Hi GHSP friends......today im posting after a long hiatus......was keeping away from the forum...and Geet for my own reasons......so a big hi and hugs to all the mothers in the forum from me.....
Im posting today because of Geets MC......it feels bad to write the word........and I feel related and sad at the same time. Because exactly a month back.....on 14 feb...I underwent emergency surgery because I had tubal pregnancy which ruptured, had internal bleeding...the tube and the 5 week embryo had to be taken out.
I keep telling myself that the emotional pain for me was very less....because I have 2 kids already and this was a third and accidental unplanned pregnancy. Wanting to be fit and alive for my kids was the focus the first week...didnt have any time or energy to feel anything beyond that. But it sunk in later ...as i recuperated that what happened was as much a life-event...as the birth of my two kids. I am never going to be able to forget it....nor can i forget that even though unplanned..it was mine.
Geet that character going through this pain brought me back to this forum today....i have no great words to say except that reality is much bitter and worse than drama.
I want to salute the woman today...the woman God made for a highest purpose ...of being the instrument to bring new life into this world. She can do thousands of other things...be the executive...drive and cook and host and love ...the list is endless....but this journey of motherhood and the responsibility....only woman has the guts to take.
All women want kids..knowing that a good percentage can have miscarriages, spontaneous abortions, or even threat to thier own life esp during childbirth. The rate of mothers dying during childbirth is still high in third world countries...in which mothers still die while delivering because they were not in a hospital and they needed blood, or because they needed an emergency C- section but the facility was too far away....or because complications could not be treat timely.
And the path to this is full of vomitings, nausea, headaches, tired back, reflux, varicose veins, and carrying 20-40 pounds weight on ur body 24/7 till u deliver.
But even then...99.9999% women want to go through this...want to have kids..want to have the responsibility...want to have the sleepless nights of feeding ...and the risks above...to be "mother".
The highest status a human being can have.
I salute all the women..who underwent this journey and I salute those brave women even more who dealt with MCs or tubals.....and still had courage to hope and pray and try again...and who restore faith in God by going ahead and having successful babies ......
My experience has made me appreciate the gifts I have in the form of my two kids......and made me related and close to all others who faced problems.
God made the WOMAN...because he knew...MAN cannot do this in a million years.
Please don't despair for a character in a daily soap....she is just acting( brilliant..but its still acting)
Pray for those women instead who are pregnant that they may have healthy fullterm babies, pray for those who are struggling to conceive, pray for those who are suffering from MCs in reality.
pray for thier strength and for peace and god's love and healing to flow to them.
Again..I salute..the woman. you all........she is you , she is me, she is everywhere.
Peace,
Bluefish.