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@Devika.

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Posted: 14 years ago

#431

Part 96

The empty cups were sitting over the night stand. Dev was resting his head on Radhika's lap with closed eyes and her hand was strolling over his small hairs. Her left hand was within his hold and was resting near his chest.

" Radhikaa"

Radhika: um

Dev: what actually you were repeating sitting there on the floor

Radhika: mandr

Dev: what mandr?

Radhika: That Mathaji told you, remember

Dev: um, but what is it?

Radhika: I can't tell

Dev: so it's a secret

Radhika: suppose to be.

Dev opening his eyes : so you cannot tell me about it.

Radhika: muhum

Dev: um that's ok..

The silence came again. And she continued to stroke on his hair. Time ticked by.

It was around 11 o' clock Sushma and dadaji came . Dev and Radhika took dadaji's blessing and Sushma gave hug to Dev. Radhika was about to hug sushma, she extended her hand out, to stop her.

A shiver passed thru Radhika, as she did not expect that from Sushma.

Everyone looked at Sushma's contempt face surprisingly. Taking few steps to the front Sushma forwaded her right hand to the front and quickly it moved aiming at Radhika's left ear and it just pressed nicely over those soft lobes with the wordings.......

"what you think of yourself, these all are child's play, Suchi might have easily forgive you, but not me, you need nice punishment, don't ever try to repeat it ,ok" but then her voice trailed off and the contempt face changed to remorseful expression and then the eyes filled up quickly and a smile brought on her lips and she hugged Radhika and her wet voice "don't give us surprises beta, we won't be able to take it, its been years seeing you and then you want to give us surprise like this, don't do it..please.. ".

Radhika hugged her back with her heavy heart unable to vent her emotions out, but then a drop rolled her eyes too.

"Sushma, why are making her to cry too" .....Yeshpal's voice made sushma to move back.

Sushma trying to come back to normal tone : oh so she is crying, let me see. Sushma held Radhika's chin and saw a drop of tear and her heaviness of her face..

Sushma with serious face : no this is not enough, she should shed more tears, for being away from us for this long. For being away from me for this long, for not talking with me for this long.

Yeshpal: sushma, she is not alone, think about it.

Sushma: ha for that she needs another pinch from me, keeping this as a secret from her sweety, now you see I won't make any sweet for you, only when the little one comes I will make for him, not for you..

Suddenly Lechu: buavaaaa, muwaaaa' looking at Dev with a wide smile: Bro did you here buawa also said 'him'

Sushma in confused tone: kya huva?

Sychi: nothing Sushma, they were simply fighting for no reason..

Sushma suddenly as if remembering something: one minute

She took out a small box and opened it and took a yellow color boll from it and coming near Radhika : now, open your mouth..

Radhika opened her mouth and she made Radhika to bite on it, sushma with a smile watched her chewing on it.

Yeshpal looking at Dev: this is your sushma buva , just now told her that she is not going to make any sweet, and see what she is doing now..

Sushma with a smile : this is not for Radhika, this is for the little one inside.

Surender: um, nice excuse., is it only for Radhika, or do we get our share too?

Sushma: all will get their share saying that she gave the box in Lechu's hand and she served it for everyone.

They chitchatted for sometime and then later in Radhika's room

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Radhika was laying down, resting her head on sushma's lap, and sushma was sitting next to her, Rest of the family was chatting down stirs.. Sushma started talking in trance ...

"why did you do like that Radhika? you really scared us? You should have seen Dev and Suchi's face. I really got scared, thinking how to help them? Suchi was in total confusion thinking facing your family and moreover your safety. Poor Dev , I never seen him with that face, and suchi was kept on asking him to give answers, and I was feeling guilty too, this all happened because of me na". then stroking on her hair sushma asked: why did you sacre us like that Radhika? did you ever thought of us?, tell me beta, kuch tho bolo, just for my satisfaction, please."

