who needs to give the answer"' Surender walked out near to them

Surender coming near to Suchi rested his one hand on her shoulder and looking into her eyes he said: Ha Suchi, you always remained as my strength, when I felt so down you tried to lift my spirit with that smile, and when I struggled you tried to give me the confidence with your words , when I missed my family you tried to fill that gap'

... it was all because of you and in turn I asked you only one thing 'that you never remind me about chandenpur, because I wished to take away that page from my life totally forever,..

... thought I will be never able to face the village people again in my life, thought I will be never able to give answer to my babuji for the mom's lost, thought I will never able to answer my sister's concerns for taking away all the love, for taking away my dadi's dreams of tomorrow'

... yes Suchi, I went so weak to face all my dear and near ones, and the passing time made the distance more and more and made it difficult for me to face it courageously until we received that letter.

...Again you gave me the confidence to look back and gave me the strength to stand on my feet and face it, and the reaction of babuji , Sushma, and even dadi surprised me, they never questioned me for their loss, they never made me feel like anything happened at all, just felt like I was returning to home after a long time, they made me feel like I am back home, and I thanked you for giving me the strength.

... and slowly I realized I was wrong, I realized what I missed, but then you again lifted my spirit by saying "you made it, that is more than losing it further" .. yes Suchi, and now my son is questioning me for keeping him away from Chandenpur, for keeping him away from his dadaji and buva, and yes he has the right to question me Suchi, let him ask, I am answerable and let me give the answer Suchi, please at least once let me face it.

Suchi stood quietly, with the tears rolling down from her eyes, as if telling him that she is with him. Surender tried to give back that comforting smile.

Dev stood with a froze mind witnessing his parents talk, and the way supported each other, all of a sudden he became a stranger in front of them.

Surender slowly turned and looked at his son's face, he tried to give that smile.

Dev's mouth went dry and none of his senses responded back that easily.

"ha Dev, so you want to know why I kept you away from your dadaji and your buva and the beautiful chandenpur, right?"

Dev forced the words out: I think I got the answer dad

Surender keeping his right arm over his son's shoulder: No , that is not an answer, that was just my state of mind , but if I have to give you a specific answer then I should admit that I was feared to face the truth, but then the truth which I believed was not exactly existed, ever, and I realized that very late, till I stepped back into that land.

...So I take that blame , I take that responsibility for keeping you away from your dadaji, for denying your right to be loved, I am sorry my son, but it was not intentional, it happened as my thoughts, that is it, and nothing else, and I realized it very late, very very late, I know what I missed, I know what you all missed,...

... but if I think of it now, I say if I haven't done that, I won't be getting my strength of life, my confidence in my life in the name and roop of your mom, and she is the one who helped me to shape my life, she gave me the happiest things in my life that is you and Lechu, SHe tease me reminding me abotu my absence when things happens, but that is her love and it is her confidence that let me move on..

... and I am proud of myself when I look back at my achievements and the reason is your mom. So I am not regretting about what I lost, when I see what I gained, that's all my son, that's all. Maybe Sushma is stronger than me that she not only helped dad to overcome the sitation but made him to be active himslef, and Mohan also acted just like me, he covered my abscence... so in front of them my acievement is nothing, but still I am happy for getting back to my land, to my babuji, my sister, my home ...

... I don't know whether I was able to give the reason to you, but I have only this to tell you. And ask you to forgive me for keeping you away from your dadaji and buva..."

Dev stood with tears in his eyes: sorry dad, I never meant to hurt your feelings, when I came to know about it, I found a thick wall that was existing between us, I felt weird, I felt like I don't know you at all, you were always my hero, you were always that friend when it comes to our family time, but then how can you keep yourself away from dadaji and buva , knowing they were alone.

...I couldn't believe that my dad can run away from a situation, I felt down when I thought my dad was unable to face a situation where all his family was suffered, so only, but I was not knowing how to ask you, how to question you, and I was unable to show my closeness too. It was my mistake dad, I should have realized it without even asking you, I should have realized your situation too. I am sorry, please forgive me dad.

Surender just embraced his son and said: no Dev, actually I feel the relief now, I thought how you will react when you come to know about it when we went to chandenpur, but then years passed without any sign of it and I also forgot about it, but now when you brought the question in front of me, it helped me to relieve myself, I was able to find answer to myself, now I don't have to worry about anything... my mind is clear, and I can move forward. So I should thank you dear.

The tears just rolled down from his eyes and Surender released his arms slowly and said: it is too late, now you go to bed, Radhika may be looking for you, go

Dev: ji dad

Dev was about to walk away , but then he stopped for a moment and he looked at his mom's face. Suchi still stood there with her relief face.

Dev just came near and hugged her saying: sorry mom, I didn't mean to hurt you or dad, but, I am sorry, he is still my hero mom

Suchi didn't say anything, just hugged him back with a try to smile.

Dev slowly walked towards the stairs passing his dadaji's and buva's shadows, without knowing. And as if listening to an answer for the past years, they silently retired back to their room.

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Part 149 https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/47054333

uff.. how was it? did it reason everyone's action, or i left anything behind...except Dev's next plan... let's enjoyt he marriage for now, and then will come to his plan and his loved ones reaction.. ok.. for now i am takign a small break, until i type the next part...

Devika p.S: i think more than Dev and surender and suchi i am feelign a slight relief.. the full relief will come with last part only, but somewhere i can feel that little relief now because this is where i started this FF.. so...thanks.

Edited by Devika. - 13 years ago

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DAIRY25

@DAIRY25

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Posted: 13 years ago

#170

Its not easy to pen down human emotions ..especially when you are doubting ideal of your life ...but you once again did it very nicely ..👏 👏 .GREAT WORK 👍🏼 .