28thApr PM Conversation..IN ENGLISH...

Until today, whenever I used to think about you I used to feel really bad...thinking mine was an unrequited love...I was the one who loved you & you never did....but today I don't feel that way anymore...all I feel for you is SORRY. I had the courage at least to fall in love with somebody...but you...forget about falling in love you don't even know what love is; & you proved it in the court today.

Yes I do admit that you never loved me, but after what you have done today you are not even to be called a human being....because a human is one who has feelings and realisations....& you haven't got either of those. You have never felt what love is actually....do you even know what love is? Love is that one moment, a moment where you just lose yourself completely into. It's like jumping off from a high cliff with your eyes being shut, and still not having even a single trace of fear; because you are assured that there is someone who will surely hold your hand and will save you. You lose yourself completely in that one moment forgetting about all the sorrows and all the words. When in love....a person is helpless & has no control over him, but his heart does. Love assures you that you have lost yourself deeply into its depth...that is why it's said "FALLING IN LOVE"... NOT "RISE IN LOVE". Love can hurt you, trouble you, make you angry, make you smile, make you cry....love can become your strength and your weakness as well. Love teaches you everything but this love itself does not teach you forgiveness....because forgiveness and understanding are both related to ideals of life, and love does not believe in any ideals. Love is that one feeling where you think with all your heart & not the brain...& this one feeling takes you the closest to humanity.

Do you know what the true beauty of human kind is? Flown away in sentiments, ignoring the rights and wrongs a human makes mistakes....knowing that in the future he will have to pay the price for it.

PREM: Look Mukti, I never said I LOVE YOU....it was you...you were the one who said I LOVE YOU

I know...in spite of knowing what sort of person you are I fell in love with you...you never did. But for that one moment I had forgotten everything...in that one moment I have lived one complete lifetime. In that one moment I got happiness as well as sorrow, but you...you will never be able to live for that moment. You will never be able to feel that feeling of what it is like to cry for a person who at one time had given you the tears of joy as well as tears of sorrow. But you....you will never realise this.

I really feel sorry for you....you will always live such a life where there will be you & only you. You will always look for what you can achieve from life & one day you will see for yourself that you will have lost all your realisations.....because in your every realisation there is nobody except you and your selfishness. You know what Prem?!...I pray to God that YOU should fall in love too and should live for that one moment where you surrender your all to someone else....I am not sure Prem if you will EVER be in love.

I do not regret even to the slightest of surrendering my all to you...because Prem the feelings I had for you at that night were purely divine. I have never regretted that night...what I have regretted is that the night which changed my life did not change you even a little bit. The morning after that one night which made me a completely new person, that one moment which changed my whole life....that same moment entered your life and left too & you did not even realise. I REALLY FEEL SORRY FOR YOU...

Gosh!! thanks dear....thanks for sharing...it's a fab episode indeed....