Radhika tried to move her throat, her eyes started shedding tears.....,

wiping it off.. Sushma : Radhika, I didn't mean to hurt you dear, but I want to know, what made you to hide like that?, from all of us, from your Dev

Radhika: vo vo it was my mistake Buava, for me everything around me was going wrong, in a trance she continued...I was in my sleep, a deep sleep, where I thought the dreams are true and it is really happening with me, and when I woke up, I didn't realize it was a dream, and I really wanted to live in that,....but it didn't come my way... whatever flashed in my mind in that sleep was so true to me, I thought I am losing everything, I wanted to hold back onto my dream and that took me to unwanted thoughts.. and dragged me to an area where it was just me and the darkness around me...

Then in trance she continued ...." you heard of Prince Siddarth story , right?, He thought the world is what he sees around him and there is only happiness and all that glittering is really gold, but when he stepped out from that border of limits he saw the reality , he saw people suffering, and he went in search for answers, I am not Gautham Budda, but I was also like him, whatever was around me and what ever i dreamed was true to me, and that misbelieve guided me to wrong thoguhts..

... and I ended up in a beautiful place, where I met these unknown people and they wake me up, they made me to realize that I need to live in reality than in those dream. , where I asked them my questions, and for me, I was able to see, and hear the answers thru the words and action of those people. ..

..... I was taking care of my hair very well so that it can grow beautifully and i can look beautiful.... and I met people who shaved their head and was wearing only one color dress, with widening her eyes..but they also looked very beautiful, without any of these.... and they all are happy , whereas I was complaining to Dev that I was losing my hairs during my first few months in U.S.;...... so what was that I was really complaining off, I don't know, nothing will last in this world Buava, nothing last forever."

Sushma pushed her head from her lap and looked at her face angrily: Dekh Radhika, I don't know what all you are saying now, somewhere I know, I am also responsible for your behavior and you are talking about gautham Budda, they all are Lords and don't try to compare His act with yours and don' t think that you can also shave your head and wear single color and walk around, then you know what will happen, .. bringing her energetic hands in a fist to the front... I will kill myself. Then calming down self , holding onto her chin : Radhika, please don't tell me that you are not liking all of us any more.

Radhika with a smile and tears in her eyes: how can I do that Buava, I know I did wrong, but that doesn't mean that I was away from all of you. I know it was my mistake, but somewhere I think I was needing it. How can I leave without you all, how will I survive without my Dev'

Sushma wrapping her arms around her upper back and bringing her closer to her: then why you are telling all these big dialogues, why don't you just tell ' sweety I am your Radhika, I cannot live without you all, I just tried to hide to see whether you will find me or not?'... but don't repeat it again OK. We all are here for you.

Radhika tightening her grip: I know Buava, I won't repeat the same, I saw dev's eyes, I was unable to look at him, I know I did hurt him, and he is blaming himself, but still I was not able to talk to him, because a simple word of sorry won't be enough to sooth his pain that I gave him, and I don't know what else to do?'

Sushma: at least I heard this much from you, that is enough for me.

The loud voice of laugh from downstairs, brought him to reality, suddenly he wiped off his tears and then looked down , holding onto the railings

"Is deedi is sleeping?' Lechu asked loud

Dev: I don't think , let me check

Radhika sat properly as she heard Dev's voice outside, so did sushma , they sat as if everything was alright.

Dev entered the room

Sushma: I forgot to give you some thing Radhika

Radhika looked at her in question..?

Sushma getting up from bed and with a smile: One second, will be right back

She smiled at dev and went out from the room

Dev coming near to Radhika and sitting near: so, you were not sleeping

Radhika: we were just talking

Dev looking at her eyes deeply: talking what?

Radhika: just like that

Dev: about chandenpur

Radhika with a relief: um

Dev held her chin and then placed a kiss over her forehead and looked into her eyes again: your eyes are wet

Radhika with a sudden uneasiness tried to wipe it off her eyes

Dev: don't worry Radhika, I was just joking..

Radhika looked at him with a relief.

Sushma came back with a packet and sat on edge of the bed.

"this is from your birju Bhayya,.... here , you only open and see"

Dev took the packet : I know what will be inside?

Sushma: um?

Dev opened it and gave those candies in Rdhika's hand: Buava, you don't know one more parson is here who drool over this.

Sushma: who! I know, my brother only na

Dev: um, and then looking at Radhika: you better save few for him..

"what you all are eating" Lechu came in along with Suchi.

All got into bed and picked on candy and started chewing on it. Dev smiled as he took the beed chain and also a brown color nail polish. He smiled and said: he never change

Radhika looked at them

Suchi: Dev. Go and give dad one piece of this candy, or he will complain later

Dev: Ha mom

They shared their lovely moment'

The night was feeling very cold, Dev closed the window. He turned the light off as Radhika placed the book away on that night stand.

The night lamp was giving the privacy for the couple , to see each other only.

As usual dev held her in his arm as he rested his back on to that head rest : His eyes were open and he was looking straight blindly, his mind was playing with her words. His left arm went on rubbing her upper shoulder

Dev: Radhika

Radhika: um

Dev: can you tell me a story

Radhika raised her lashes : um?

Dev: please Radhika, any story, I want to be like a kid tonight, want to hear one story, please

Radhika: I don't know any stories

Dev: don't lie, I know you are reading a lot and even the story of that frog will do

Radhika: are you teasig me..

Dev moving her to the front and looking at her face: do I sound like, no Radhika, I am serious, I want to hear a story from you tonight..

Radhika: I don't know any story

Dev: please

Radhika moved away from his arms and looked at him unbelievably

Dev resting his head on her lap: please tell me, I will listen carefully

Radhika's mouth went dry and no way she was able to think of any story. Suddenly she got an excuse, rubbing onto her stomach she said: I think baby is sleeping, if I talk ..

Dev: Is she! That fast, without saying goodnight to me, let me check

He just rolled onto his stomach and brought his face closer to her tummy and then wrapped his arms around waist line and started talking to the little one, and their talk went on as Radhika stroked onto his hair, and slowly slowly he closed his eyes in that position. Radhika just kept on looking at his side profile. Buava's question echoed in her ears "how can you hide away from Dev?"

"sorry buava, how can I tell you all about my madness, I thought he will be happy being away from me; all these years everyone listened to my talk and I never felt I am irritating anyone, but when I felt my talks were interfering his work, my likes has no meanings for him, my concerns had no value for him, what will I do? Even my own mom was getting irritated with me, she was scolding me for everything without listening to me.. and I felt all alone, all alone , I wish to see you all very badly, and I had so many wishes, but when nobody was there to listen to me, then I preferred to hide, hide away from everyone, I didn't want to be the burden, especially for him, hardly I tried to read the real meaning for his words, I just took those words as it came to me, and it was all painful, it gave me a stabbing pain when I realized he is not even listening to me.. so only i ran away from everyone, but i never thought of doing it, it just happened on my way, If i might have not met that Mathaji , then i don't know what would have happened to me? where would i be end up? even when i was travelling with Mathaji, i never knew where i was going, I just followed Her whereever she took me and showed me this new world in front of me..' when i came ot know about the little one, it didn't excited me at all, I never felt the baby inside, till he felt the little one on his arms, till his warm hands stroked over it, when i listened to his baby talks... but now i know, now i feel my baby.. adn he is near me, so i don't know what happened to me, but i don't want to live away from him anymore, not even in my dream, I need him and he needs me and our baby.'. she looked down, and saw his sleeping face resting next to her tummy... wiping off her tear, she bend her neck back, resting comfortably over a pillow and drift into sleep.....

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will Pm tomorrow... thank you for reading my post.... have a good day..

Part 97

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/41084147

Edited by Devika. - 14 years ago

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abhilasha_dream

@abhilasha_dream

Rocker

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Posted: 14 years ago

#432

First of all thank u for fulfilling my reQUEST.This is my thanks🤗 It was really a TREAT to read this part.. 😃

good to see that our Radhika is coming back little by little and our Dev also has heard a bit part of her mind which will be useful for him to make his DECISIONS now 👍🏼 and waiting for Radhika to share her complete thoughts wid Dev.😊

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anu

@anu17

Stunner

+ 2

Posted: 14 years ago

#433

wow di gr8....she is hiding her feeling.....normally we are like that na...hiding feelings na......she loves Dev a lot..wow ..........Sushma buava is cool I like today part...di you are near to 100 part wow part time near.............waiting for the next part...when you got time update it...love it.........

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Putija

@PutijaChalhov

Stunner

+ 9

Posted: 14 years ago

#434

A lovely and emotional update liked the Sushma and Radhika talk and Dev listening to it without them knowing .

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DAIRY25

@DAIRY25

Navigator

Posted: 14 years ago

#435

SEARCH A BEAUTIFUL HEART INSTEAD OF A BEAUTIFUL FACE, BEACAUSE....'BEAUTIFUL THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS GOOD BUT GOOD THINGS ARE ALWAYS BEAUTIFUL ' this is what our loving dreamy Radhika and our realistic Dev learn from their experience till now..they will never let this happen again as they not only love each other but other person lives in their soul . THANK U FOR THIS EMOTIONAL PART .

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vijayarjun

@vijayarjun

Beginner

Posted: 14 years ago

#436

nice update,it reminds me of my time when i came 2 Sweden leaving ,behind my fam n my lovely country Sri Lanka.I had gone through rough prases 2.My name is Masuma n living here past 20yrs,but still sometime i long 4 my country.Yeah spring is here2

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suwin

@suwin

Inactive

Posted: 14 years ago

#437

thanks devika for this emotional and beautiful update 🤗 waiting for radhika to share her feelings with dev... update soon 😃

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Radha

@radha_bilahari

Voyager

+ 2

Posted: 14 years ago

#438

Devika,

You had great sensitivity when you narrated that a mere sorry will not suffice for having caused great anguish for Dev and Radhika is still guilty for it. It is important to have a great sense of remorse for your mistakes than just uttering sorry. Beautifully said.

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ekta15

@ekta15

Rocker

+ 2

Posted: 14 years ago

#439

THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU for a seet ,lovely,emotional,heart touching update.actually i don't know myself what should i say about this update.
i can understand radhika's situation who is feeling guilty very guilty and this satement is compltely true"hardly I tried to read the real meaning for his words, I just took those words as it came to me".problems only occur between good relations only due to this.so dev heard those private talks but its good for their relation although.he tried to listen a story to open up radhika but sad that idea didn't work.its ok she will open up AAKHIR PATNI KISKI HAI DEV KI NA THEN HOW IS IT POSSIBLE YAAR.
keep it up di and one thing i want to say actually have to say thanks for -
-this ff story gives me some peaceful moments in life (more after this separation and union of radev)for which i wait
-and u have put ur experience of life and u give us something to learn and face this life problems

i don't know actually what i am feeling now .its like i am learning a lot and these all words are coming in mind to say to u
thanks from bottom of my heart
i have always said directly as order to post but really i am requesting u today to continue ur life experience
waiting for next

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radhika5

@radhika5

Dazzler

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Posted: 14 years ago

#440

Originally posted by: ekta_bajaj
THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU for a seet ,lovely,emotional,heart touching update.actually i don't know myself what should i say about this update.
i can understand radhika's situation who is feeling guilty very guilty and this satement is compltely true"hardly I tried to read the real meaning for his words, I just took those words as it came to me".problems only occur between good relations only due to this.so dev heard those private talks but its good for their relation although.he tried to listen a story to open up radhika but sad that idea didn't work.its ok she will open up AAKHIR PATNI KISKI HAI DEV KI NA THEN HOW IS IT POSSIBLE YAAR.

I love Ekta's analysis--she really brought out the essence of this episode that belongs to Radhika--
You did great in bringing out the complexity of Radhika's mind set--her relationship with Sushma made it possible for the "dam to finally burst".....
Loved Radhika's "monologue"----yes, she did not connect with her baby--as in her mind she was trying to disconnect with everything----something both of them had dreamed of together...
"Sorry" is such a small word--and at times not enough to really tell the other person your guilt and your remorse--sometimes actions speak louder and it is nice to see Radhika showing her feelings towards Dev--

And Dev---you really bring out his love and anguish and his caring------

You weave a beautiful story and through it you have unknowingly or knowingly taught us so much about the complexity of the human mind--and relationship

Now waiting to see how Dev helps Radhika to return to her former self--what decisions he makes about their future--will he be happy with the decisions he makes in terms of his own dream and goals?....